It's one week before christmas and someone had this wonderful idea to play the secret santa game with.. everyone. 
So we all gathered in the group room. 
I don't really want to do this because 1. I have to see Jongin. Who I refused to see for the last months.
He tried to call me once but that's all. 2. What if I have to buy a present for HIM? 3. I hate this game.
"Everyone has to write their name on a small paper and put it in this box." , the staff said.
I try to not look at Jongin. Don't look in his direction. Don't look in his direction.
"Now, everyone has to get a paper. I go around and you pull out one." Ye, everyone knows how to do this. -.-
It's my turn. Please don't let it be Jongin.. "Chanyeol" Thank god!

One week later
Today is the 24th and we have to celecrate in the building. 
Tomorrow we can go home to our family. I'm so happy!
I bought a game for Chanyeol. I hope we'll like it.
"Seulgi, your turn." 
"I've got a present for you Chanyeol. Merry christmas!"
"Oh hey thanks! Wah I really like it!" He hugged me and gave me a kiss on my left cheek.
Suddenly someone started coughing. 
As I looked around Jongin and my eyes met. He was the one who was coughing.
I don't have to understand that, do I ?...
"Jongin, it's your turn." 
"Oh uh, yea. This is for you Seulgi."
God why? WHY? Out of all people, why did he have to buy something for me?!?!
I mean he could've change with someone. 
"Merry christmas."
"Uhm thanks." I put a fake smile on.
I decided to open it later.. or never.

The days with my family were great. I missed spending my time with my family. 
For these six days I was able to forget everything that has bothered me.
We have to celebrate new years eve at the building.
I was looking forward to this! I heard it's a big party everyone is having fun at, so I'm really excited.
Today is the 30th and I'm back at our dorm. 
I'm the first of my members even tho it's already 9pm.
The christmas present Jongin gave me is still lying on my bed. Should I open it?
I mean, it's nothing special. I don't think he cared much about what to buy for me. Why should he?
Okay, since I'm still alone and super bored I decided to open it. 

There's a small box. In the box is a bracelet. Omg.. it looks so pretty. Why would he buy this for me?!
It's so so so beautiful! Ohh what should I do?! I can't keep it. I don't need something that let me remember Jongin day for day.
I really like the present though... Oh there is also a smal letter. 

"We try so hard to hide everything we're really feeling from those who probably need to know our true feelings the most.
 The pieces all fit together but everything was falling apart."

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