credit : the12wolves@SPZ

special thanks to :  Jhamilelambino (Ig: Jhamthelamb)

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Sulli  was busy with a pile of clothes scattered on her bed. Both of her hands were moving the clothes into large two suitcases on the floor, which is one of that has been filled by the goods. Occasionally she stop her activity, wiping tears from her cheeks. Now, her eyes fixed on some frames that lined up neatly beside the bed. Many framed pictures of her with her boyfriend, a boyfriend who after this gonna be her ex-boyfriend…Kwon Jiyong. There are pictures of them both laughing, picture of her smiling holding his arm and several others that always been so precious to her.

Since that day, a sunny day where the beautiful dandelions meet her gaze, the day she and Dara talked about him, the moment where she said that she’ll let him go, Sulli shut herself in her room for few days. Jiyong is so worried about her, but he can’t do anything besides standing in front of her room almost everyday..only to remind her to eat something, to always taking her medicines.. That’s it. Sulli had not even explain what happened, she didn’t even get the courage to talk to him. She’s feeling guilty. Because of her, he have to endured his feelings that grows so deep inside his heart during this time.

So that night, Sulli has taken a big decision..

Flashback

The sound of a dial tone..

1 times, 2 times, and the sound of an elderly woman on the other line finally  picked up..

"Yeobuseyo..Sulli-ah?"

Sulli remained silent, her knuckles turned white, she grasped her cellphone too tightly to anticipate her tearsthat will fall. She bit her lower lip, sighed, and began to speak,"Ne, eomma."

"Jagiya? Why are you calling so early? Ah, now 11 pm already in Korea, geji? Omo, are you get sick again?" her mom sounded so worried.

"Aniya,eomma. Geunyang.. i just wanna say thankyou. The other day, eomma and appa have taking your time to visit me when i came home from hospital." Sulli replied, her voice started to hoarse.

"Aigoo, Jagiya.. of course eomma and appa should visit you. Well, I know thatJiyongalways taking care of you, buy you're still our little princess."

Hearing Jiyong’s name, Sulli's heart pierced perfectly. It hurts.

"...Eomma."

"Hm?"

“Nan halmariiseo.." *there’s something that I want to talk about* Sulli said softly, sitting by the window of her room, staring at the rainfalls behind it. Occasionally, she bowed her head. Wiped her tears that has been rolling down to her cheeks,dripped in her left hand.

“Busungmal, Jagiya? What's wrong with your voice? You crying?!"

"Eomma. I, i decided to go back to New York." Sulli said firmly, still trying so hard to not sobbing. "I'll go and be check at the ICU when i get there, i promise."

"Sulli-ah, what happened?! Were you and Jiyong were arguing?"

Sulli held her breath for a while, “Eomma.”

“Eo?” 

“We.. uhm.. Me and Jiyong.. we, we broke up. We talked about it already and..b-both of us think this’s the bestest decision. For our sake.” She said.

Her mom remained quiet for a moment.

"....So, when will you leaving honey?"

"The day after tomorrow, eomma." Sulli said with sad smile plastered on her lips before she hangup. She wipes her tears gently, then curled up in bed clutching Jiyong's photograph. Her first love.

Flashback End

***

"What happened to her.." said Jiyong softly while ruffling his blonde hair in frustration, stuck his hands into his pockets and standing in the balcony of the Sully's apartment.

He pondered - staring at the bright morning sky above him, thinking about a lot of things.

Sulli.

Dara.

What he could do to both of them if he doubts his own feelings?

Jiyong admitted that the only girl  he love is Dara. He love her so secretly ‘cause he don’t wanna broke their friendship, ‘cause he thought that Dara never had the same feeling. 'til he met Sulli and everything start to changed..or worse. Now he knows that everything’s wrong, that every ridiculous thinking he had was wrong. Even though he never heard directly the word 'I love you' from her lips, he knows. Dara's body language..her shy smiles everytime he’s around. But he was just too coward, stupid, as if he take it for granted. He hurted her.

And someone new approached her, yeah.. Park Chanyeol.

The guy who always make her smile, the guy that have so many possibilities to make her change her heart.

"Before it’s all too late, Jiyong.. all or nothing.." he said it to himself. He hurt Dara already, and now he feels like he has become a coward for the umpteenth time‘cause he hurt Sulli too.. ‘cause he wanna be free, to be unburden, to be able to reach his own happiness.

“…Yeah. This’s for her.”

***

'Klek'

The door’s finally open, Sulli appeared out of her room wearing a long brown fur coat behind her uniform and black knee-length boots. She walked towards Jiyong, her presence makes him sigh with relief expression plastered on his face.

"Sulli-a!" Jiyong holds her shoulders with both of his hands.

Sulli smiled broadly, "Hm.. Sorry for make you this worried."

Jiyong shook his head slowly, "Ani gwaenchanha. As long as you okay.So..you’re going to school today?”

Sulli nodded, "Eo. I wanted to see Dara eonni too anyway so.. Uhm, there’s something important that I wanna say to both of you."

Jiyong remained silent for a moment.. then he bowed his head and sighed before returning stared at the two caramel brown eyes in front of him. "Sulli-a, sasireunwaegeurae?" *Actually, what happened to you?

His question made her smile, but she finally answered. "Oppa, namarhaeji? Oppaeuimaemeun, nan jalara. Jeonbu da, ara. Ije,oppahaengbokhaeyadwe. Naneun.. oppagahaengbokhaesseumyeonchukgetta." replied Sulli, still with her broad smile while holding his cold hands.  *Oppa, i’ve told you, right? I know how you feel. I really do. Now, you should be happy.I.. I want you to be happy.

Jiyong smiled bitterly, bowing his head. He don’t know what to say after he hurt her feeling this much. He’s so ashamed of himself.

"Oppa, don’t forget to wear your gloves again, arasseo?" Sulli chuckled.

"…Gomawo." He said.

The girl smiled knowingly, "Nado, oppa. Nadogomabda. From now on, oppa should be happy. Forever, okay?  Forever.”

Jiyong didn’t say anything. He just looked at her with soft eyes, sad face..guilt. "Mianh-“

“Oppa,  yaksok?" *promise?

Sulli stepped closer and offer her pinky finger so suddenly, as if she didn’t listening to what he said. She don’t want to.

"...Eo, yaksok."

***

Dara walk in the main corridor anxiously.

She don’t know if she should be happy -smile all day like an idiot, or cry, or she just simply don’t think about anything because of this poor ‘love triangle' that happened since her high school life began. Well, Sulli already told her so clearly tho. Yeah!

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