I’ve crossed the line.

I’m kissing Luhan and, now, nothing will be like before. His lips were so soft and I was dying to make the kiss deeper. However, the trance was broken when he pushed me away violently.

- GET AWAY FROM ME! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!

His eyes were full of anger and he winced when I came closer.

- Luhan, I...

- Stay where you are.

- Let me explain... I shouldn't have done that but I couldn't resist the urge.. I.. I love you, Lu! You're the one person who's the most important to me, and...

- SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!

He screamed so loud that the others heard and rushed through the hall.

- What’s going on, guys? Are you fighting?

- Yeah.. It looks like Luhan's about to cry.

I was still staring at him, completely paralyzed by his reaction. He avoided my gaze and his state wavered between anger, incredulity and... a little disgust.

- Don’t touch me like that ever again.

His tone was cold and while saying that, he turned back and left, the door slamming behind him.

Tears started to flow down my cheeks. My heart was caught in a vise, it's grip stronger and stronger. I couldn’t breathe, the pain became unbearable.

What should I do?

Run after him?

What's the point? I’m sure he hates me now.

Luhan hates me.

My love was rejected.

I lost him. I lost him. I lost him.

I collapsed onto the ground, a flood of tears hurtling down my face. My breathing was erratic and my entire body was shaken by my distress. The others looked at me, dumbfounded. They didn't know how to react to this kind of situation. They’d never seen me cry. Xiumin took his courage in both hands and was the first to step up.

I was still on the floor when I realized that someone lifted me up softly. I was totally disconnected from reality. Like a robot, I let myself be guided towards the couch, as I sat down with the light impetus of my friend.

- Sehun ?

- .............

- Hey... Look at me.

- I screwed all up. I've never seen him like that. He’ll never forgive me.

My voice was choked by my tears. I was shivering. I was cold and my only wish was to lay in bed. Sleep and escape this hell.

- Would you explain to us?

Xiumin looked at me with anxious eyes. As for the others, they took place all around me and didn't say a word.

- I..I cracked. I had enough having him so close every day without telling him... I beat around the bush.

- Tell him what ? It's because of your words that he was so angry?

- No... Not only...

- We aren’t here to judge you, you know. So, what's happened between you?

- I kissed him.

- Okay. You.. WHAT?!

My revelation was a bombshell. Kai and Baekhyun looked at me with wide eyes but Kyungsoo beat both boys hands down.

Chen stared at me as if he saw a ghost and Xiumin put me down, giving me a look full of sadness.

- What the ?! Now I understand why little Lu blew a fuse! He’s not even as tactile with girls so, if a boy snogging at him – and you, on top of that- it was surely hiroshima in his head !

- Kai, shut up please.

- But Kyung’, how will you react if it was you? Imagine, me kissing you and...

- Stop it. Having one in the band is bad enough.

- What do you mean, Baek ?

Baekhyun stood up and stared at me with a disgust glance. I frozed. Why are my friends looking at me like that?

- A ing gay.

His tone was biting. And to my astonishment, he turned around and walked away.

- That’s all we needed!

- Kai, seriously...

- Okay. Anyone else? Because, after Luhan and now Baekhyun, I think I’ve had my dose! Who else hates me? I’m a ing gay after all! I love men! MEN!

I was totally angry now. And if I didn't want to pronounce hurtful words towards my friends, I had to go now. I stood up abruptly and in one go, I left the room. There was no question of going to my bedroom. Not one. Lay was still sleeping. So, I took the only one option that I had. I put on my shoes and I ran outside. I had no idea where to go, but I didn’t care.

P.O.V. Luhan.

I ran as fast as I could. I had a stitch in my side and sweat dripped down my back. My body was going to collapse soon, but  I didn't want to stop. I wanted to get away from this nightmare. I wanted to erase it all.

Why Sehun did that?!

WHY?!

It’s a nightmare...A ing crappy nightmare.

Why did he fall in love with me? I never did anything for that... I didn't see anything coming.

Absolutely nothing.

I’m rubbish. Maybe, I shouldn't have reacted like that... I was violent with him. I hurt him!

« He’s a boy! You kissed a ing boy! »

« NO! He kissed me! »

Sehun is my friend. My best friend. I need to talk with him.

« If you go see him, what will happen? »

« He will kiss you again, and again and you will like it. »

- No...

« With only a glance, you will crack and, you will hold him in your arms. »

- NO ! I’M NOT ING GAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Without knowing it, I stopped running and I yelled like a mad man in the street. Many people turned towards me and looked in my direction strangely. I'm completely done. I'm hurting. I'm dead scared.

I'm not gay.

I'm not in love with Sehun.

But...

I need to be reassured.

I could move on to the only person who could do that.

The only one for me.

Once I arrived at my destination, my heartbeat thudded faster. I took a deep breath and rang the bell. The door opened a few seconds later, letting appears Soo Ok.

She's so beautiful... I love her so much...

- Luhan ? What are you doing he-

I didn't give her time to finish her sentence as I pressed my lips against hers. Firstly hesitant, she responded nonetheless, and now, our tongues danced together. As the kiss get deeper, I desired her more. I let my hands run around her body and while pushing her softly inside, I closed the door behind me.

I love Soo Ok.

I’m not gay.

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Little chapter but...  I hope you will like it ^^  Thank you tensmainhoe for the corrections ^^

XoXo Arcaelle.