Dear Journal,

Today I taught the kids how to add. I underestimated them because they're merely 8 year olds, but hell their memory is very good. I taught them how to add using their hands and their heads and surprisingly, my bunch exceeded my expectations. Sungmin mastered mental math with adding numbers 1-10. I made them cards that had apples with every corresponding number. It helped them alot and i'm so glad none of them became allergic to math. I'm starting to grow fond of everyone in my class as if they're all my kids. Now I understand why teachers told me not to love them too much because at one point, they will move up and will no longer be your students.

I ate dinner with Junhui tonight. Thank God, I wanted to see him so bad after that lunch I had with Seungcheol. For a second I thought i've fallen for him again, but it was pity. Yes, pity. I pity Seungcheol and his son. I told Junhui i've been seeing Seungcheol at school and his reaction wasn't very good. He got angry and pissed at him because he was kinda using his son to see me and so he told me to distance myself because it seems like Seungcheol is trying to be close to me again. He said he trusts me but he doesn't trust Seungcheol and his intentions. Junhui held my hand and kissed it before he smiled. He said Seungcheol is the past and he's the present. He said don't look behind because you have to cherish what you have right now. Yes, I once loved Seungcheol, but th