Right after our movie was aired last midnight, it was like a fame bomb explodes as my fan and Ryohei’s increase drastically. There’s so many company inside and outside Korea and Japan that would like us to collab again as a couple in their movie. I barely walk outside my house as there would be fan screaming and holding banners and somehow I felt like I’m in a cage. It’s not that I don’t like them but it was too much as they are actually invading my privacy and I have to walk out of my house with my bodyguard. The same goes to Ryohei as his fans would cry their lung out while screaming his name in the movie and try to grab him. Somehow both of us felt like our life is being threatened although it’s just one day.

I’m supposed to be at SBS FOR Running Man shooting this afternoon, but as I say before, I quit and ask the PD to replace me with Eun Hye. After our photo shoot to promote ‘Memories Of A Lavender’ outside Asia this morning, Ryohei quickly grab me and drag me inside his car.

“Wae? Aren’t you supposed to have a fan meet by yourself? Where are you bringing me now?” I questioned him as we were in the car. But he just smiled and drive on before take a last corner toward SBS and my eyes went wide.

“Chotto matte! Hontou nii?! (Wait are minute! Are you for real?!)” I learn how to speak Japanese a bit from him and right now I’m a bit pissed off.

“Hontou. (For real)” He just give a sly smile.

“Kaja.” He Open the door for me but I just stay still with my arms crossing in front my chest.

“Andwae!” I shout in front him and that makes him pout. He suddenly pull me out by force from the car and make me went inside the building where other members already gathering.

“Ahhh Ji Hyo yah!! Palli! We’re about to start!” Jae Suk oppa suddenly grab me from Ryohei and make me went in line with other members. I was about to protest but remembering how I throw tantrum in front them that day, it makes me feel embarrassed and went with the flow. Ryohei just smiled and wave me goodbye. I guess I’ll rip his throat off him one day. But not today.

The shooting went on smoothly but somehow, I can feel that everyone else notice how fake my smile is. As soon as the shooting end at the midnight, I quickly grab my things before Suk Jin oppa hold me and bring me to where other members are. All of them were sitting on a chair and look at me as soon as I entered.

“Wae?” I just ask them with innocent face. But somehow I can see their sad expression.

“Ji Hyo yah… You’ve changed so much.” Haha start his words as he can see that I just look at them with arrogant expression.

“There’s nothing of me that changed. That must be your feelings.” I just rolled my eyes while gripping my handbags. Afraid that I might look fragile in front them.

“A lot of you that changed. Your attitude, your expression and the way you talk. Ji Hyo yah. You could tell us if you got any problem arasso?” This time Gary spoke up. Defending Haha by saying I do changed a lot.

“Ahhh.. Kure… If my attitude towards you changed, that must be because how you beat my boyfriend into a pulp before. That’s the only problem.” I can see him startled and look away.

“Noona.. Gary hyung just want to protect you at that time. He just didn’t know the real situation at that time. And beside, he already apologizes to Ryohei shi.” Kwang Soo start to defend Gary this time while I just give him a sly smile.

“Ryohei-kun might forgive you but I’m not. You know what? All of you were actually quite busybody about my life. I’m so sick of this. When there’s a pretty guest on the show, you guys will start to treat me like .” I can’t hold up what’s being kept in my hearts anymore. I can see that they’re pretty shocked.

“Only that?” Haha just ask me with unbelievable expression.

“Well if you say ONLY THAT mind to remind you that I’m also a girl who get hurt by your words and attitude towards me! I’m not that strong if you mind to remember!” This time I start to shout and making some of them look guilty. And somehow I could see someone is missing. And it was Jong Kook oppa. But then Suk Jin approach me.

“Ji Hyo yah… All of us know that you actually love Jong Kook.” My eyes went wide at his statement and I look at other members. They look at me with guilty expression. This time Jae Suk approach me.

“Ji Hyo yah… If you only love Ryohei because he looks like Jong Kook, please don’t hurt him. We all know how kind he is and somehow we don’t want you to hurt him. And beside Jong Kook love Eun Hye. Ji Hyo yah… Please… Move on.” I look at him with unbelievable expression. I back away while shocking my head.

“What makes you think I love him because he looks like Jong Kook? I.. I didn’t…” I suddenly get distracted by a window there. A one sided window where I can see the other side but people on the other side can’t see me. My eyes went wide and my tears fall. Other members feel a bit weird about me and they walk towards me to see the view I’m seeing right now.

Jong Kook was kissing Eun Hye and I can see him making marks on her necks. Somehow I feel grossed by the view that my eyes are blurred by my tears and some of them rolling down my cheeks. Kwang Soo hold my shoulders then.

“Noona yah… Find someone who truly loves you and—“ His word cuts by me.

(I recommend you to hear the song ‘Oh My Little Girl’ by Yutaka Ozaki at this part. And find