JESSICA’S POV

I was now in the building of my company; I actually have an office in Seoul now just a month ago. I’m in my office busy thinking of my new design for the winter collection I’ll be launching, I was thinking of launching a coat now because I already launch a scarf before. I was concentrating when my phone beeps indicating I have some texts.

From Tiff

Hey Jessi, where are you? Can we meet up now? Let’s celebrate; we win again tonight on Music Bank so I want to celebrate and drink wine, maybe?

I chuckle on the text but it sound bitter, it hurts to know that they are doing good without me, I know I already accept it but doesn’t mean it wouldn’t hurt, right? It hurts so much knowing that they are receiving so much love and acceptance while me here alone, struggling to be on the stage again.

To Tiff:

I was in my office now; I need to think my next winter collection. Maybe next time!

I put down my phone and about to go back on the paper in front of me when my phone rings.

Tiff calling……

“Hello.”

“Jessi….”

“Tiff…”

“Jessi, please come with us.”

“I can’t Tiff, I am busy.” Am I really?

“Can you do that tomorrow?” She said using aegyo which I hate

“Can’t be Tiff, I have a flight in NY tomorrow.” I said

“Please…pretty pretty please Jessi…” She said in cute voice

“Sica unnie please, can you just celebrate with us. I miss my favorite unnie, don’t you miss your little rascal.” Yoong said with an aegyo also, I am sure she’s pouting

“Us? As in everyone?” I ask them

“Yes Jessi, all of us in the dorm, we told the manager about it already and he said okay but no one should know about it.”

“I’m really sorry guys…I really can’t.” I said, actually I can do this tomorrow but when I confirm that everyone is going to be there, I became a coward. Tiff and Yoong was the only I saw after I parted the group.

“Unnie please. *sob* ”

“Yoong…I really am sorry…”

“But unnie…we’ll help you think of what you’re *sob* doing but please can *sob* you see us even just for minute. *sob*” I know that she was just acting but still I can’t say no

“Jessi please?” Tiff also give me a sob

“Gosh, you two really are annoying. Okay, I’ll come but just for a while okay?” I give up, I’ll just see this two and then talk for some minutes then I’ll leave, I’m not ready to be around them especially her for so long

“YES! Thank you unnie, we’ll wait for you in the parking lot on the basement.” Yoong excitedly said

“I’ll text you when I’m near.” I just said

I hung up the phone and lean in the table with my head down, what mess I’m into. She was there and I’m going to the dorm I use to live in. I need to be strong; I’ll just drop by and then leave after a minute or two. You can do it Sica, fighting!

I clean my table and grab my bag, I can do this. I went to parking lot and drive my car to their dorm. It takes me 20 minutes to be there, and I texted Yoong that I was in the building already and going to the elevator, she said she’ll just wait for me in front of the elevator when I went out, the dorm was on the 8th floor.

 I was fidgeting while I was in the elevator, I can’t believe after almost a year I’ll be back here and going for a celebration of their wins without me. I chuckle bitterly and tried my best to act like I was happy and not in the verge of crying. When the elevator door opens I saw Yoong smiling widely at me with Tiff.

“Hey Jessi.” She hugs me tightly

“Hello Tiff, Hi Yoong.”

“Hello unnie.” It’s her turn to hug me

“Thank you for coming Jessi.”

“How can I’m not when won’t stop bagging me.” I chuckle

They just chuckle and we started to walk, Tiff tap the password when we reach the dorm. We went in and my hands is sweating a lot, maybe Yoong sense it so she held my hands.