Before the Accident
Lost in the Now and Found in the Past![](https://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-snc6/250746_479953508732564_428771147_n.jpg)
“Speaking”
‘Thoughts’
At Age 7
Your POV
“Panda,” I called out to my best friend, Tao who’s two years older than me.
He laughs as he hands me a box with panda wrapping paper, my favorite animal next to a tigers of course.
“What this?”
“Open it,” he tells me with excitement ringing in his voice.
I nod and open it to see sitting there is a black and white stuff tiger, but its shading and pattern is more like a pandas. Just the shades change to show stripes of a tiger. Around its neck is a little pendant with a panda face on it. I open it to see two pictures already inside of Tao and me.
“Panda I love it.”
He smiles proudly, “I thought I’d give that to you since you're moving to America tomorrow.”
I look down and nod my head trying to hide my tears.
Yet it doesn’t work I still start crying along with Tao.
“You had to remind me panda.”
I hang my head I feel myself being pulled against him and I let more tears fall from my eyes.
“I’m going to miss you, panda.”
“I know cause I’ll miss you more,” he laughs and pulled me in a tighter hug.
I know it is to hide his tears. Even though I know that he’s a crybaby he still at times tries to hide his tears from me.
I hear my mother shout for me and I look up to see my mother standing on top of the hill.
I looked back at Tao and he smiled at me, “We’ll be friends forever, but one day I want to marry you.”
I smile up at him and nod my head taking his hand, “Alright lets promise to love each other forever.”
Tao’s POV
When I watched her enter the car I let the water works fall without any control. I didn’t want to be a mess to her. I want her to remember me as her strong wushu warrior and her loving panda.
I know that I’ll always remember her as the girl who had stolen my heart and later ran off with it.
Present
“Sweetheart what do you think of our new home?”
I look up at an old traditional home on a wealthy side of Seoul and tsk in distaste.
My mother looks at me and sighs, “Sweetheart not everything can be the way you want it.”
I shrug my shoulders as I think to myself, ‘All I want is to see him again.’
I grab my suitcases and walk inside the old home looking around as I make my way to what is supposed to be my room.
I start moving things around setting up all my panda things around my room.
I look up and sigh, “Why is it I can only remember that one moment and not anything else about you. Panda why can’t I remember anything about you?”
I slip down under my covers and look up at the poster of a music group that I like.
I sigh and start to hum a little tune telling myself that I shouldn’t cry myself to sleep, but my mind doesn’t listen to me.
I fell asleep with the panda locket in my hands that will no longer open.
Still it gives me comfort from the pain of loneliness.
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