“answer me please” taeil says “is it because of yuta?” he asks again and when he says yuta’s name taeyong starts to cry again, he is drowning in his tears “please make it stop hyung I don’t want to feel like this” taeyong says. Taeil doesn’t know what to do, is too hard for him watching his best friend like that

“but... yongie I have to know what is it” taeil says wiping his friend tears

“I started to feel bad when yuta told me he had to leave to japan, I don’t think he is the reason, why him? Why is he hurting me like this?” taeyong confess between tears to his hyung, the only emotion he knows is pain, he doesn’t know what love or friendship is, so he doesn’t know why it hurts so much the absence of yuta.

Taeil hugs taeyong, and pets his hair “he is not hurting you, I’m sure he misses you too and he wants to see you, maybe he is too special for you but you don’t know it because you can’t feel it that’s why it hurts” taeil is trying hard to find words that make his minor less sad “why don’t you call him?” he opines “that could help you” taeil adds but taeyong doesn’t make a sound.

It’s late night and taeil has to leave he doesn’t want to leave his friend like this but he has school tomorrow “I’m leaving now, I’ll be back tomorrow” taeil says opening the door and taeyong just nods

It is 3 am and taeyong can’t sleep, he thinks about what taeil says, but he doesn’t want to call yuta, he thinks yuta is not the cause of his pain, after 30 minutes he decides to call without thinking in the hour he press the green button

“taeyong-hyung?” yuta says, clearing his voice “why are you calling this late?” he asks but there is no answer

“hyung, are you ok?” yuta asks again and then taeyongs starts to talk

“how are you?” taeyong asks holding his tears, the pain is the same

“I’m fine, well I was asleep, why are you awake?” yuta asks, he voice sounds in panic, maybe he is thinking that something bad happened because why would taeyong call him at 3:30 am?

“I can’t sleep” that’s the only thing taeyong says, his chest starts to hurt again and he holds the scream, he doesn’t want yuta to know it

“Are you ok? Is something bad happening?” yuta says but when he hears no answer he speaks again “what’s wrong?” this time he sounds demanding “I’m worry about you” when yuta says the last thing, taeyong feels the pain decreasing

“do you care about me?” taeyong asks he wants to confirm if yuta is the cause

“hmmm” yuta starts “yes, I care about you, and you?” yuta is very confused about taeyong's call

“what?” taeyong asks

“do you care about me hyung?” yuta confirms the question

“y-y-yes I care about you…” taeyong answers shyly and the pain is disappearing more and more “can I call you tomorrow?” he asks, he is feeling better and now he knows one thing

“call me whatever you want, its ok” yuta says and there is happiness in his voice

“ok, thank you so I’ll call you later, bye yuta” taeyong is feeling better now, he is in pain but somehow the pain is nothing now, doesn’t feel so bad.

Yuta says goodbye and taeyong hangs up the phone, he realizes one thing, yuta is the reason of his pain and at the same time yuta is the only one who can take it away; now he wants to know why.

In the morning taeyong is feeling better, he eats the breakfast without vomit, everything is ok he is alone in his house but at least he is not in pain, sometimes he feels a pressure but in just one minute is gone, he calls a classmate his name is jaehyun, to ask about homework, he starts to read a book, about the love that cannot be when the night came the pain starts again, taeyong tries to hold it but he can’t, he runs to the bathroom and vomits he stays there almost for 10 minutes, his mother is late because of the traffic so he is all by himself when he finishes vomiting he lays in the floor and he hears his phone ringing in his room but he doesn’t want to walk

The phone still ringing so he stands up and walks slowly to the room, when he reaches his phone the name in the screen is Yuta and he quickly answers the phone “yuta…” he says, his voice sounds off but he tries his best to sounds alright

“I wanted to talk to you that’s why I’m calling, how are you?” yuta asks

“I’m good now that you’re calling” taeyong is relieved

“hyung, I’m coming back in two days, my grandma is ok now” yuta says and taeyong notices how excited he is, but taeyong is more excited because once yuta is back he will not feel pain again.

“That’s good, yuta… I-I been missed you” taeyong doesn’t know if he is feeling it but that reliefs his pain, maybe he is missing yuta maybe he is not; he doesn’t know how it feels to miss someone

“ahh I been missed you too, but why are you telling me this?” yuta is confused about what taeyong is saying

“sorry, I thought I felt it that’s why I said it” taeyong says, he knows that maybe he is laying to yuta

“Oh I see, well it’s ok” and when yuta finish his sentence taeyong speaks “Hyung I’m not feeling ok, its just a flu I’m going to sleep, I talk to you tomorrow”

Taeyong hangs up the phone before yuta can say something, he goes to sleep he is tiring

“At least yuta is arrives in two days” he says to himself and fall asleep

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