Seungri lay curled against TOP’s chest and feel his hand touching his hair. He didn’t speak and neither did TOP, because he want to preserve this moment they had.

He love him.

The realisation was overwhelming, terrifying and confusing at the same time. But most of all it was shocking. Shock to learn that he’s capable to have those feeling. He has prepare his mind to live with stranger but soon he realize the stranger was himself. Before this his life was empty but now things were different. TOP had show him the world and taught him everything.

Seungri lift his head and look at TOP, staring at the fierce black eyes and those handsome features. Without speaking TOP lift his hand and push Seungri’s hair from his face. It is impossible not to react under his touch because everything he feel about TOP was out of his control.

Suddenly, there is an emotion stab in his stomach like a solid lump. She feel envy for TOP’s wife. TOP’s must love his wife, they must be happy together. Somehow, guilty feeling was overwhelm him, he didn’t know whether he should feel that way to someone already dead. He feel sorry. Sorry for the part of his family contribute to TOP’s misery.

He don’t know anything about love. He often read book or poem about heartbreak but he can’t feel connected to the author’s pain. He do believe in love, but it’s not for him and never expect to experience the reality.

Now he had experience it. He feel the pain in his chest increasing.

TOP pull him closer and cover them with the silk blanket. ‘That was amazing.’ He said as he kiss Seungri’s forehead.

Seungri stay silent because he had no idea what to say.

When he proposed to marry TOP, he had prepare to live in a loveless marriage. He never think of any other ways, because he believe love only existed for people who capable to have that feeling. The only thing he want was protection and respect. He had ignore the impact of ual attraction and the power of love.

But now he know both.

And he know love hurt.

I'm glad ya'll like previous chapterXDDbtw do you think its to soon for Seungri to fall in love??