Hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay magkakasundo kami ni Karina. Kahit anong bait, kahit anong healthy ng relationship, mag-aaway at mag-aaway pa rin kami. Normal lang naman yun sa relationship. We hurt the people we love unintentionally. 

It's part of growing together.

Karina, as much as she is the nicest person I know, also has her limits. She doesn't get mad often pero kapag siya nagalit, galit talaga. 

Hindi ko alam if it was all my fault but I know that I was hurt. I don't think deserve ko yung treatment ni Karina sa akin. I was only trying to be playful. At kahit hindi niya nagustuhan yun, I don't think she should've done what she did. 

Karina just came home from a 12-hour overnight shift. Alam kong pagod siya. Pagkakita ko lang sa mukha niya, alam ko na wala siya sa mood.

So I did everything para wala na siyang ibang gawin kundi maligo, kumain, at matulog. I took care of Luna while she was in the shower. Nagluto ako and I even made her coffee. 

Naglaro kami ni Luna while Karina was eating. In an attempt to cheer her up, ay sinali ko si Karina sa laro namin. 

Hindi naman kasi physical yung laro namin ni Luna. Tinuturuan ko lang si Luna ng new words and I wanted Karina to be part of it para naman matuwa siya kasi anything involving Luna, Karina partakes in, especially sa development niya.

But I guess I was wrong in doing that. 

"Mommy, what does the cow say, mommy?" Tanong ko kay Karina. Hindi sumagot si Karina kaya tinanong ko ulit. 

"Mommy, what does the cow say?" 

"Mamaya na Winter, please," matamlay na sabi ni Karina sa akin. 

Pero naging makulit ako. I didn't stop asking her until I got an answer from her. 

"Mommy, what does the cow—

"Winter, mamaya na! Can I take a rest please? I am so tired!" She screamed.

Nagulat ako sa pagsigaw ni Karina. Pati si Luna ay nagulat sa Mommy niya that she suddenly stopped playing and looked at me questioningly. 

"Bakit ka ba nagagalit?" 

"Kanina ko pa sinasabi na pagod ako but you weren't listening. I said I was tired!" 

Hindi ko na nagustuhan yung pananalita ni Karina so I just picked up Luna at pumunta sa kwarto. 

That hurt.

Karina has never screamed at me before, let alone raise her voice so nakakagulat talaga. Maybe I was a little too makulit pero hindi ko naman yata deserve na pagsigawan. 

Hindi kami nag pansanina ni Karina the whole day. Kilala ko na siya. When she's angry or upset, she usually needs time to be alone. She doesn't like to be bothered. Gaya lang nung mga bata kami. Mataas kasi ang pride ni Karina.

So hinayaan ko na lang siya. She needed to sleep anyway. I just let Luna stay in my room habang natutulog si Karina sa kwarto nila.

Hanggang sa gabi, hindi pa rin kami nagpapansinan. Karina only took Luna from me when she woke up para pakainin. 

I tread lightly around her. I was careful to ask her what she wanted for dinner but she only shrugged her shoulders at me. 

Nakakainis. Ayaw na ayaw ko ang silent treatment. Para akong tanga lang. 

"What do you want for dinner?" I asked her again. Kahit naman nasasaktan ako, I wouldn't let her starve. 

"I don't know," she just whispered without even looking at me.

It was frustrating. It was like talking to a wall. 

"Bibili na lang ako sa Jollibee." She shrugged again. 

I remembered the last time she did this to me when we were in high school dahil nawala ko yung favourite niyang pen. Over a pen! Ang petty lang but Karina can be very sentimental. Grabe lang ang pagsuyo na ginawa ko sa kanya that time but this time ayoko siyang suyuin. Kasi nasaktan din ako.

This is where our personalities clash din. Kasi if mapride sa Karina, so am I. 

We went through the motions of putting Luna to sleep together na hindi nag-uusap. Si Luna na walang alam ay kinakausap lang niya ang sarili niya. Minsan, Luna would keep repeating the things her Mommy said.

"Okay, Luna, brush na tayo ng teeth."

"Bwush teef!" 

"Mag lotion na tayo Luna."

"Low-chon!"

"Mag pajama ka na baby." 

"Jama!" 

Sobrang sweet and innocent lang ni Luna, she had no idea that her Mommies were fighting. Pero si Ginger, feel na feel niya yung tension namin ni Karina. 

It looked like galit si Ginger kay Karina kasi she had been hissing at Karina nonstop. Ginger also kept rubbing her head on my leg as if trying to make me feel better. 

"Good night, baby," I kissed Luna on the top of her head. "Mommy Win loves you."

At umalis na ako sa kwarto nila para patulugin na ni Karina si Luna.

I just cleaned up in the kitchen at pumasok sa kwarto ko after para magbasa. I was hoping