my heart has been beating in a different way.

it beats for you, every time i see your peaceful face.

then it beats for jongdae, in a way i never thought it would beat before.

it beats for the both of you.

i don't know what it means. 

and i'm afraid to know.

i love you too much for my heart to beat for someone else.

yet, it's doing just that.

when jongdae hugs me.

holds my hand to console me.

he kissed my forehead once. 

would you hate your best friend for that?