KILLING A FANGIRL MEANS KILLING MYSELF RIGHT? 

  I never expected that a simple phone call will change my life, I need to leave the country, Philippines, my home for almost 10 years , say good bye my peaceful life,  I need to assist my strict aunt on her dormitory in Seoul, South Korea although living in the city might gave me the chance to see Kim Jaejoong but moving to another house, I need to say goodbye to my precious room filled with his photos from his Dbsk era up until JYJ.

Part of me, don’t want to go, I will miss my dad, my family and my friends in this country, But I have no choice, my aunt force my father to because of  her worsen condition she needed someone to accompany her, being the nicest brother to his long lost sister, he granted her request.

That’s why I ended packing some of my things and get my on her place, but I thought that idea was the worse I made as a human, I never imagine that her dormitory is filled with gorgeous/hottest/cutest boys in town.

I can’t breathe; I feel like I am in a kind of spell filled with Jaejoong juniors, I can’t explain the excitement that I am feeling,

“Yah, cover your mouth flies might come in,” that comment was rude, thank god he is handsome, I’ll let him pass, I close my mouth,

“You need some tissue, or towel I guess? You’re drooling,” that comment was also rude, thank god he is also gorgeous, I will also let him pass, I used my hands to wipe the imaginary saliva that he is talking about

“Girls are forbidden to get inside? How did you get in?”

The last thing I know, I was surrounded by them, I am really star struck, they are all handsome, flawless, and y,

I wanted to pinch them all, and cuddle them,, but,, they seem not happy to see, I can guess by the way they look,

I feel like I am an 18 years old insect!

Before they could do anything bad about me,  my aunt went in, in a nick of time.

“She’s my niece, don’t worry, you are all safe, am I right Ji yeon?” she asked me her right brows up,

“ah, neh,,” I answered stuttering, they all felt relieve with that response, they all said sorry and felt apologetic on their previous  actions, they welcomed me one by one, introducing themselves.

The hell I know that was just an act in the corner of their beautiful eyes, I know they all despise my presence, thank heaven you are all gorgeous I will let you pass!

My aunt explains that they are all trainees of some entertainment companies, they all came from different places in South Korea and some are from abroad.

“They’re just worried, you know they are often harass by girls from their  previous dorms, it’s safer here than anywhere,” my aunt explains, so that explicate why there are lots of girls outside,,

Fan girls,

They have loads of fan girls.

And they hate their fan girls.

Unluckily I consider myself as one.

Stupid!

Why did they choose the road to become an idol in the first place if they will start to hate our kind?

But,

I am not in the position to answer that,

So in order to bear being with these hot guys from this moment onwards,

I must kill the fan girl within , ME.