Chapter 5
My Endless RegretsActually it's weird that the more I grow distant from her, the more I figure out the mental blueprints of how I should be treating her in many kind of occasions, like when she's mad, when she's sad, when she's being annoying;
like I suddenly just find the perfect way to fill in the hole of her imperfect soul's skin,
but when I was with her, everything just seemed so blurry that I gave up.
But, have she given up our dreams by now? I can't tell, because I told her to stop reaching out to me.
So I'm all alone with myself, trying to make an amend for a seemingly wrong decision.
Although deep down, I do hope that it is actually right, so I won't have to end up every night at the side of the bed feeling the same guilt, just like how I'm going to end up tonight.
—KTY
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