I bite my lip as the sound of the door echoes through the room, and hot and cold tears begin to fall down my face. I don’t hold them back and in between sobs choke out,

            “I can’t take it…I just can’t…” my shoulders shake with my weeping.

            Minho-hyung  pulls me closer in his hug,

            “It’s okay…he’ll be back in an hour or so…” he speaks quietly, running his hand through my hair at an attempt of comfort.

            “N-no it’s not…we’re falling apart!” I shout out to fill the silence that has fallen on the house like a curse and he flinches away briefly.

            I hear the kitchen faucet turn on and Onew-hyung mumble,

            “Damn Jonghyun.”

            “Stop it! Cursing is not good. Why Can’t we be like we used to…why do we hate each other…” I push Minho-hyung away and run to the door, wanting to bring Jonghyun back.

            “Taeminnie!” Minho calls and as soon as I’m outside I’m pulled back in, fighting against his grip on my hoodie.

            “Let me go-let me go!” I shout, crying harder, stretching out my hands for the door which was getting far away.

            “No, you’re not leaving, if anything happens to you-” Minho speaks but I cut him off.

            “So…you’re okay with Jonghyun-hyung out there alone, and not me?” I speak quietly but my voice shakes.

            “No…Jonghyun can take care of himself,” Onew hy