Let her go
One for me
3 months had passed, I didn’t spend most of my time with Onew, well I had a lot of friends in our class, yes I’m still talking to him but not the same as before. I guess he finally realized the things I told him.
Onew and Jessica unnie are now officially in a relationship. I know they are happy now, I’m glad for them especially to Onew the girl of his dreams is now his girlfriend, he can never ask for more.
Yes it hurts in my part, it’s not easy for me to move, because he’s the only guy that I’ve loved. But I’m still in the process of forgetting my feelings for him and find someone who will love me.
It’s almost dismissal time, our professor is absent, so we just had a seatwork
“yeobo ah~” I heard Jessica calling onew.
“ne?” he asked
“hmm.. why you look so sad?” she asked
“nothing… don’t mind me” he said
“are you not happy with me?” she asked
“of course not” he answered and hugged her
I saw it with my two eyes, and it’s freaking killing me, my heart? Do I still have it?
I know I don’t have the right to get jealous he’s not even mine.
“you two should get a room” I said with a smile and I sat on my desk
“haha dongsaeng ah~” Jessica unnie said
“I’m just kidding don’t take it seriously” I said.
Onew released from hugging, maybe because of shyness.
I’m done with my seatwork and I can go home already.
I fix my things and get my bag from my chair.
“bye guys!” I just said and step out of the room.
“anna!” onew called me.
I look back “wae?” i asked him.
"you forgot your scratch paperps folder" he said
"oh thank you" i said "bye" i said with a smile, then i walk again
"wait" he said "can i talk to you for a minute?" he asked
"oh sure, well i have to say something to you too" i said
then he walk towards me, he's a few inches away from me, i can smell him, i miss that good smell, and probably i'll miss that even MORE
"uhm... you first" he said
"i wasn't able to tell you last week that me, mom and dad we will move to new york tomorrow." i said
"but w...why?" he immediately asked me.
"ahm.. they already know what i really want to do, you know what i've always wanted right?" i explained
"but why not here? why...... not with me? why not with us?" he asked
"there will be more opportunities for me in new york, i've always wanted to be a popular fashion designer you know that right?" i explained
"but... isn't new york to far?" he asked
"yes it is, but i won't forget you, well we will be back after a few years maybe" i said
"but......" he started crying
"onew ssi~ why are you crying?" i can't hide my tears anymore it started running down my face. he wiped my tears
"anna....." he can't say his words anymore
"don't worry we'll be back soon ok? and just take care of jessica unnie" i try to calm him with my words. i wiped his tears
he was just crying, the last time i saw him crying this much is when his parents leave them to work abroad it was a very long time ago.
i leave him crying.... i can't see him crying... its breaking my heart...
all night long i was just crying i never stop crying... until it put me to sleep.
saturday morning we have to leave korea
i have to leave all the good memories i shared with him.... my BEST friend...
Onew's POV
i saw anna's scratch papers folder at the floor, she's busy chatting with our classmates, so i decided to pick it up... i never saw it contents before, why does she called it 'scratch papers folder' i saw a piece of paper it was almost falling so i decided to put it back, but a colorful heart caught my attention, the heart is so pretty.... and i read what is the word inside it... my name is on it... lee jinki and her name anna choi - lee... it surprises me....
she actually feel the same way about me... i looked at her, she's still the anna i knew before.. her smiles is so charming... her laugh is the best sound i've ever heard in my entire life. the way she moves is so simple, the way she acts i love Anna.. but i never told her.
but how can i confess to her now? when i already have a girlfriend?
jessica noona breaks the thoughts running on my mind.
“yeobo ah~” jessica noona said.
“ne?” i asked her
“hmm.. why you look so sad?” she asked
“nothing… don’t mind me” i answered
“are you not happy with me?” she asked again
“of course not” i just answered and hugged jessica unnie, i wanted to make her jealous, on how she will react on what i'm doing
“you two should get a room” anna said as she walks towards us
“haha dongsaeng ah~” Jessica noona said
“I’m just kidding don’t take it seriously” anna said.
i realeased from hugging, why is she like that? she didn't even stared at me with anger?
she fixed her things
“bye guys!” she just said and step out of our room.
“anna!” i called her
she look back “wae?” she asked me.
"you forgot your scratch paperps folder" i said.
"oh thank you" she said "bye" she said with her beautiful smile and started walking again
"wait" he said "can i talk to you for a minute?" i asked her
"oh sure, well i have to say something to you too" she said
i walk towards her i'm a few inches away from her. she really has the prettiest smile.
"uhm... you first" i said
"i wasn't able to tell you last week that me, mom and dad we will move to new york tomorrow." she said
i don't know what to say
"but w...why?" i asked him.
"ahm.. they already know what i really want to do, you know what i've always wanted right?" she explained
"but why not here? why...... not with me? why not with us?" i asked her
"there will be more opportunities for me in new york, i've always wanted to be a popular fashion designer you know that right?" she explained
"but... isn't new york to far?" i asked
"yes it is, but i won't forget you, well we will be back after a few years maybe" she said
"but......" i started crying... tears just fall into my eyes
why is this happening to both of us? i was about to tell her that i love her since then, but how can i now? when better opportunities will come to her life, and when i know i had broke her heart when i tell her that i love jessica unnie... i just thought she doesn't love me, she just treating me as her bestfriend, i thought she loves donghae hyung.
"onew ssi~ why are you crying?" she started crying too.. i wiped her tears, i don't wanna see her crying.
"anna....." i can't say anything anymore.. i really don't know what to do... am i going to tell her that i love her? i want her to make her dreams come true
"don't worry we'll be back soon ok? and just take care of jessica unnie" she tried to calm me with her words. she wiped my tears away.
then she leaved me standing here.... i want to stop her... but i just can't
i was so out of my mind... i can't stop thinking about her...
and how about jessica unnie? i'm so bad that i only used her, coz i thought anna and hyung love each other... they we're so close... and when anna is with hyung she's almost forgetting about me. but i was so wrong...
-end of Onew's pov-
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