"Sehun had finished yesterday hyung that mean we all got a free day for today" baekhyun tap his chin "It’s weird to have all members having no schedules on the same day"

"At least I can go out and meet some girls" chanyeol grinned "Better than stuck with some crazy fans, smiling and doing anything SM want us to do" and the others nod in agreement

D.O snap his finger "Then make sehun hang out with jihae noona today! Make him spend more time with her to make him realize that he love noona" he said before he went to the kitchen to make some food.

Suho smile "Good idea kyungsoo. Someone wake sehun up" he ordered and glanced at s. Baekhyun pretend he’s studying, chanyeol was reading english magazine that he can't even understand and D.O-

"DON’T YOU DARE CHOOSE ME HYUNG! No food for you then!" D.O shouted from the kitchen. Suho rolled his eyes "Arrasso omma" and his eyes landed at kai who sleep on the couch. Suho smile and walk to his direction "Kkamjjongie~ I know you’re awake. Wake sehun up please? Or that stach of under your bed will be on manager hyung’s hand later"

*DAMN NO! Those are my babies!* kai eyes widened in horror. Immediately he jolt up and dashed to sehun’s room then a yelled was heard

"I HATE YOU SUHO HYUNG!!!" while suho just smile in reply

"Well, I love you too kai"

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In front of the door, there’s kai who start sweating like pigs. He gulped on how the hell did he end up on waking the magnae up

*God please kept my body parts on their place and save me from Oh Sehun’s wrath* he prayed on his mind and nod before entering the lion’s den. There was the magnae who still asleep on his bed. Kai gulped and brave himself to approached the younger boy

"Sehun-ah, wake up" he poke sehun’s arm. Sehun eyes slowly opened and kai back away from sehun for his safety *Here comes sehun’s morning wrath!* he closed his eyes, waiting for sehun to kick and punch him

But no. Sehun slowly turn to kai and smile "Thanks for waking me up" he then go to wash himself, leaving kai speechless

"Did- did he just smile at me for waking him up?" but he smile and thank god for answering his prayer before went out from the room and yelled "I JUST WAKE SEHUN UP AND HE DIDN’T EVEN PUNCH ME!"

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"Noona wake up!" sehun shake jihae’s body, even singing to wake her up. "Old mcdonald sun is up eeee i eee i oooo~ And on that morning sehun is waking you up eee i eee i oooo~ With a kiss kiss here and a hug hug here~ EVERYONE IS HAPP-"

*bam!*

"What the hell are you doing here in my apartment, barging inside my area, went inside a woman room without her permission and singing those awful song- since when old mcdonald had a sun? Your idiocy just told me that you never study on your entire life. How the hell you even graduate high school anyway?" jihae grumbled, glaring at sehun who didn’t wavered at her icy glare

He smile "First I’m waking noona up. Second you’ll let me in here because I’m your adorable sehun. Third I did study. Fourth I can graduate because I’m smart" he winked at her and dodge another thrown pillow at him

"Shut up. So why did you wake me up sehun-ah?"

"You said you want to change me back to straight so let’s go to the beach and have another lesson of your ways to make me straight again! I already wear my shades and cap" sehun said excitedly

Jihae sighed "I’m sure beach and my ways didn’t have any connection in first place. You just want to play" she mumble

"Anniyo. Let’s go wash up and go quickly!" sehun pushed jihae to the bathroom and close the door "I’m waiting for you outside noona" he yelled before going out from her room

Jihae look at the door and scoffed in disbelieve "Psh he's such a kid. Well I could just think of a plan later when we’re at the beach" jihae chuckled and washed herself

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"Sehun-ah, did you see this? It’s me! The beautiful buzzlight!" jihae exclaimed, pointing at her so called beautiful buzz sand figure. Sehun chortled "Aigoo noona. It wasn’t even look like buzz. And buzz is a boy I remind you"

"It is! Well then there’s a girl version of buzz starting now" jihae exclaimed

"Then am I woody?"

Jihae eyebrows furrowed at sehun and shake her head "No. You're woody's girlfriend"

"And why do I become a girl?" Sehun frowned

"Because you're gay" jihae beamed

Sehun eyebrows furrowed "Why you noona" he run towards her and jihae shriek, running away with full speed

"You're dead when I caught you noona" sehun roared and jihae's laugh can be heard. Sehun surprised her as he run 2 times faster and trapped jihae on his arm "GOTCHA!!!"

"Ahhhhhhh!!!! Let go let go!!" Jihae tried to squirm away but failed with sehun steel grip on her "Yah I'm your noona!" She threatened

Sehun laugh maniacally "And this dongsaeng of yours will eat you rawr~" he playfully growled

"What a cute couple" a couple commented as they passed by. Sehun and jihae turn their heads towards the couple.

In reflex, jihae push sehun away and denied the accustion of her and sehun having a romantic feelings for each other "No he's not my boy friend"

Ouch. That hurt. Sehun lips hitched up to a melancholy smile. It hurt him when she denied that mean she accidentally told him that she didn’t bear any romantic feelings for him at all.

Suddenly, his hand move on its own accord to jihae’s hand. He hold her hand and said something that shock jihae.

"Because I'm her fiancé"

Jihae give her attention towards him, surprised. Did she heard him right? A fiance?

Sehun kiss jihae on the crown of her head "Right yeobo?" He grinned, ignoring the baffled face of the older woman and at the same time loving on how perfectly jihae’s hand fit in his.

"Awww look at them baby, they’re so sweet" the girl cooed while the guy just smile as he her hair

"Thank you" sehun smile

After the couple left, the older woman pulled her hands away and put them on her hips

"Really? A fiance Oh Sehun?" Jihae said with puzzled expression

"I can't said to them that the Exo-k's Sehun is gay right?" Sehun retort back

Jihae eyebrows shot up "But you're indeed gay"

"Who's in the process on getting back to straight. Come on noona it's not like you haven't seen a liar before" sehun rolled his eyes and left, leaving jihae speechless

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14 March 2014

Bored.

So bored.

I blew my fringe away and I puffed up my cheek. It’s been 3 months and 10 days since I saw noona. Whenever I tried to approached her someone would just hog her away. First xiumin hyung need to be so stupid to asked jihae noona to take care of them. And after 3 months since she's back, everyone would always hog her.

Every. Single. Time.

And now I hope that once I went back to the dorm I can hang out with noona but instead I found out that she’s asking for a day out today. I can’t help but felt annoyed and sad. I let a big sighed and slumped on the coach. If noona wasn’t out today maybe we could go to the new cafe near our dorm with arcade games on it. Or maybe a bookstore or buying clothes in myeongdong and many more.

"Sehun-ah~"

I sharply turn around, anticipating noona’s face but it was luhan instead. My shoulder deflated "Hi xiao lu" I mumbled

He blinked and sit beside me "Okay that’s a gloomy greeting- AH! I know. Did you expect that the one who’s calling you is jihae?" he grinned slyly and nudged me "Huh huh huh?"

I grunted, punching luhan’s arm playfully "Shut up hyung. No. I’m just not in the mood that’s all" I explained. Luhan wriggled his eyebrows annoyingly and said "Hyung believe you sehun-ah"

I pouted. Whatever. Imagine what you want stupid deer. Ugh, why noona isn’t coming back? It’s already been long since she went out!

"Sehun-ah. Hyung really need you to be truthful to me. Are you sure you didn’t love jihae? Even it’s a tiny bit?"

I shake my head. Honestly, me myself was unsure. Sometimes I think that I might have a little crush on her and sometimes it was just a platonic brother love for his sister. I don’t know. It’s like an on off button.

Seeing the doubtful look on my face, luhan give me a pat on my shoulder "It’s better for you to realize before it’s too late" and left me, going to his room.

I look blankly at the floor as luhan’s word rang on my head. Is it true, am I starting to fall for jihae noona?

Maybe if I see noona and hang out with her it will help me a bit to understand my feeling better

I stand up and wear jacket, cap and mask. When I’m struggling to wear my snickers, I heard luhan asked me

"Where are you going?"

"Off to noona’s apartment" and close the door.

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"Today has been fun" donghae smile. I just nod back in return. I was supposed to be happy. I mean, donghae was clearly trying hard to win me back but I didn’t felt flutter nor happy. He didn’t give me the butterflies when he gently look at me with his cute eyes, when he smile sweetly nor when he said “I love you Lee Jihae” repeatedly

Do I love Lee Donghae?

Yes but no more

I bit my lips. Instead sehun now give me the feelings once I’d got for donghae. Am I doing the right thing? Leading donghae on when I’m clearly in love with sehun?

I bid my goodbye but donghae hold me back by my wrist. I turned to him "Yes?"

"Does this meant we’re back together?"

I sighed "Donghae it’s good enough for you that I’m willingly to hang out with you. I’m sorry but wound doesn’t heal that fast" and I felt guilty when I saw his hurt face

Slowly he let go and give a small smile "I understand. I’m willing to wait for you even if it’s a thousand years jihae" he said seriously yet I didn’t felt nothing. I merely smile and bid him last goodbye before entering my apartment

Why am I always found myself loving the wrong person? Either it’s a jerk or someone who didn’t love me as a woman at all

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I wake up, sweating heavily and pant, catching my breath.

That darn scene even haunted me up on my dream.

My breath hitched when the scene replayed on my mind. I grip my blanket tighter and the first drop of tears flow out from my eyes. I burrowed my head between my hands as I kept crying over her. It pained me when I hide over the wall, knowing noona went out with donghae. It angered me that she’s seem fine when I’m here, hurting over her. No matter on how much I kept telling myself that I didn’t love her but my mind always trailed off, imagining her face then a smile will lit up immediately on my face. Nobody except jihae could make me felt better even when I’m having a worst day ever.

Right now I felt so vunerable and insecure. My hand clenched to a fist and my chest tightened imagining the possibilty of noona going back together with donghae. The heavy regret if I let her loose in front of my very two eyes, smiling her sweet smile to other guys but me.

No! There’s no way in hell I’ll let him get her back!

And I’m no longer going to deny it.

I’m in love with Lee Jihae and will give my 100% to make her mine. I’ll take advantage of her lesson to make me straight to make her fall for me.