Its been 2 months since yuta and taeyong met, everything is going ok, taeyong started to think that yuta doesnt need to know about his illness, is just easier that way, yuta is a good friend taeyong can tell that because mark and Taeil are always saying “yuta is a good guy” and “he cares about you tae” so with his friends approval, yuta is now taeyong’s Friend.

Taeyong finds anime entertaining and yuta likes it too so both text each other a lot, yuta’s texts have emojis, a lot of exclamation signs; he is very expressive and taeyong is more direct he just says what he has to say, nothing more, nothing less. He has always been like that. Sometimes yuta feels like taeyong doesn’t want him by his side but since the time they met yuta knows how taeyong is, he only wonders why.

Taeyong spends all his afternoons with mark or taeil because his parents have to work and is tired to be in home alone cleaning the house, besides he doesn’t want to cook only for himself even when he is really good at cooking, that is taeyong golden ability, when he wants to do something he is the best at it, no one knows how, like the time he told taeil he wanted to play basketball at school it was the first time he played basketball and now he is one of the best players

“what are you playing this time?” taeil asked to taeyong who is playing in the play station “Assassin’s creed” he answered without even looking at taeil, so taeil sits in the couch with him “how is yuta?” taeil believe that yuta is good for taeyong, maybe taeyong could feel something for him besides taeil and mark think they look good together and yuta match really well with taeyong

“yuta is fine I think, nothing tell me he is not” taeyong answered, he just answers his hyung's questions like a robot, and taeil wants to know more but is hard because of taeyong’s little problem “what do you think about yuta?” taeil asks he doesn’t know what to expect; taeyong pauses the game and looks at his older with his black big eyes so serious “hyung, I read a lot of book you know it and you have teach me a lot, so I’m thinking that you like yuta, I don’t find any other reason for you to keep making questions about him” taeyong was very serious, as always, and taeil was in shock so he starts to laugh at taeyong’s answer and the monir looks at him without anything to said “I don’t understand” finally taeyong speak after at least five minutes, and taeil just stands up and pets taeyong’s hair “tae I can promise you, I don’t like yuta” he says and he left to his room and lets taeyong continue his game.

Next day

Taeyong was walking to mark’s house because taeil have something to do, when he hears this voice in the distant calling his name so he searches for a familiar face but he doesn’t see anyone “taeyong hyuuung!!” he hears again, when he looks back he sees yuta running to his direction and finally yuta reaches taeyong

“hi yuta” taeyong says with a smile in his face “why are you running?” he asked, yuta was sweating and he can hardly breath so taeyong takes a bottle of water out of his backpack and hands it to yuta “here, take some” yuta smiles and drinks almost all the water on the bottle “Hi hyung, I was running because near this park is the best ramen restaurant and I was there when I saw you” yuta is still sweating, but he is breathing normally now “but why did you run?” taeyong seems a little confused so yuta smiles and says “took me a couple of minutes decide if I should reach for you or not, and at the end I decided I should but when I went out of the restaurant you were too far away” he stops for a minute “you walk fast hyung” taeyong doesn’t know what to say about yuta story so he just smiles at him “do you want to come with me, I’m going to mark’s house, we are going to play assassin’s creed” taeyong asks nicely, yuta just nods and they start to walk to mark’s house.

“Whoa hyung you’re really good at this” yuta said to taeyong

“guys you been playing since 3 pm and is almost midnight, you’re going to die” mark said, he is writing a lyrics in the table but the two guys didn’t heard what he said they were so into the game, 20 minutes later taeyong pause the game “I should go for some food” he stands from the couch and takes one step when he Faints and falls to the ground and the last thing he sees is yuta running to him.

“Hyung, are you ok?” yuta asks when he sees taeyong opening his eyes, “your eyes are full of tears, I can see it” that’s the first thing taeyong says to yuta, and yuta just smiles “Yuta, what happened?” taeyong asks trying to sit in the bed “Well you fainted, because you didn’t eat since 3pm” yuta answers while he is petting taeyong's hair with one hand “mark is cooking something” he added

“you look…” taeyong started to talk “I don’t know” he said, he can see yuta’s eyes full of tears so at first, he thinks yuta is sad or scared but his face doesn’t look sad or scared, and that is confusing taeyong’s brain

“you don’t know what?” yuta asked to taeyong, he didn’t understand what he was saying, “can you please tell what are you feeling right now?” taeyong finally asks but yuta is looking at him and he doesn’t know what to say.

“I don’t know what are you saying hyung” that was yuta’s answer, taeyong can see that yuta is sincere but he doesn’t know how yuta doesn’t know what is he feeling “I never seen that expression I can’t read what are you feeling right now, they never teached me this I don’t know what kind of emotion is this” taeyong said with a low voice pointing to yuta’s face, and when he finish talking he knows he said to much.

Yuta was so confused about what taeyong is saying, what is he talking about? This questions are too weird for yuta, what should he answers to that, the only thing he know is that he doesn’t know what is he feeling he was scared when he saw taeyong fall to the ground and he was sad when 5 minutes passed and taeyong didn’t wake up and a couple of seconds ago he was happy because taeyong opened his eyes; what are all that emotions together? Is so confusing.

Mark entered to the room “oh hyung you are awake! I called taeil hyung he is coming and your mom too, you definitely have to eat” he said putting the plates in taeyong's desk "I'll be right back, going for some tea" and he left the room running

“we talk about this later” yuta said and smiles at taeyong.

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