Dear Chanwoo,

What are you up to now, rascal? Hah, I miss calling you that. I missed having someone to bother me about my height and just annoy me on a daily basis. Now things have been very gloomy. Every second passes and it feels like hell. The uncertainty of everything makes me feel so helpless. I hate this feeling. I hate seeing everyone I love feeling what I feel even more. God, if you just took a glimpse of how everyone is grasping the situation..

I hope you never do. I hope you only see the good things in life, I hope you only see the good things in us after you've seen the worst in us. I miss you so much. , Chanwoo. Your name alone gives me the shivers now. Almost seems like you were a dream. Like you came to our lives and filled it with joy and then you were gone just like that. Why did you have to do that, brat? You made us love you unconditionally and so blindly that we forgot common sense. Why did you make us love you. Why did you make me love every single bit of you, huh? Please explain to me. I am never going to forgive you if you leave us, if you for what kind of reason do that. 

What's that? Haha, I could hear you saying stuff about me saying that im being selfish or things like that. Well you know what, Jung Chanwoo? I guess I am. If it takes me being selfish to have you back, I will be selfish. I'm such an aren't I? After what me and the other members did I still have the guts to say these stuff. Well, that's because I know the others won't say these things. They're too busy babying you and I'm scared of the thought of you thinking it's not sincere. 

Chanu-yah, aren't you tired? You were never the type to let any fights last long. You were never the type to hold grudges. But, why now? After weeks, you still look at us with so much hatred. Are we that disgusting to you? Are we such monsters for being jealous over your friend? Is it fair if you do that even when our intension was never to hurt you... Even when you did in the end. Did we really cross the line?

, Chanwoo. Why did it get to be such a mess? The last time I made you upset was when I forgot to bring your food after I went out. You pretended not to be mad but your pout shows how upset you were. All it took for you to forgive me was a hug. That's all it took for me to see that precious smile of yours. The smile that I haven't seen for so long. Now, I don't think a simple hug