Jinyoung and Mark busy with their practice, they prepared for upcoming competition and both unable to spend time together. It has been a few month since they date each other and Jinyoung start to accept Mark feeling and discover his own love. Mark and Jackson practice at their school, while Jinyoung was send to LA with Jaebum and Yugyeom for two weeks. Mark want Jinyoung to visit his parent but seem like the younger not have enough time to do it, so Mark’s parent come to visit Jinyoung at his studio.

“Jinyoung-ah, someone come to visit you.” The choreographer shout when Mark’s parent come to meet Mark friends.

“Ah…” Jinyoung, Jaebum and Yugyeom bowed when they saw Mark’s parent.

“Aigoo, such a well manner boy.” Mr. Tuan patted Jinyoung head and he knows something happen between Mark and Jinyoung.

“Sorry, I should be the one who visit you first.” Jinyoung smile and Mrs. Tuan hugged him.

“Now, I know why Mark so in love with you.” Mrs. Tuan caress Jinyoung face.

“Did you all have your lunch? I bring so many food since Mark said Yugyeom love eating.” Mrs. Tuan help her husband and open the lunch boxes.

“Mama, so many food. It must be hard for you, we will eat well.” Jaebum thankful to Mark’s parent.

“No it okay, papa help me a lot. Jinyoung, do you have sometime?” Jinyoung nodded and he followed Mark parent.

They reach at Chinese Restaurant and Mark’s parent sat on their booking table.

“Jinyoung-ah, how are you?” Mr. Tuan asked.

“Erm… I’m good since today my last day here.” Jinyoung smile.

“Jinyoung-ah, both of us have something to ask you and we know you can help us.” Mrs. Tuan look at Jinyoung and Jinyoung gulps the water vastly.

 “It about your relationship.” Mr. Tuan start and from that moment Jinyoung just silent and listen.

                Jinyoung back to his dorm and he look at his luggage, seem like he has another thing to accomplished not just his dance competition. Jaebum look at Jinyoung, who seem like lost in his thought since meeting Mark’s parent. He wonder what they talked about, that make Jinyoung like wondering in his own world. Yugyeom signal to Jaebum to ask and suddenly Jinyoung stand and leave the two.

“Jaebum-hyung, you should ask him.” Yugyeom mumbled and frowned.

“Yah, I know him for years and this not the right time to ask.” Jaebum know Jinyoung was someone that keep everything bottle up inside him.

“That the only thing I hate about him, able to keep everything inside alone.” Yugyeom hate Jinyoung who always hurt himself even though he can get them to help him.

                The plane reach Seoul and as expected, their teacher bring their friends to welcome them. Bambam just happy to spend a little times out with Jackson since the older always busy practicing and Youngjae of cause waiting for his lover, same reason with Mark. While Jackson just there waiting for Jinyoung that he realised he miss the most this two weeks.

“Jinyoungie…!!!” Mark shouted when he saw Jinyoung come out from the gate and Jinyoung did the same hugging Mark equally tight.

“Do you miss me?” Mark asked and gave a little pecked.

“I miss you.” Jinyoung miss Mark and he then look at the back, Jackson was there look over him.

“So, how was your training?” Mark snapped Jinyoung with his question.

“Ah…great and I think we can win this round.” Jinyoung smile at Mark but his mind was think about Jackson.

“Did you meet Mama and Papa? They treat you well right?” Mark asked and Jinyoung smile before slowly nodded.

All of them back to school in one car, Yugyeom become a storyteller while Jaebum busy sleeping on his lover laps and Mark sleep on Jinyoung shoulder. Jinyoung look at the back mirror and he saw Bambam and Yugyeom in their own story time, while Jackson just look far outside the window. Jinyoung took his phone and look at Mark who sleep soundly. He type a message.

To: Frog WangJaNim

Jackson, you look super terrible now and I bet Mark always beat you in practice game, right! hahahaha… If you come to picked me with that kind of face, better sleep at your room since it annoyed me!

Jackson received the message and he glare at Jinyoung.

To: Worm JuNiPark

Shut up and listen! I not picked you up and I was force to come. I come for Jaebum not for you and don’t think yourself too high just because I kiss you twice! :p Merong!

Jinyoung almost turn back, but he remember Mark on his shoulder.

To: Frog WangJaNim

Yah! It not even count as kiss and I have delete it from my mind! It disgusting… *puke*

Jackson was smiling when he received the message.

To: Worm JuNiPark

But you enjoy both of the kiss and you miss me a lot right? I miss you too.

Jinyoung smile when he received the message, without Mark and Bambam aware Jinyoung and Jackson casually exchange text message. It sometime like an enemy, sometime like friend and the most unacceptable sometime likes lover. It start when one day Jackson cannot handle seeing Mark come to their class and flirt with Jinyoung. After their class end, Jackson text Jinyoung to stay back so Jinyoung did stay back to face Jackson after they pretend to be good but not at all. Jinyoung lied to Mark that he has to go to library for his project while Jackson lied to Bambam that he has to meet with his math teacher. Jackson and Jinyoung stay in their class, locked.

“So what is it Jackson?” Jinyoung look at Jackson eyes.

“Are sure you love Mark?” Jackson asked and Jinyoung nodded.

“I love him and I know I still try to forget you.” Jinyoung admit his heart still have a feeling for Jackson.

“No need to forget me, let date.” Jackson hold Jinyoung hand.

“Are you crazy Jackson?” Jinyoung pull his hand.

“No I’m not and let date, I mean just date in secret! I cannot forget about you.” Jackson admit, it have been almost 2 years he dating Bambam, but he still have his feeling on Jinyoung.

 “Jackson, I would not hurt both of them.” Jinyoung want to leave the class but Jackson back hugged him.

“Please Jinyoung, help me confirm my feeling and I will help you too. It hard to love both of you at the same time look at how you being lovely to Mark.” Jackson tighten his hugged and Jinyoung sighed.

“I was being adapt to this feeling almost 2 years Jackson, it good that I know the painful feeling now happen to you.” Jinyoung turn his body and face Jackson.

“Jinyoung-ah, I’m not asking you to leave Mark but just be my secret boyfriend, please. I love you.” Jackson touch Jinyoung hair and down to Jinyoung face and lips.

“Let just keep in touch with texting, I only be there when you need me not more as your secret buddies.” Jinyoung pushed Jackson hand and unlocked the door.

Jinyoung never expect their text message become more and more comforting. Jinyoung need Jackson now but him also aware Mark was the one he love. They reach school and Jinyoung woke Mark up. Mark gave a goodnight kiss to Jinyoung, knowing his lover tired after long flight. Jaebum was deep in sleep after he was laying on his bed while Jinyoung type his message to Jackson.

To : Frog WangJaNim

Can we meet for a while?

Jackson look at Mark who still play with his ipad, so he went out and reply to Jinyoung.

To: Worm JuNiPark

Your lover still awake, meet me at rooftop.

Jinyoung saw Jackson was cuddle himself so he stand beside him. Jackson casually wrapped his armed round Jinyoung waist and let the heat warm them.

“What happen?” Jackson whispered into Jinyoung ears while smell the younger fragrance.

“Mark’s hyung parent want me to break up with him.” Jinyoung smile but Jackson can feel a dropped of water on his hand. He release the hugged and turn Jinyoung to face him.

“So, you think about letting him go right?” Jackson angry, Jinyoung knew it.

“They are his parent and what they want was the best for their son.” Jinyoung broke into tears and Jackson hugged him.

“I really hate this side of you!” Jackson love Jinyoung, but his feeling not as big as he first agree for this secret relationship.

“I hate myself too.” Jinyoung cried and he miss Mark so much but what can he do, his parent word haunting him since the day they asked for Jinyoung understanding.

“How can I help you?” Jackson asked and Jinyoung start his planned.

Jackson listen to Jinyoung planned but he know it will just hurt Jinyoung.

“This is not right, you will be the one who get hurt and Mark definitely hate you.” Jackson knows Mark well if someone mess with him no way he will forgive him.

“Jackson, that is why I do this and since it will somehow hurt Bambam, please be there for him!” Jinyoung smile.

“Just do your best for tomorrow competition first, and I hope you can reach your dream!” Jackson was grateful that he once love Jinyoung and blessed for being his friend.

                Jinyoung, follow Jackson to his room and Mark was deep in sleep. Jackson give a signed he will sleep with Bambam and left Jinyoung cuddle Mark. Jinyoung will have a big competition tomorrow and he actually accept a scholarship to go to New York right away after the competition. He miss Mark, he want to reject the offered at first but Mark parent wish come first not his heart. Jinyoung kiss Mark lips and sleep beside the older, he left the room early do not want to make Mark doubt him.

“Why I feel like I sleep with Jinyoung?” Mark woke up with mixed feeling and he did feel Jinyoung kiss him. Mark turn and he saw Jinyoung book beside his pillow, ‘ah…isn’t this Jinyoung’ Mark open the diaries page by page.

He smile when he read about Jinyoung feeling for him until he read the few last page.

Park Jinyoung Diaries 20,

                Yey, Happy 5 months fake anniversary Jinyoung! Mark call me from Seoul and he said he miss me, God how can I be so good in pretending. He asked me to meet his parent, but I was too busy and I actually not really care. The feeling I have to Mark hyung not really truth, at first I just want to feel what is love but my love still Jackson not Mark hyung.

Mark hyung, sorry I lied.

Park Jinyoung Diaries 21,

                God, I met Mark hyung parent and they accept me to come as their family member. Mark hyung you have a great parent. I love Jackson, Mama Papa! However, it okay he can be my number 2. Jaebum hyung and Yugyeom might found out my worries since both of them just silent when I comeback but I will never told them.

Oh my heart, I miss Jackson so much. Seoul come to me!

                Mark wonder who put the diaries next to him, but what make Mark shocked thousand notification from his facebook. An anonymous people upload the two part of Jinyoung diaries and many of his friend tagged him. Mark was confused, how stupid he was to complete believe Jinyoung change his heart to him. Mark look at the comment and some of them upload a photo of Jinyoung as a and some said if he come near Mark, they would kill him. As much as people mention Mark, so did Bambam and he was ready to face Jinyoung.

“Jinyoung-hyung…” Bambam shouted from the outside of Jinyoung room.

“Bambam, My dongsaeng!” Jinyoung want to hug Bambam but he received a slap in front of Mark who also there.

“How can you do this to me hyung? I love you but you try to get Jackson. Someone told me you meet him at rooftop last night, isn’t it?” Bambam and Mark hoping for the same answer, which is ‘No’, but Jinyoung just silently nodded and Mark sighed.

“If you still love him why you need to use me Jinyoung?” Mark hold the younger collar and shakes him.

“Because it easy to make Jackson look at me but what can I do he love Bambam so much.” Jinyoung lied and holding his painful and broken heart to hug Mark.

“I hate you Jinyoung.” Mark throw the diaries to Jinyoung chest and left.

“Don’t call me friend anymore it disgusting!” Bambam also left but someone stay beside Jinyoung.

“Happy?” Jaebum dragged Jinyoung inside.

“Hyung…” Jinyoung cried on Jaebum shoulder the one who he trust the most.

“Take care when you stay there and call me always. Now let enjoyed our last day to perform together.” Jaebum and Jinyoung packed for their competition.

The competition ended well and Jinyoung leave to New York, leaving the school gossip about Jinyoung dropped out because he lost his face and Jackson actually reject him that night before competition and many others rumors. As Jackson promise to Jinyoung, he stay beside Bambam even sometime Bambam subconsciously call Jinyoung name. Mark was living his life as an ordinary popular student. The real stories remain inside Jackson and Jaebum heart, not until one day Jaebum got a call that Jinyoung was collapses when he dance and the thought of Jinyoung alone in New York make him want to shout to Mark, Jinyoung miss him a lot.

Park Jinyoung Diaries 23,

                Ah… I was in New York. The place that I dream and I want to stay. I am happy but what the point, I was totally miss Mark hyung. He must be suffering a lot right? It has been a month and I keep on dancing since if not I will keep on think about him. I never fail to ask Jaebum hyung to look after Mark. I miss him so so so much! Can you send me to him in my dream? I do not know missing someone can be this hard.

Park Jinyoung, keep dancing it the only way to forget how much you miss him!

don't know what happen to me! this chapter not good!! otthokae... <3 sorry all readernim... please forgive me!