SHIN WON HO'S POV

I woke up hungover and  held my head and groaned in pain as my head throbbed 

"You're up," L said walking through the door holding a tray with a bowl.

"Hangover soup. Drink up man," he said and handed me the bowl

i fnished it in one-shot 

"Ah thanks. That helped a lot," I thanked and got up

"Where are you going?" 

"Home. I need a shower. I reek of alcohol and feel like ," I said tiredly and left 

L'S POV

I looked at my best friend's sulken back side as he waddled out the doorway. I wasn't sure if the Suzy he saw was a hullicination or if she really returned. 
I was worried for him no doubt but an uneasy feeling started to grow inside of me. Why? Because I also had a lover that left me a year ago. She is the cause of my pain and is responsible for the hatred I have towards women, and she is also the woman who turned me into a Casanova. 

Her name...Go. Woo. Ri

Suzy and Woori were friends, in fact best friends. But it wasn't just us two but Donghae and Hoya who recieved pain from their lovers as well. Their identity? Jung Jessica and Hwang Tiffany. Those 4 girls were inseperable, they always stuck together. They were F4s' lovers but they were also know as IRIS 

I:Ice princess (Jung Jessica: Leader)

R: Radiant Sun (Hwang Tiffany)

I: Innocent Butterfly (Bae Suzy:maknae)

S: y Goddess (Go Woo Ri:Oldest)

The four of us were having problems with our girlfriend a year ago. All four couples going through problems and fights during the same time and that led to four girls disappearing together at once.  

But she didn't answer again, but this time she just stared at me calmly and patiently 

"Fine," I said as I sighed in disbelief and in frusteration

"Where were you? Where did you run off to a year ago?" I asked 

FLASHBACK ENDS 

I remembered the entire conversation and even though I seemed to know the answer I wanted to hear everything from her own mouth. Wanting to make sure what I know and found out is true. 

"AISH! BAE SUZY!" I yelled and shoved all the pictures off my desk 

I was mad and angry with her but I was more frusterated with myself and I seemed to blame her for it. But that's because if I don't, I will lose it 

I jumped on my bed and I put my arm to rest my head and I closed my eyes as silent tears wet my arm and pillow 

L'S POV

After Won Ho left, I drove to the hospital to visit the girls and when I went into their rooms I saw them laughing and talking with Donghae

"Hey man," I greeted and Donghae smiled and high-fived me 

"Hey guys. How are you feeling?" I asked 

They smiled and both gave two thumbs up 

I chuckled at their silliness and smiled 

While I was there, Donghae and I started talking with them non-stop. I don't even know what we talked about most of the time...they were SO random but it was fine and it helped me get closer to the two. 

"Guys go eat. It's already 3 and you guys didn't eat yet," Bora said 

"Nah it's okay. Were not that hungry," I said 

Dasom and Bora both folded their arms and stared us down

"OK okay we'll go," Donghae said as we had both our hands up in surrender 

and we left the room laughing 

"Those two dorks," Donghae said 

"WE HEARD THAT!" Dasom yelled from inside 

Donghae jumped and quickly walked away

I chuckled and followed behind with my hands in my pockets 

DONGHAE'S POV

I quickly ran away once I heard dasom yell and was already in the cafeteria 

I sighed in relief and quickly grabbed a tray and lined up for food 

"You. are. such. a. baby," L said chuckling as he lined up behind me for food 

"Shut up," I growled 

The line moved up and the cafeteria workers put food on our tray as we walked from worker to worker and we sat down at a table for two and started eating and talking about Dasom and Bora 

"Umm...Donghae-yah," L said cautiously 

I looked up as I stuffed rice in my mouth

"What?" I asked with my mouth full 

"Suzy's back," and once he finished his sentence I spat my rice and it was all over L's face 

"DUDE! THAT'S NASTY!" L yelled and he started wiping his face and I turned to see everyone staring at us and I bowed my head in apology but one girl caught my attention

"L...L," I kept saying as he tapped his arm

"What?!" he asked in frusteration

"Myungsoo-yah,"

"I asked you what?!" he yelled 

"Suzy's here," I said as I kept staring in one direction and L looked where I was looking and we saw her. Bae Suzy was in a patient's gown sitting in a wheelchair and like everyone else at that moment she was staring

She knew we saw her so she came over to our table 

"Myungsoo (L) Oppa, Donghae Oppa.." she greeted softly 

"Hi Suzy-ah. How are you?" I asked nicely but inside I was boiling 

"Why the hell are you here?" L asked roughly and inside I did a happy dance but I know I needed to be nice

"L," I said 

"Apologize," Suzy said suddenly 

"Excuse me?!" L asked in anger and bewilderment 

" I said apologize," she said sternly and Myungsoo and I looked her at her in surprise as she changed too much over the year she left. Her pure, soft and queit side it wasn't there but her eyes read confidence and arrogance

"Apologize for being rude," she explained 

"F**k this," L said and got up but stopped 

"Because of you, WonHo was binging alcohol last night and passed out because of YOU." L yelled and once again the people in the cafeteria stared at us 

"WHAT THE F**K ARE YOU LOOKIN AT?!" L yelled and everyone went back to what they were doing 

"Look. No One wants you here anymore so just leave before you hurt WonHo more," L said and was about to leave but Suzy spoke 

"I'm pretty sure you're angry for your friend but that's not the only reason why you're overreacting like this," 

I saw L flinch and Suzy just continued to look outside the window not looking at any of us 

"You're afraid Woori unnie is here," Suzy said and looked up at L smiling 

L just left 

"She's here you know!...unnie...," Suzy said and although L's back was against us I could see L's confused and angry face 

I got up as well 

"And oppa.."

"Don't you say a word. I know Jessica's here too so shut your f**kin mouth before I make you ," I whispered aggressively and followed L

BAE SUZY'S POV

Donghae Oppa and Myungsoo Oppa's words hurt, no doubt, but the only reason for my change was to cover my pain and sorrow 

Once they left, I turned my wheelchair around and saw Donghae and L oppa walk out the door 

I sighed and left for my therapy 

L'S POV

Once we left the cafeteria we went into the girls' room and quickly explained we needed to leave for business purposes and Donghae and I left seperatedly as we both needed time to think 

But before I would release everything I knew I had to tell Hoya first so I stopped the car and called him

"Hey Bro what's up?" he answered cheerfully

"Hey hoya," I said dejected 

"Hey something wrong? You don't sound too good," He said 

"Hoya *sigh*....donghae and I saw Suzy at the hospital today,"

Hoya was silent as he also knew what that meant 

"They're back," I said cautiously and right after I ended my sentence Hoya ended the phone call

I sighed and put my phone down and continued to drive

BAE SUZY'S POV

After my therapy, I just roamed around the hospital and I stopped in front of a door once I heard laughing and girls talking inside.

I opened the door slightly and peeked inside and saw two girls on a bed laughing and talking to one another.

One was bruised and had some cuts on her face and arms and the other looked pale and fragile 

The pale and fragile looking one spotted me 

"Uh? Hi," she said smiling cutely 

The more beat up one turned and stared at me 

"Hi. Sorry I didn't mean to interrupt, I just heard you guys laughing so I was curious. Sorry I know it's rude but..."

"It's fine. Come in," The bruised one said as she smiled warmly 

I went in the room hesitantly but i was welcomed with warm smiles 

"Hi," I greeted softly 

"Hey," the two cheerful girls greeted 

"I'm Bora and this is my best friend Dasom," the bruised one introduced

"Hi I'm Suzy,"

"So why are you in the hospital Suzy?" Dasom asked 

"Ah, I have heart problems," I said and the two girls just smiled encouragingly

"How old are you two?" I asked 

"I'm 17," Dasom said 

"18," Bora said in a sad voice 

"I'm so old~" she whined 

"Unnie, you're only a year older than me," Dasom said as she looked at Bora weirdly 

Bora stuck her tongue out at Dasom and soon there was a merong competition between the two

"Well anyways I'm 17," I said after the little battle 

"OOO friend!" Dasom said loudly as she ran over to me and hugged me and soon after that the three of us chatted and giggled together as if we've known each other since we were 5.

Without knowing how long we talked we had to depart as it was already night time.

I laid on my bed smiling to myself happy that I made 2 new friends I knew I can rely on wholeheartedly

 and I was able to fall asleep with a smile on my face 

SHIN WON HO'S POV

I woke up feeling better than before and I looked out the window to see a full moon shining in my dark room.

I grabbed my phone to check what time it was and found it to be already 11

When I put my phone down on my drawer, I got a call from Hoya

I picked my phone back up and answered 

"Hello?"

"Hey man it's casper. You're three amigos are at my club passed out in the vvip lounge,"

"*sigh* Alright man, i'm on my way," I said and hung up the phone and grabbed my black leather jacket and car keys and went out 

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once i arrived a crowd formed around me but I just ignored them and just ran straight towards the lounge. 

Indeed I found my three best friends knocked out.

Donghae was on the sofa with his head on the table, Hoya had his back on the side of the sofa and his head leaning on the wall and L was lying down on the couch with one knee up.

I sighed and rubbed my forehead 

I opened the door slightly and yelled "I need help in here," and pretty soon 2 workers came in and carried hoya and donghae while I carried L. 

They were soon seated in the back, all asleep peacefully and because of those 3 my entire car smelled like alcohol so I opened the window the let the wind come in 

I my music and LEE SEUNG GI's "Love Taught me to Drink" was on the radio, yeah how ironic huh?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_JH_axvVag

I started listening to the lyrics carefully as the song started to play 

You taught me so much right to the end

You showed me things I didn’t know about

Even when you abandoned me and left me
You seem to be still around me

You taught me love, made me understand happiness
You taught me about separation, made me understand tears
You made me understand things I didn’t want to know about

Because of you, I drank the alcohol I couldn’t before
Listening to the lyrics of songs that I have no interest in
Drinking because I want to forget
Missing you again when I drink
Why did you leave without teaching me the way to forget

You were so full of affection right to the end
You left so much behind for me
You left me crying, with our memories
You left me in pain, with hurt
You left me with an illness of the heart that I can’t cure

Because of you, I drank the alcohol I couldn’t before
Listening to the lyrics of songs that I have no interest in
Drinking because I want to forget
Missing you again when I drink
Why did you leave without teaching me the way to forget

[RAP Baek Chan]
I can feel myself ruining my body
(Yeah) I am loser
My face slowly gets clouded over
Tears well in my eyes again, and the feeling is spreading though my whole body
The chill is creeping right into my bones, please save me
You showed me the happiness that I didn’t need to know
Even though its a happiness I once lived without, I can’t do without it now
I don’t know what to do now that you’ve disappeared so suddenly
I miss you more than anything else

There isn’t a day that I’m sober
I can’t live without alcohol
I see your reflection in my glass, and my tears again, erase you away
Why did you leave without teaching me the way to forget
Why did you leave without teaching me the way to forget

As the lyrics of the songs started to sink into my head a tear drop fell on my arm. I wiped it off quickly as I had one hand on the steering wheel but even when I wiped my single tear, more started to form. 

One by one...then two by two......drop....drop...drop.....

Just like my heart 

Now I realized why I didn't go after Suzy....it wasn't fear that overcame me but love.

I didn't go after her because I loved her.

She left me with her own will and I didn't go after her because I wanted her to come back to me with her own feet 

I loved Suzy then...and I still love her now.......

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