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THOUGHTS ARE IN ITALICS btw

Reya POV

I hate awkward silences.

But this wasn’t awkward

This was scaring me to the core.

His silence is scaring me.

Plus, my spine hurts leaning onto him and his grip around me is only getting tighter.

I don’t like this.

Am I to talk to him? Ask him to let go of me?

He is looking forward. I’m not sure where he is looking since he is wearing sunglasses but his jaws are clenched making him look super attractive right now.

Wait a minute….

Isn’t clenching jaws a way to express anger?!

Oh fudge…..

“Jaejoong-ssi” I whispered, gently tugging onto his black body pasting t-shirt.

His response was to pull me closer to him. My left arm was squashed between our bodies and it was almost numb now.

“Let go” I murmured

“Never” He replied quite sternly.

“It’s quite uncomfortable” I softly explained nevertheless

His head snapped and I eyed at my numb hand. He breathed out, finally loosening his clenched jaws and retreated his hand off my waist.

I stretched my hand not realising him look at me. Meeting his gaze, I stopped my actions and raised my brows at him.

“Sorry” He mumbled

“It’s ok” I smiled back.

The birds chirped and I heard people laugh and talk. The both of us were quiet. I expected him to explode but he is quiet. Too quiet…..

“Please tell me you slapped him”

There you go…. I sincerely take back my expectation. His stern, please-don’t-piss-me-off-anymore tone made it obvious that he was controlling himself so long.

“Actually” I cleared my throat “He kind of trapped me you know, pulling me to him”

I stopped, looking at his jaws clench only highlighting his perfect jawline further.

“So you let him kiss you? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!”

The people walking over the bridge halted. I threw his hoodie back to him, gesturing him that people were looking at us.

His breathing deepened, his shoulders rose and slumped down.

“You freaking idiot!” He whisper-hissed “This is why I told you not to interact with him!”

I decided to remain quiet. The people, maybe didn’t recognize him since he was right under the bridge, continued to walk away and I sighed in relief.

“Didn’t you feel even half the pain I felt since the moment I left you?” He ran his fingers over his hair “Didn’t you even miss me? Answer me Reya…. Or were you so busy with the substitute you got, huh? Becoming his girlfriend? Maybe dancing around together?”

I couldn’t help but scoff at this tone “Pain? You were in pain… Really?”

His brows knitted

“The whole time you had your s-line model girlfriend, you were in pain?” I couldn’t help but mock “Wow! What feelings you have”

His breathed deepened, “For the 100th time you idiot, Min Young is long gone”

The ambiance around us changed. It felt pressurizing, eerie and uncomfortable. I admit that I should have slapped him hard but Jaejoong acting like he suffered when it was I who cried every minute of the day missing him, was plain unacceptable.

“I hate you” He mumbled and looked away.

Ok, that stung my heart.

Is this what I get for being truthful of what happened? All I ever wanted was to not have any secrets between us. Yes, Yixing hasn’t accepted it yet, but that doesn’t mean I’ll hold on to him, not when I wish to be with the erupting volcano opposite to me.

Should I have waited for some more time until things calmed down between Yixing and I?

“Well” I turned forward burying my feet under the water. “The feeling is mutual”

He threw a stone into the water.

“This is why I asked you to come with me to Korea.” He mumbled angrily “See?! We are losing the bond we had”

“So that’s what you want I see... The bond we had in America. Thanks for clearing that” I forced a smile

“Darn it woman. You need to stop this attitude of yours. No one will want to be with you!”

“And yet some Hallyu star wants the same bond we had in America”

“That’s because I’m a pathetic idiot who loves your crazy”

I could only mockingly scoff. He wants the same bond we had in America?! Nothing more than that?!

I was willing to change myse