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double update!

JESSICA’S POV

This became good day because I was with Steph the whole day, she never left me. And I was happy because I know I love her, even I don’t know what I still feel for my ex but still I know my feelings for Steph doesn’t change. When reach the dorm my sister told us that we need to talk, me, her, Seung ah and H. Also Sunny told us that they need to talk about Seo and I ask them what it is.

“I’m the one you saw with Hara that day; I’m her fiancé to be exact.”-Seo, I look at H to have a confirmation but I saw her looking on my hand intertwine with Steph and her eyes is showing pain, she was hurting

“So we need to go first, sis let’s talk in your room.” Krystal suddenly talks to ease the awkwardness

Krystal drags me to my room with the two.

“Let’s settle this once and for all, for the sake of our friendship, Jess I saw how hurt you are, I’m the witness of everything remember? But now that we know Hara’s reason we also learned that she was hurt also so please talk this out and save what can be save, if the relationship can’t work anymore can we all just save even the friendship. I don’t want to see my sister and best friend not okay.” Krystal said

“Krystal was right, Hara and Sica we known each other for so long and we’re friends since before so please don’t waste it.” Seung ah

“J, I’m sorry, I know I was wrong but I don’t have a choice before I don’t want to be away from you. Please understand my situation.” H said and she was near in tearing

“Understand? Okay, I will but you also have to understand that I was hurt, and now it hurt more not because my feelings are still the same but because you didn’t trust me. If you just trust me and told me about Uncle told you, that he’ll bring you to the France and not break up with me and ask to be my friend still. That’s BULL H.” I shout the last word I said because my emotion is heighten

“Sis, please calm down.” Krystal

“Calm down? How can I calm down in this kind of situation? I was okay Krys, I was okay now, but why did it have to be like this?” I can’t prevent my tears to fall and my sister hugs me

“J, I know I made a mistake, I know I hurt you so much, I know it, that’s why I’m here to make it right. It’s not because I didn’t trust you, but I know Dad, he’ll really bring me to the France if I disobey him.”

“It was given already H, but did you not know me? I will follow you even in the end of the world if he’d do that because I love you. I will not just sit there and do nothing.” I wipe my tears and look at her

“That’s why I’m here now J, following you ‘coz I love you so damn much.” The look in her eyes was the look in my eyes before, pure hurt

“It’s too late now H, I love Steph.” I didn’t know why I told her that to assure her that it was too late or to assure myself that it was indeed too late.

“B-but….D-don’t y-you l-love me anymore?” She was stuttering and starts to cry

“I don’t know, because right now I was really confused of what I feel for you.”

“So it means I still have hoped that you’ll still love me?”

“I love Steph H; I don’t want to hurt her because of our mess.”

“But I love you too, how about what I feel?” She was crying there and Seung ah is comforting her

“H, give me time to think it over, my feelings. But I want to be honest to you, I love Steph, that’s for sure.”

“---------“ She didn’t talk, I was hurt also because I was hurting her but I really don’t what to do now, she then hug me from behind

“----------“ I didn’t back away and just let her, I put my hands on her hands, I miss this. I miss her actually.

“I know I may be late to get you back now but if you realize that you’ll choose her over me please let me still love you even from afar.” I felt my clothes get wet in the back and her shoulder was shaking she was bursting into cry, I turn around and hug her tightly

“Shhhh….Stop crying H, I’m sorry I was hurting you.”

“It was my fault anyway I was hurting now.”

“Stop crying please, you know I don’t want to see you cry, right?” I was patting her back to ease her pain that I know I cause

“Sorry to cause trouble J, I’ll go to my room now.” She back away and wipes her tears

“Are you okay?” I ask her

“No, but I won’t burden to you anymore so don’t worry about me, even I was not okay I will try to be okay.” She was smiling at me but a sad one

“Are you two is in our dorm also?”

“Yes, Krystal talk to the dorm head and also your friends to let us be