-From Donghyuk-
ReplacedDear Chanwoo,
I made the members think this is the list of what we miss about you.. but i know no one will write that. It's just so they could shut up from asking me what to write. (I just checked and Junhoe actually made a list wow i hate him). Anyways, how are you? I got so caught up in reminding the members that I don't know what to write to you.
Well, all I know is that I miss you a lot. I hate that things happened. I couldn't stop thing from getting worse and I just felt so.. so much helpless. All I can do is to make stupid ideas like making the members write letters for you or when it feels like I'm doing nothing. I'm not stupid, I know such letters won't really affect you. I know the hyungs think the same too. But I like to tell myself it does something. The members seems to be worried of me lately too. They think I'm crazy probably. Well, I'm not, right Chanwoo? I just want you back. I want things to get to normal again.
I don't like waking up seeing Jinhwan and Hanbin hyung fighting talking about something so serious and the minute they see me they just pretended nothing happened. I don't like how they force me to go with Junhoe whenever something happens. I don't like how every second passes my will to continue to living.. gets smaller?
I'm sorry that sentence must've scared you. I didn't mean to make it about me, it was never my intention. Anyways.. you're doing better right? I'm glad you finally get to see your family again. I know you've been missing them a lot. You like to mention about your mom's cookings. I had them once on your birthday, she made seaweed soup and it was delicious! I hope you only eat her cookings in the mean time you are with your family :)
How can I say this, Chanwoo.. Ever since you became part of us, I just- couldn't help but admire you. Your determination, your humor and your patience. All of those things inspires me so much. I could never be like you. I could never endure the cruel survival show we had to e
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