The Emotion

Oxycontin, Cigarettes, and Sunflowers

“I talked to Jongin the other day,” Baekhyun says, setting down a cup of tea in front of Kyungsoo. “I think you should take him up on his offer. Change would be good for you, there’s too much around here that’s hurting you.”

“I don’t want to just leave you behind,” Kyungsoo replies, taking a sip of the tea. “You’ve helped me through everything and I can’t just throw all of that away.”

Baekhyun sits down, shaking his head and lets out a small laugh. “Typical Kyungsoo. After everything he’s been through, he’s still trying to protect everyone.” He plays with the tea bag before setting it down in a bowl on the table. “Quit worrying about me. Besides, it’s not like we’ll never be able to see each other again. There’s Skype, phone calls, texts, planes.”

“I….I don’t know. I still feel like I’d just be running away from my problems.”

“Just go. Try it out and see how you like it. If you don’t like it, then just come back home. We’ve always got room here,” Baekhyun says, pointing his thumb over at the couch in the living room.

“How thoughtful,” Kyungsoo jokes, taking another sip. “I’ll think about it.”

 

“Are you ready?” Jongin asks, walking into the bathroom. “Baekhyun’s downstairs loading up the car.”

Kyungsoo looks down at the floor where he overdosed a few months before. It still gives him a bad feeling each time he walks into this bathroom, but now it gives him a sense of relief. He was in such a dark place before and now he’s better. He’s better than he was in college, he’s better than he was with Kris, he’s better than he was.

He turns around and smiles at Jongin before nodding. Jongin gives him a soft smile back and walks up to him, wrapping his arm around Kyungsoo’s shoulders and giving him a light kiss on the forehead. “You’re gonna be okay.”

As they walk through the apartment to make sure they got everything, Kyungsoo can’t help but feel sad. His home for so many years is now empty and bland. He sold all of his furniture and packed up all of his sentimentals. All of those boxes are probably already in France, sitting in Jongin’s living room just waiting to be put away.

Jongin is holding Kyungsoo’s hand tightly and watching as he looks at the empty living room and front entrance. They walk down the steps and down to the front of the complex where Taeyeon and Baekhyun are standing next to the car, talking and giggling about something. When they see Jongin and Kyungsoo, they stop and Baekhyun looks over at Kyungsoo and smiles. “Looks weird, doesn’t it?” Baekhyun asks, messing up Kyungsoo’s hair. In return, Kyungsoo punched Baekhyun hard in the arm and rolls his eyes.

Jongin opens up the door and lets Kyungsoo climb into the backseat before getting in himself and Baekhyun and Taeyeon take the front seat. They pull away from the building.

It’s almost a quiet ride, except Baekhyun makes a bad joke and Taeyeon starts yelling at him for even letting it slip out of his mouth. While they’re complaining, Kyungsoo jumps when he feels a hand rest over his. He looks over at Jongin who’s looking out the window boredly, and Kyungsoo can’t help but smile.

The airport isn’t busy for a Tuesday morning, and Baekhyun pulls up along the side of the building and pops the trunk to help pull out the bags.

“Now you have your tickets and passports, right?” Baekhyun starts asking when he closes the trunk. “And you know to stick together and make it to your gates on time, right?”

Kyungsoo rolls his eyes. “Yes, mom, we have everything.”

“Baekhyun, I’ve made this trip more than once,” Jongin says, letting out a laugh as he pulls a bag over his shoulder. “We’ll be fine.”

Baekhyun chews on his lip. “Come here you beautiful bastards,” he says, pulling them both in for a hug. “I know I said I was okay with this, and I still am, but I’m gonna miss you guys.”

“We’re gonna miss our plane,” Jongin complains.

Baekhyun lets out a groan and pulls away. “You better take care of him, Kim Jongin, or so help me god, I will be on the next plane to France and find you.” Jongin stops himself from rolling his eyes and when Baekhyun looks over at Kyungsoo, they both get tears in their eyes.

“This isn’t a goodbye,” Kyungsoo says quietly. “It’s just a see you later.”

Baekhyun doesn’t say anything and instead just turns around. “Okay, go, you guys are gonna miss your plane.”

Kyungsoo lets out a laugh and pats Baekhyun’s shoulder before grabbing his luggage and following Jongin inside the airport. And for once in his life, he felt truly happy.


a/n 

NOT EXACTLY A YEAR SINCE I LAST UPDATE BUT DAMN NEAR IT. ALSO THIS IS THE LAST CHAPTER WHOOPS TAKE A YEAR HIATUS AND THEN CALL IT QUITS YOLO

also if i feel motivated enough i'll probably do like little short chapters about the few months when they were packing up to move to france

gg boys see ya'll later

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MochiiNadine
#1
Chapter 19: you got me staying up late despite my headache reading this sad story.. but I'm so happy it's all over and thank you for this story, because it really ruined my insides... don't realy know how to describe how I feel but that's maybe because I want some more kaisoo sweet moments :') I loved it and hated it, so thank you for making me feel like that lol
Azcarl97 #2
Chapter 19: I was vouching for Kyungsoo to die in this story. Just to let Baekhyun and Jongin know how awful Kyungsoo has been living all this time
CrossingTheBoundary #3
Chapter 19: OH BOY RHAT WAS ABRUPT

but man i misses seeing this title come up in my notifs
_chanchan #4
Chapter 18: Chapter 18: in not even rooting for anyone or anything anymore lol I think all of them need to get their straight (well, besides baekhyun I guess) but all of this is like argh lol I don't know how to describe the feeling, I just want to like rewind back the time when Kyungsoo was genuinely more of his "reality self" so I can be like "stay away from these certain people so they won't hurt you in the future Soo" lol but I mean, I can't do that *sighs* maybe it would be better for him to go to France but at the same time he needs to realize if jongin loves him , but doesn't love him (woahhh confusinggg lolol) he should try to seek someone else to idk get his priorities and health straight and omg I feel like I'm talking to something that's actually happening in real life when it's just a fanfic xD sorry authornim haha
Aprilove
#5
Chapter 17: Que KyungSoo regresara ha fue un gran paso, pero eso no significa que eso vaya ser todo para que Soo vuelva a ser el mismo, primero tiene que amarse el mismo, cerrar heridas, y que Baek y Jongin lo ayuden en esa búsqueda.
Gracias por actualizar >°°<
shrpgun
#6
Chapter 17: ... ok then jongin
diaw25 #7
Chapter 17: Baekhyun and Jongin should have tried to understand where Kyungsoo was coming from. I mean he's obviously severely depressed so it's not gonna be easy for him, and making everything seem like his fault is not gonna help but cause him to be even more sad. so I see why he ran away for awhile cause he probably felt like it would be better for everyone if he was gone.
CrossingTheBoundary #8
Chapter 16: I LOVE THIS STORY SO MUCH YOU DONT UNDERSTAND MAN
hearteuibsul
#9
Chapter 16: baek and jongin should've understand kyungsoo better tho its not he's playing victim but i guess he wants to be assured that they do care about him..... well that is what i thought
Aprilove
#10
Chapter 16: Estoy feliz por que Kris ayuda a KyungSoo en esta etapa tan difícil de su vida.