[Trans] ViVi Magazine (October 2013)

Winter stories put on play by each of these passionate men

2PM

Beast Idols 2PM released their 7th single “Winter Games” in October. The theme is an image these passionate men haven’t had before: “winter.” What kind of winters have they been through, and what kind of thoughts do they have about the winterseason? They individually talked to us about their sad memories of loved ones to what winter songs they like.

NICHKHUN
Q. Do you like winter?
Although I like summer too, if I had to choose one over the other I would say I like cold weather more. Plus there’s the warm and happy Christmas.

Q. What is your warm memory of winter?
When I was 8 years old my family and I traveled to America and I saw snow for the first time in my life. Since I lived in Thailand at the time I had never seen snow. Everyone made snowmen together, had snowball fights, and rode sleds. I remember it was really fun.

Q. What is your cold memory of winter?
6 years ago when I was still a trainee at the company. The first snow of the year had fallen but I was all by myself and lonely so I called my father. I told him “I miss you.” Even now I often call my father when it snows. Since it doesn’t snow in Thailand where my dad is, I want to report it to him.

Q. What winter fashion for girls do you like?
I think girls who wear Mouton boots are cute. The style I probably like best is when leggings and a parka are paired with Mouton boots.

Q. Is there a memory you have of a loved one when it becomes winter?
When snow had piled up at Seoul Tower in Namsan, I went up it with a girl who I had an unrequited love with and I prepared a mug with hot chocolate in it. There were marshmallows floating in it. It didn’t work out with her in the end though…….

Q. What kind of winter date do you want to try?
I want to go to a skating rink. What’s my skating level? Up to the point where I can slide around without toppling over (laugh).

Q. How would you warm up the person you like if they were shivering?
I would take off my coat and put it over her while giving her a back hug (laugh).

Q. What song do you listen to most in winter?
Erin Benet’s “Last Time.” Like the wonderful lyrics that say “This is the last time I fall in love,” I want to have that kind of love as well. I once got stuck walking around the streets of Apgujeong by myself at Christmas and I listened to that mp3 the entire time. Even though it was about minus 10 degrees celsius, it warmed my soul.

[AN: If it's like this---> ***|*** it's Nichkhun's POV, if it's like this--->***-*** it's Yoona's] But if it's just---> *** it none of them's POV or it can be like add-ons 

Winter Games

No why...
Can't live without U
Please...come...here
（So Winter Games）

Mot-to so-ba-de mi-tsu-me-tai-no-sa
Ma-i-chi-ru yu-ki-ga fu-re-nu-you-ni so-noe-ga-o so~tto
Ko-no mu-ne ki-hi-yo-se-ru

Ko-go-e-ru ho-ho ka-ga-ya-ku na-mi-da ko-no o-mo-i mou o-sae-ki-re-nai
Me-no-mae-no （don't cry）ki-mi-ga (ki-mi-ga) sa-sa-ru (i-to-si-sa-ga fu-ri-shi-ki-ru-yo)

So Winter Games Ha-na-re-nai-de ai-ga game de-mo ka-ma-wa-nai
a-tsu-ku tsu-yo-ku ko-ko-ro mi-da-re-ru-yo

Hello Winter Games Ai-ta-ku-na-ru na-ki-ta-ku-na-ru sa-mui-yo-ru
Ha-na-sa-nai ma-yo-wa-nai-ki-mi-na-shi-jya i-ki-ra-re-nai

I want U I-ma-mo-nao
I-ma ta-me-rae-ba kie-chi-mau
Kiss no flavor wa-su-re-chi-mau
Ai-no ka-ta-chi-wo show me how
I-tsu-mo ki-mi-no-ta-me-ni mau
I can't stop Ko-no-sa-ki-mo nao
Na-ni-ga-at-te-mo mo-to-meau
Ai-shi I wanna just hold you now

A-shi-a-to-sae nu-ku-mo-ri-sae ta-me-rau-ma-ni kie-te-shi-mau-yo
How can't I love U baby
I can't stop you baby

So Winter Games Ko-no-i-no-chi-mo ko-no-mi-rai-mo ki-mi-to-to-mo-ni
Fu-ka-ku a-ma-ku i-ki-wo-shi-tei-ru-yo
Hello Winter Games Ki-ma-gu-re-de-mo a-ya-ma-chi-de-mo sa-ge-ra-re-nai
Ai-shi-te-ru shin-ji-te-ru koi-no-ya-wo so-no-mu-ne-ni

I believe I believe（I believe) I believe I believe (I believe)
Only U only U babe... Only U only U babe...
Only U only U only Only U only U babe

Sh-ji-roi se-kai-ni sa-ma-yo-u to-ki-no card wo ko-no-te-ni
Ai-da-ke-wo nu-ki-to-ri sa-sa-ge-ru ah...

Ai-no game de-mo ka-ma-wa-na-i
Ze-tta-i u-shi-na-i-ta-ku-na-i
Ki-mi-gai-na-kya i-mi-ga-na-i
Da-re-ga na-ni-wo-io-u-to ka-ma-wa-na-i
Ko-no-ki-mi-chi ka-wa-ran-ai ki-mi-no ko-ko-ro ha-na-sa-nai-sa
Ai-wo-to-do-ke-tai
Ki-mi-da-ke-shi-ka-mie-na-in-da

So Winter Games Ha-na-re-na-i-de ai-ga game de-mo ka-ma-wa-nai
Ha-na-sa-nai ma-yo-wa-na ki-mi-na-shi-jya i-ki-ra-re-nai

I believe...

TRANSLATION
No! why?... Can't live without U!
Please...come...here!

(So Winter Games) I want to gaze at you more closely
In order to keep the snow fluttering down from touching you
I softly pull your smile against my chest

woe...Those freezing cheeks, shining tears
I can't control my feelings any more
You (you) are right there in front of me (don't cry)
(My affectionate feelings for you come down really hard)

So Winter Games Don't leave me
I don't care if love is a game
Hotly, strongly my heart gets all shook up

Hello! Winter Games I feel tempted to see you
A cold night when I feel tempted to cry
I won't let you go, my heart won't get lost
I can't live without you

I want U as ever
If I hesitate now, you'd disappear
I'd forget the flavor of your kiss
The shape of love Show me how
I always dance for you
I can't stop from now on as well
No matter what happens we need each other
I love you and wanna just hold you now

Even your footsteps, even your warmth
They'll disappear as I hesitate
How can'I love U baby!
I can't stop you baby woe...

So Winter Games Even my life
Even this future with you
Deeply, sweetly they breathe

Hello! Winter Games Even if it's a fickle manner
Even if it's a mistake This is inevitable
I love you I believe in you
Piercing your heart with shafts of love

I believe I believe (I believe) I believe I believe (I believe)
Only U only U babe... Only U only U babe...
Only U only U only! Only U only U babe!

I get hold of the card of time that roves the white world
I take out only love and devote it to you ah...

I don't care even if it's a game of love
I don't ever want to lose you
Without you, it'd mean nothing
I don't care no matter what anyone says
My feelings won't change
I won't let go of your heart
I want to send you my love
I can't see anything but you

So Winter Games Don't leave me
I don't care if love is a game
I won't let you go, my heart won't get lost
I can't live without you

I believe...

(cr:http://kpoplyrics2you.blogspot.com/2013/10/2pm-winter-games-lyrics.html)

Winter Games

***

The snow is starting to fall again, so is my tears.

How can I forget what happened that winter?

How can I forget that beautiful memory?

But also, how can I forget that painful thing? 

How can a foolish heart let go of something so memorable yet painful?

How can a heart forget the pain brought by Winter Games?

***|***

"Good job everyone" the director shouted, the staff and of course we clapped by that. Finally we already wrapped up the filming for our newest music video in Japan, Winter Games.

Who could have thought that after several years a song like this would come up? Who would imagine?

"Khun are you okay" Taec asked, it's known to my members that I'm not really comfortable with the song. But of course I wont let anyone or any personal matter affect my work. It has been all in the past right?

"Yeah of course buddy" I absent-mindedly answered. "it's all in the past right? Dont mind me" I added and chuckled.

The other members gathered around me. 

"Dont force yourself Khun-hyung" Wooyoung said. I dont know if what he said is the truth or i'm still convincing myself that it's not really what's happening. That I've already moved on? That I've completely convinced myself that it's all in the past? Or am i just ignoring the fact that I haven't actually forgotten every simple detail of what happened that winter.

I stood up and smiled to all of the othe other members "Let's go for dinner. I'll treat you guys" I can see that they look at each other with confusion, nonetheless they followed me. Well it's food.

***-***

I've been saying to myself that it's all in the past but I can't help but blame myself for the situation I'm facing right now. i know it's all my fault.I've been thinking, how is HE doing?

We've been preparing for a Japanese album too, I heard also that they are also going to promote their newest song in Japan.

"You're in deep thoughts unnie? Seohyun approached and asked. The maknae sure is observant.

"It's nothing Seo-baby" I smiled. Of course my members know they all know what really happened. But they chose to remain in silence amidst of this.

"Hmmm girls" Yuri said, you can see her in the eyes that she's hesitant to tell what she should tell.

"Spill it Yul" Tiffany simply said. It's obvious that she actually know something and this time I know it's concerning me

"2-2-2PM invited us for a meal" Yuri nervously said.

They what? "2PM?" I asked, that means him.

"Actaully it's Taecyeon oppa who invited us, but he said all of their members would be there,well if we're free tomorrow" she said, the excitement is obvious but she's still trying to hide it.

I looked at Taeyeon unnie to asked if we're free tomorrow. "I already asked oppa, he said we're free" and she understand the look i gave her.

"All of their members?" I asked. Hmmmmm how do I put this. I want to meet him, but I also feel it's better not to.

"If you dont want Yoong to go out then we'll just tell them we're not free" Jessica unnie said, forcing a smile.

"No, i'm going" I said and smiled to them."i dont want to spoil the fun and besides that it;s been a long time since we met them" I continued. "A very long time from the last time that we met those dorks oppars" I said while smiling. "those oppars and of course, him" I said in a whisper.

***|***

"It's all the nine girls not just her, it's gonna be okay" I convinced them. But most likely it's like convincing myself. The other girls are also my friends. I think I've lalready moved on and I think it's already time to face her.... well I think?

"You're sure about that?" Junho asked

"Of course, and you guys cant wait to see the girls would I spoil that?" I fake a chuckle.Tring to hide the fear of meeting her up close again. 

Well Nichkhun buck Horvejkul, it's already the time.

***-***

What would I say to him.... Hmmmmm Hi? Hello? Or ask if he has already eaten? Wait why should I ask that if we are going for a meal right? Hmmm maybe this 'How have you been Nichkhun-shi' wait that's too formal, but it cant be like before again. It woulkd be too awkward for me to call him oppa now. Hmm what if-

"Yah Yoona!" Hyoyeon unnie exclaimed.

"Unnie why are you shouting?" i innocently asked, wait i think I know what happened

"I've been calling you for thousand of times already" yeah that's it, like what i expected

"Why?" 

"i'm asking if you're already ready so we can go" She said while looking something in her bag

"Ahhhh.... yeah let's go" I answered and smiled

"Yoona, if you're feeling uncomfortable just tell us okay?" She said and hugged me

"Of course unnie" I said and hugged her back, but what i answered is a lie, a white lie indeed. I'm not going to ruin this night. Not like what I did before. No, I'll do everything not to feel uncomfortable. This is for my unnirs anf of course Seohyun isn't it?

Or is it for myself? Would I try to make myself comfortable to be technically with him? To talk with him and end what should I end and start something new?

Well Im Yoona, it's already the time.

***|***

While the other guys and girls I'm here scribbling something on my phone. What am i writing? Nothing, just to keep myself busy. We are done with the dinner and it's already time to catch up with one another. I can see her on my peripheral view also doing the same thing with her phone. i know her too well to say that.

"But honestly guys, you are really doing great you just filled the Tokyo Dome" Taeyeon said in awe and i just smiled at what she's saying.

"You girls too, concerts here and there and it's a complete success" Taecyeon said in return.

Praises and of course teases those are what you can hear in this conversation.

"Ah Yoona" I gathered my confidence to call her and it's obvious that she's in shock because she just looked at me with the wide eyes. They (other members of 2PM and SNSD) are still busy laughing and chatting so I think they didn't notice that I called Yoona.

"Can we talk somewhere private?"

***|***

"You must have been shocked right?" I asked while guiding her to one of the benches outside the restaurant. Actually it's like a garden and this restaurant is really private and exclusive, so I'm quite sure there are no papparazzis there.

"Frankly, I still can remember every detail of what happened that night" I continued

"Oppa"

"The night that-

***

"Where are we really going oppa?" Yoona asked she's still in blinfold and Nichkhun's guiding her.

"I'm cold" she complained and pouted.

"Okay I'm going to take this off now Yoong okay?" Nichkhun said and a view only in dreams can be seen is in front of Yoona. Lights in different colors blinking. Everyone would fall in love by that.

"Here" Nichkhun said and motioned her to take the mug.

"What's this?" Yoona innocently ask

"You said you're cold right? Here hot chocolate with marshmallows" he said and smiled

"Finish that first and I'll tell you something" he continued

"Oppa"

"Go on, finish that first" Yoona nodded and did what he said and there's a silence in the whole place and between them. It's not an awkward silence rather a peaceful silence.

After few minutes

"Oppa I've already finished it now what" Yoona said impatiently

"You're such an impatient girl" Nichkhun chuckled.

"I told myself that someday if i get to see a special girl for me, i would take her to a place not known to others but I realized it's too cliche I mean taking her to an unknown place and besides I'm still new to Korea so I don't really know some of the places. And also my father told me to prepare a hot chocolate to that girl. Why? It shows that feeling of the heart. The warm feeling of the heart. He said I can be that hot chocolate to that girl I'll be with her through this very cold winter"

"Oppa what are you tring to say?"

"im Yoona" Nichkhun turned to her " I like you so much. i love you..............Wi-Wi-Will you be my girl? I promise I'll take care of you" Nichkhun said while holding yoona's hands

"Oppa I-" But before finisher her statement Nichkhun kiss her gently

"I may not understand some words in Korea I do understand my heart, my heart saying that he loves you" nichkhun said after the kiss

"Miane oppa" She said and looked away

"Wh-what do you mean? Are you not yet ready for a commitment? I can wait"  Nichkhun said eagerly

"that's not it oppa. I......................... I dont like you enough to be with you, in a commitment. Let's just stay friends oppa" She said still not looking to his face and slowly withdrawed his hand from him

"Tell that while looking to me" his voice became soft and you can tell he is in the urge of crying

"Tell me you don't like me!" Nichkhun shouted and by this he cant stop crying and Yoona too.

"Yoona knew that if he didn't do it he'll not stop "Okay fine now I'm looking at you. Oppa i dont like you! Is that enough?" And with that she run away. She convinced herself it's the right thing to do.

Before running away he whispered few words that broke Yoona's heart "I hate the game we're playing. I ing hate this winter game"

Is it?

***-***

I can also remember every little detail of what happened. Why did I do that? It's for the both of us? That was december 2009, when everything was so messy between the KPOP industry and falling in love with another idol is really forbidden in our company? Why? It would ruin our image. Honestly, what I said and did that time was a pure lie. Why should I not like him? Nichkhun Buck horvejkul is the man I'm completely in love. Why did I lie? It's for the both of us. That was the time when they lost their leader, and for sure everyone wouldn't like it if they suddenly find out that he's dating me. I'm Im Yoona, many hate me. I cant afford to hate them him too. I cant let them hurt him.

But now I'm regretting it much, I'm the one who hurt him more that what i imagined and avoiding. I learned from the other members that time that he was a mess after that day. that he refused to go out after that day. That he didn't want to eat.

He locked himself in his room.

And by that thought, I cant forgive myself. The man I love is hurt by me. Am I human?

"But i didn't regret the fact that I din loved you"he told me yeah loved, but what hurts the most is that he emphasized the -ED part

"The fact that I had one sided love or unrequited love is not your fault. It's me who to blame but really it's fun loving you." He said and looked at me.

"Wont you ask me why I did that?"  I asked him, he shrugged

"Even if I knew by now, it wouldn't really change anything and-"

"It's because I love you so much" I interrupted

***|***

I believe I believe（I believe) I believe I believe (I believe)
Only U only U babe... Only U only U babe...
Only U only U only Only U only U babe"It's because I love you so much" Did she just said that she love me?

"It's because I loved you, I'm loving you and I will always love you" she continued,I'm shock but I'm letting her do all the talking now.

"As you said, telling you the reason of what happened won't really change anything so here" I said and went near him and give him a kiss

"Nichkhun oppa am I still in you heart?" she asked

"Im Yoona you never left this" I said and pointed my chest "But-"

"Just shut up and kiss me" Ie smirked and pulled her waist

"Araseo"I said and passionately kiss her.I may not really understand Korean, but I can understand what she meant without actually explaining as what i said I know her too well. Wait can I change my answer in that magazine? hmmm maybe later I'm so enjoying it.

*clap clap clap

We stopped kissing to see the other members clapping and the guys whistling.

"What a perfect timing guys!"  I shouted to show annoyance, still holding Yoona's waist.

"Urrrggghhh finally" they all said in unison

"Well finally this" I said and kissed Yoona. Sometimes in playing games you dont need to be anyone you just have to let yourself win. That's what i learned tonight with this girl i'm kissing. the lesson i should have learned before. I'm proud to say i'm winning these Winter Games

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A/N: I'm back huhuhuhu finally. Sorry everyone. So I think you quite get why I included the interview from a magazine right? And because I'm back let's celebrate

LOL just kidding

Noooooowwww maybe i'm being delusional but look at what Nichkhun answered at the last question. It's Eric Bent's "Last Time" remember what he sang to yoona at Idol Army [ep 8/9]

This should be longer though but I'm already tired. I'm only free today so here have yourself a KHUNA oneshot.

This OTP will never die.

Subscribe+Comment I would really like that. Yeah bye bye guys and girls CIIIIAAAAAAAOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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