Awaiting...
Baby Baby
Sighing, I sat on the bed, back leaning on the headboard. The bedroom door opened.
“Here,” Junnie said, not looking at my eyes, but putting a glass of water and some aspirin on the bedside table.
I drank it down as he left.
I laid down and tried to close my eyes, but I could not sleep.
This ongoing pain kept hitting me, causing me to keep tossing and turning.
My phone was dead beside me. So after awhile of restlessness, I decided to plug it in and restart it.
I sighed; the emotional pain is probably eating me up. This is too much for a pregnant lady.
I sat on the side of my bed, looking at my palms and my sort of swollen ankles.
Then the endless beeping, signifying my text messages, started ringing. I gently bent over to check my messages. 59. Nice.
Where are you? - Dongwoon
Where are you? – Kikwang
The texts were from before the party and they made me laugh. Kikwang knows I’m with Min, and Dongwoon…
I put my phone down, and looked at the ceiling. My neck ached from the pregnancy, and my thoughts became guilty. This isn’t fair. I’m going through so much, and I really do wish I had someone with me-someone like a significant other. I really wish Dongwoon was with me.
I felt a pain- a pain I’ve felt before on my stomach, but now more intense, causing me to groan and stand up. I was instantly relieved, so I stretched my arms up.
“Baby, you should come out now, umma’s getting tired,” I said adding a giggle, rubbing my stomach, and tried to lift my mood.
I decided to go downstairs. I might as well make my life a little better, so I decided to talk to Junnie. He is my best friend after all.
Before that, I unplugged my phone and glimpsed at my many messages, mostly consisting or unimportant reminders, and Christmas Eve greetings. The last ones were from Dujun and some 4 minute girls. I didn’t want to read those, so I just plugged it back in and went downstairs.
I refilled my cup and took a sip, walking in front of Junnie’s door, about to knock, but of course, he would be talking on the phone.
I put my face to the door and tried to listen.
“No-No,” He paused, “I don’t know. She… No. I’m PRETTY sure she doesn’t like you Dujun.” He paused again. “Tell him to just stay calm. Things will become better.” He paused. “Just give her time.” He paused. “Oh... Really? No I haven’t. I’m just shocked I guess,” He paused, then laughed, “Dunno, Maybe I should” I felt another pain and ended up falling on the door, causing it to open, then stumbling, but regaining my posture. Wow. I guess things that happened in dramas can happen in real life.
I stood up straight and innocently looked at Junnie. He wasn’t even a bit surprised, as he calmly said, “Hey, I’ll call you back, bye,” and put his phone down, staring up at me, which a blank look. I was just relieved it wasn’t a bad look or anything.
“Sorry, I kind of stumbled in,” I said, my hand finding the little hairs on the back of my head suddenly very… greasy. I should take a shower.
He didn’t say anything so I went ahead. “I wanted to talk to you…” I said and waited for anything from him. Nothing.
So I continued, “because I became a at the party, hurt so many people’s feelings, made a scene, ran out into the cold, made people worried about me, made anti’s, kissed Dujun infront of Dongwoon, hurt a guy I really, really, really liked, got in a fight with Min when she didn’t deserve it, screwed up 2 if not 3 of the most important relationship I’ve made in my life, and most of all made you stop partying to go home, more like force you to take me home, even though I didn’t ask for it…” I trailed off, looking at the rug beneath me.
“Sit down,” he said politely, patting beside him.
“I’m glad you understand what you did, now tell me why?” He said with a soft smile, placing a comforting arm around my neck.
I inhaled deeply. “The.. girls.” I said, looking the other way, scratching my arm. Wow, it sounded so much better in my head. Why the HELL am I letting little girls mess with me. Looking at the situation I’m in now, I felt like the most stupid person on the planet, letting something so small mess with me. Lesson learned.
“Why am I so stupid!?” I screamed, full of frustration.
“Your not stupid, your just,” he paused.
“stupid.” I filled in for him. “and so embarrassed!” I screeched with my hands on my cheeks.
He laughed.
“Omo! How was it when I left?!” I said, extremely surprised and curious.
“Well, it kind of died, for the most part. Dongwoon left, I don’t know, Kikwang followed him, I think. Min, Dujun and I were conversing about how confused we were.” He said, “then Min said she’s going to follow you, but I told her to stay and let you cool down, you know I know you,” he winked, and squeezed his arm around me for a second, “but she left anyways. So I stayed there and just sort of, chilled. It wasn’t the best party in the world. It was getting on the boring side by now. Some people went back to dancing, you know. Then I decided to go get you. I wanted to go home anyways.” He said.
“I see,” I said and laid on the bed.
“Feeling better?” he asked, looking over his shoulder to me.
“Sort of. I feel better cause we’re on speaking terms now.” I said.
“Well I was just, confused; now I’m clear-headed. I felt a bit buzzed also,” He said smugly.
“Fun for you!” I said kicking him slightly. “I want to get buzzed.” I pouted.
“No, remember what happened last time?” He said and looked at my tummy, which made me notice that weird feeling never stopped since upstairs. It’s like an ongoing stomach cramp you get whenever your pms-ing.
“Well I said ‘buzzed’ not ‘drunk’,” I replied.
“Once you’re buzzed, you end up drinking more anyways, which makes you drunk,” He said hitting my legs with a pillow.
“Your right,” I sighed. “Today is the weirdest.” I stated.
“Eh, for you it is.”
“What am I going to do?” I said looking at the clock, which read 12:15
“Sleep.” He said simply.
“Alright,” I said getting cozy on one side of the bed. I yawned, which made me happy because earlier I couldn’t even sleep.
“Go to your bed,” He said pushing me lightly.
I shook my head. “Just sleep. Your beds huge, and I feel, agitated. Your like my best girl-friend that’s a guy, pretend this is a sleepover,” I murmured, my eyes already closed. "besides, I don't want to be alone right now. I feel... wierd.." i added. This was physically and emotionally true...
“Fine.” He said and I felt shuffling on the bed.
“Merry Christmas,” Junnie said like old times.
“Merry Christmas.” I said automatically responding, and in a few seconds, asleep.
I was suddenly on the side of a river. Stepping, and hopping from rocks to rocks. I was scared but I was having too much fun to care if I fell into the river, or stumble. I looked to my right side and Dongwoon was holding my hand next to me, laughing as we giggled and smiled, still jumping from rock to rock, as if we had a destination, or it was a race.
Junnie, Hyuna, Gayoon, Jiyoon, Dujun, Yosoeb, Gina and hyunseung were at the ‘end’ of the river, and Dongwoon and I raced to them. I looked around me and the rest of 4 minute, Min, Kikwang, and Junhyung were there, racing with us. Then I stumbled and fell, and I was so uncomfortable, I was sitting on the damp ground, the rushing water hitting my left side, and I just kept rolling, trying to stand up, but slipping. I just felt so uncomfortable.
Then I woke up. I was still uncomfortable, that weird feeling still radiating from my stomach. I felt as if my dream did come true, the dampness on my .
“What the heck.” I said sitting up, trying to be more aware and less confused.
“Go back to bed.” Junnie said, he was a light sleeper.
“Ne,” I said softly, laying down, but now turning to one side, then the other, extremely uncomfortable, and sweaty now.
“Stop moving…” Junnie murmured into his own slumber.
“Can’t sleep,” I said frustrated, standing up, and causing him to sit up.
“I feel so uncomfortable, and wet, and sweaty, and gross.’ I groaned, and then a hard kick from baby was felt and I felt knocked out, so much, I sat on the bed, clutching my stomach.
Junnie the light. “What happened?” he said rubbing his eyes, getting accustomed to reality again.
I was rubbing my aching stomach and put my right hand down on the bed for support but felt cold, damp sheet.
I looked at the comforter wondering if I just peed, but surely enough it wasn’t pee.
“What... the...” I said, and then felt another blow to my stomach.
My eyes went wide. “Aigoo.” I said softly then kept repeating myself, and making interjections that went louder and louder.
“Bwoh?” Junnie said and noticed the huge damp spot on the bed. “Omo!” He said quickly.
“MY WATER BROKE, MY WATER BROKE, MY WATER BROKE!” I screamed, now feeling extremely dizzy.
“Get in the car!” Junnie said grabbing my arm and leading us quickly out the door, and into the cold, I was not aware of anything happening now, as I was scaring myself. This is my first time giving birth, how could I not be scared?
I closed my eyes the whole way, rubbing my stomach to alleviate the pain and breathing in and out, rhythmatically, and before I knew it, I was in front of our local hospital.
“I HATE HOSTPITALS,” I said extremely loud, my eyes in squints, followed by more screaming by me, venting out my pain.
“Ma’am” She said as I muffled out my own hearing by my screaming. I felt a pain into my arm and then more pain on my abdomen. “Baby is on the way,” She said loudly and then I couldn’t hear anything again.
“I’M HAVING MY BABY, RIGHT NOW?” I said extremely loud, then started screaming with pain again.
I felt so much pain, I couldn’t open my eyes, I couldn’t hear anything, all my senses were focused on the pain-which was the exact opposite of what I should be focusing on-and I tried to concentrate on my breathing. But that was hard enough.
I felt my arm being held and for a split second I saw Dongwoon’s face, but when I opened my eyes to check, it was Junnie, which a look that made me calm for awhile, but then another blow to my stomach was felt and I was back to darkness, as my eyes were squinted. I wasn’t screaming anymore now, but groaning, the pain getting lesser, but definitely still there.
“Halmoni and Halapoji are on the way,” Junnie said loudly, in a leader-ish voice, as I kept blinking, my face hot and sweaty, well my whole being hot and sweaty, and my breathing rapid, heartbeat fast.
I nodded, trying to calm myself, and in what felt like a couple seconds, pain came again, as intense as before.
I tried to stop screaming and then the scream I did hear surprised me.
It even sounded like a girl. “Junnie?!” I said, heavy with breathing.
“My..hand…” he whined.
But I just clutched it tighter when the wave of pain came. “Breathe,” I said to myself trying to breathe instead of scream through the pain. “Baby’s coming! Baby’s coming!” I told myself out loud. “I should be happy!” I said groaning, the sound coming out as if I’m constipated.
“Junnie.. This hurts…” I said after awhile of trying to be silent. I turned my head to the right, looking straight at him, tears flowing down my eyes.
He looked like he was about to cry himself. “We can do this,” he said his eyes full of hope.
I was now bawling with pain. “I wish Dongwoonie was here, and Min, and the rest of Beast and four minute, and Gina!” I whined. “I love them so much; I was so excited to have this baby when I met them, especially that first day when we slept at the Beast dorm! And now I feel like I lost every one of them!” I said, crying and crying, breathing hard, getting used to the pain. “The girl’s were so mean to me! All I had to do was go pee, and they kept going about how I’m a , and how I don’t deserve Dongwoonie basically!” I weeped, “And I got so mad and sad,” I whined. “I’m not a hoe! I didn’t want to have with a stranger and have a baby, and now I’m going through the pain all by myself! I wanted to get married before I have kids, and now I have a kid before I’m married, and I still have to go to school,” I said crying more.
“Ssh,” Junnie said, using his free hand to push the hair out of my face.
“Halmoni and Halapoji is here dear!” I heard after awhile. I opened my eyes a little bigger to see my very jolly grandma and a tired but sort of equally happy grampa.
They hugged me, and Halmoni wiped my face with a towel. “Halmoni is ready for this,” She said warmly, rubbing my stomach, continuing to wipe my sweat. I love when she addresses herself in 3rd person. Junnie greeted them while I tried to relax the most in between the waves of pain.
“OUCH,” I said loudly, trying to control my volume.
“Sh, dear, It’ll be alright,’ my grandma said lovingly. I felt so much calmer, only grunting and breathing hard now, but tears falling down my face. Surprisingly after this wave, I was so at ease, and relaxed… but extremely tired. I fell asleep.
“Wake up, Wake up,” I heard, deep in slumber, an extremely sore pain on my stomach. I saw Dongwoon with a smile on his face, above me, I smiled, wiped my wet eyes, and realized that is wasn’t Dongwoon.
“Baby’s here,” Junnie said, with the strangest smile I’ve ever seen.
I opened my mouth to talk, finding my voice extremely tired, and hoarse.
Junnie pointed to to my other side, where I saw Halmoni and Halapoji sleeping in chairs next to eachother, their heads leaning on eachother, and in halmoni’s arms a tiny baby, shuffling and making baby noises.
Junnie stood up quietly, and gently took the tiny gift into his own hands, an went back to my side.
I put my arms out, my eyes full of curiosity and calmness, gesturing for the little on to be in my arms.
Junnie bent down and gave my baby to me.
I had to find a comfortable position, for my soreness on my stomach was so painful when pressure was applied.
“My baby,” I said, my voice still hoarse, and I was crying again, but happily.
I whimpered, and cried, it just dawned over me. A miracle happened just now, and it was the birth of a child-of MY child.
My stomach is gone. I’m so incredibly tired, but seeing this baby, it’s as if I just got 20 days of sleep.
She was a girl, and she had my facial features. A small nose, small eyes, and pouty lips. Her cheeks were bright pink; well all over she was pink. She was my baby, and I never felt so happy, and tired at the same time.
I kissed her on the forehead as she looked up to me, making the cute fussy baby noises. Still, I was crying, and Junnie was smiling at me. It felt as if everything was right at the moment. I felt perfect.
OKAY, LONG WAITED ARRIVAL! ^.^
DISCLAIMER: I have NEVER had a baby before.
Yes. So questions will be answered soon.
I'll just put this out there that
-it was a c-section. For those of you that do not know what this is, it is a surgery done for birthing the baby, contrary of natural birth. It can be done in an unconscious state, which she was in because she fainted. Yes, many first-time mommy's faint during birth, because of the immense pain. (my own umma fainted when I was boren xD)
-the dad... still no clue
-no one knows that she gave birth aside from the obvious-Junnie, and the grandparents
anywhoo, questions should be commented below, KEEP READING READERS, you guys are awesome.
What if I said this fic is ending soon? O.O
JUST KIDDING, KEEP READING LOVES<3
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