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You: Well.. I just want us to be.. Gosh I don't know. It's up to you. But you're an idol. I can't date you.. 

Hanbin: Why can't you not? We can keep it a secret.

You: Hanbin-ah you know it won't work. You know it yourself. It's not gonna work. You should just focus on iKON.

Even though I really want to be his girlfriend. Of course, I've always wanted to hold his hands and go on dates with him. But that's impossible..

Hanbin: We're having a break. We just finished our last stage. We're done for now. Chill out.

You: You don't even sound like yourself anymore.

I was a little happy inside when he told me that "we can keep a secret". Does he meant that we should date? Wow I was secretly flushing inside but honestly I can't be selfish. I can't have him dealing with all of this.

But somewhere in my heart I know I'm just jealous of his past.

But it's the past right? 

It should stay in the past. 

Or so I hope.

You: Hey.. You know.. Bobby told me about your past.

Hanbin: My past? What past? Oh did he told you about how I dyed my hair blonde myself and it turned orange.

You: Wait what.

Hanbin: What?

You: That's not it but okay. Well that explains your messy hair.

Hanbin: Oh it wasn't that? Then what is it?

You: You know.. You and.. Her.

Hanbin scratches his head and looks at me for a long time.

Hanbin: What?

You: You know, HER.

Hanbin: Can you just go straight to the point?

You: Lisa. You and LALICE.

Hanbin: What?

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