They say...

 

A person can fall in love many times, but the magic of feeling love for someone for the first time in life is a unique experience.
 

 

I must agree..yes it is..

 

 

When I closed my eyes at night..with her on my arms I was at bliss, her warmth giving me a smile and a thunder in my heart.. I am looking forward to wake up the next day..seeing her beautiful face first before everything else..

 

 

 

When I woke up..she was gone gone..

 

 

 

I'm alone...

 

 

I smiled  bitterly.. I know where she went..I already know..

 

 

 

She hurt me more than I deserve, how can she be so cruel? I love her more than she deserve, why am I such a fool?         She once asked me what was wrong, I smiled and said nothing, when she turned around and a tear came down and I whispered to myself... everything is.

 

 

But thinking it was my birthday...she promised we will celebrate..

 

Knowing she never failed any promises she does..I felt happy..I shook all the sadness and bitterness in my heart and look forward to this day... my birthday..with her..

 

So I waited to our favorite place..the cold wind brushing through me...I waited..

 

I know she will comeback to me..I know..she always does...

 

I just know her too well..

 

 

 

But..

 

 

 

 

She never came...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I was at lost...

 

 

 

 

I was hurting..

 

 

 

 

I love her..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I love her...

 

 

 

 

 

She left me...

 

 

 

 

But she wasn't with him..

 

 

 

 

Yes him...

 

 

 

 

My own bestfriend..

 

 

 

 

 

 

She thought I doesn't know..she thought I have no idea..

 

 

 

I smiled bitterly when I saw them together....together behind my back...my heart crumpled so bad..It was the feeling of being stabbed by thousands of needles all together...

 

 

My knees buckled...

 

 

I wanted to cry but the thought of her coming back to me at night made the pain go away..