Seungho looked over the two men who were sitting on the floor, back against the couch, game controller in hands as the two stared with empty eyes on the screen. They played. But none of them were having fun.

GO didn't cheer if he won. Mir didn't make smart rebellious remark when he won. All they would do was restarting the game or putting a new game in motion. As if they were stuck in a destructive circle.

Seungho waited until he finally saw GO's eyelids were slowly closing. Even Mir started bobbing his head out of drowsiness. The two haven't slept for two whole days, rooting in front of the plasma television, playing games after games.

In just a few minutes, the two finally fall asleep. GO leaning his back over the couch, head tilting upwards as he snored lightly while Mir slumped onto GO's side, his head on GO's shoulder.

Seungho crouched in front of his two members. He reached out and tucked Mir's bleached strands of hair behind the maknae's ears before he slowly shook the maknae awake. He patted Mir's cheek gently.

It wasn't that hard to wake the maknae up since the silver hair boy only had fallen asleep for a few moments. Mir looked around confusedly, mind in tumbled mess due to lack of sleep as Seungho carried GO up onto the long couch, letting the main vocalist sleeping there comfortably.

Finishing that, he pulled the maknae by arms up onto the man's feet and proceeded to pull the youngest to the kitchen. He sat the maknae down. Mir was looking up at him with wide puppy eyes. 

"Cheolyong-ah." He called gently, cupping the maknae's cold cheeks with his hands. "You need to leave."

Mir's eyes which were hazy and heavy with sleepiness were now filled with question.

"Go home. Go back to your family." 

Mir's frown on his face deepened as he slowly pulled his face away, pushing Seungho's hands away from his face. Was Seungho chasing him out of the dorm. But why? What did he do wrong? 

Seeing as how the maknae slowly backed away from him, Seungho grabbed a hold on Mir's shoulder, fixing Mir on his spot. "Listen. Byunghee is depressed. You are depressed. You can't stay here with him. I can't help both of you. Both of you are pulling each other down. I'm afraid that you both will reach that point of no turning back anymore. I can't watch this anymore. You need to leave. Go back to your family. I would have taken Byunghee to his family too if I can. But he has gone too far. Farther than you and I. And we need to fix ourselves first before we can fix him."

Mir blinked as he slowly absorbed all the words that had came out of Seungho's mouth. He looked down. Seungho was right. They were taking this too far. He was slowly detaching from the real world. Running away from problem. And he could also see that GO had gone too far. Maybe... Maybe he really should leave. He needed to find himself back.

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"Cheolyong..." GO called as he wandered through the dorm slowly, eyes traveled on each inch of the space in the dorm. "Cheolyongie?" He spoke a bit louder in hope the maknae could hear him and came to him. But, there was no answer. He had woken up alone on the couch in the living room.

GO's brows slowly met with each other as he padded into Mir's room. Empty. He went to the kitchen. Empty. He went to the bathroom. Still empty.Slowly, his breath deepened and became ragged. His chest heaved up and down as he slowly realized Mir wasn't here. He was alone.

GO's bloodshot eyes were wide as the orbs flickered all over the room. Suddenly the room looked smaller. The wall was moving closer, trapping him. He couldn't breath. His heart was pounding loudly against his ribs. Mir had left. Like Joon and Sanghyun, Mir had left...

"-hee." GO kept blinking and he finally registered the feeling of arms around him and he heard that worried voice. "Byunghee. Come on. Calm down. Now, breath like me. Inhaled... Exhaled..." Seungho tried guiding the man. 

Listening to Seungho, he finally was calm again. And then, he realized he was already on the floor, his back leaned against Seungho. His eyes traveled to the opened front door, a bag of groceries were left there, some of the contents spilled out of the bag. Seungho probably just came back from the store when he saw GO was having panic attack.

"Cheolyong... Left..." His voice was small and child-like, making Seungho's heart clenched. Was GO far too gone already? How can he bring GO back? How can he, when he too was slowly drowning...

"I-I know... I told him to. H-he had too." Seungho replied, but it was like GO couldn't understand him or the slightly younger man was just too far into his own world that he couldn't even hear Seungho's voice.

"Cheolyong left me..."