credit : the12wolves@SPZ

----

"Oppa."

Jiyong heard someone calling him. He turned toward the door and a pretty yeoja named Choi Sulli was standing in the doorway, carrying a stack of library books. For a moment, he saw Dara immobilised in place with an elusive expression before finally returning to her busy pursuit in putting up her painting equipments.

"Changkanman, Sulli-ah." Jiyong smiled briefly. He walked over to the painting, and then wrote the title briefly examined below.

- Lost-

The big smile suddenly tugged away from his red lips. Jiyong closed his paintings with a white fabric and stored it in the locker class. Sulli was still waiting for him, as well Dara. His best friend was still busy clearing all the equipment before she walked away without looking at him. Jiyong frowned. He clearly saw Dara's odd behavior very often whenever Sulli was around. He thought for a moment, and then began to realize that from the beginning he told her about his "yeojachingu", somehow her expression changed gloomy and..unfriendly.

"What's wrong with her? She should at least say goodbye to me," thought Jiyong.

-----

"Oppa, was she Dara eonni?" Sulli asked when they were walking down the corridor.

"Eo. Yeppoji?" Jiyong stuck his hands in his pockets while smiling broadly. *beautiful, isn't she?

Thump.

Sulli stopped, then turned toward Jiyong.. observing the happy smile on his face. "Mm.. yeppo. So, you guys, have been friends for a long time?" She asked again while aligning their position.

Jiyong was staring straight ahead thinking wistfully and remembering the past. "Approximately three years so since we entered this school. She's very quiet, you see that, right?" he smiled. "Ah, Sulli-ah, is it still hour lessons?"

Sulli looked down, Jiyong didn't realize that she was feeling pain in her heart. Because she knew. Because she wasn’t stupid to not know the meaning of Jiyong's smile earlier.

She had known for a long time but was too afraid to lose him.

She isn't ready yet.

Slowly, Sulli looked up and stared at Jiyong's face trying to calm herself. "This." Sulli slightly raised a few books in her hand. "I just checked out from the library. I have no class after this, oppa. So I just wanna read all of this." She replied with a grin.

Jiyong softly ruffled her silky hair. "Eih. You're pretty smart already, Sulli-ah. Don't make yourself too in love with the books." Sulli smiled, and looked straight right to Jiyong's hazel eyes.

"Oppa."

"Hm?"

"You love me, don't you?" Sulli asked.

Jiyong froze, but soon he pulled Sulli into his arms. In the past, something forced him to stick around with this girl. Sulli is the only child of one of his father's business colleague. She's a childhood friend he had always protected. Jiyong loved her, but unfortunately, that feeling isn't the love that she wanted to have. It's just a pure love from an oppa to his dongsaeng.

Not for Sulli.

Jiyong even knew. He knew that Sulli loved him since they were kids. Because of that, he always tried to act natural around her trying not to give more hope.

-Flashback-

Sulli was 7 years old at the time when she and her family had to move to New York for business. That was the last time Jiyong saw her. And as time passed, Jiyong thought that someday when they meet again, Sulli might understand that what she felt wasn't love.

But once again, not for Sulli.

One day, Jiyong and his family heard that Sulli was suffering from leukemia. That girl insisted on returning to Korea because she missed him. That day, at the Hospital while Sulli was lying weak with infusion hoses attached to her body she said to Jiyong, "Oppa. Taengida.. Neoreul ddo mannasseo." *thankfully, I meet you again

Jiyong then sat beside the bed and grabbed her soft hands, smiling. "Geurae. Na yeogi isseo." *yes, i'm here

"Oppa .." Her tears rolled down. Jiyong immediately reached over to wipe it. "Wae? Eodi apa?" (Why? Is it hurt?)

Sulli shook her head. "I want to recover soon."

"You will, Sulli-ah. You're a strong girl, geji?" Jiyong smiled reassuringly.

"Saranghae. Saranghae, oppa. Geurigo..mianhae. I-is that so wrong?"

Jiyong was surprised for a moment. He never thought that in the end her feelings would still remain. That feeling still.. there for him.

"Aniya ..." Jiyong closed his eyes.

"Oppa, will you be.. my b-boyfriend? I need you." Sulli cried. "Jebal."

-Flashback End-

Since then, everything's start to change. Sulli is finally went to the same school as him and Dara. Dara never know it, what she knows is just.. "Jiyong loved Sulli sincerely". Yeah, Dara has misrepresented all of this.

However, this is also Jiyong's fault, who could never firmly against his own feelings and just let it continue. Guilt