Jackson open his room and he saw Mark on his bed, he change his clothes and ready to bed. Mark as usual less talked but Jackson knew there was something in Mark head. The way Mark just stare at the plain ceiling and not even greet him, Jackson know the older thinking about something. Mark sat on his bed and look at Jackson, he just stare at Jackson who took off his shirt.

“Jackson, you carry Jinyoung just now just because you want to help right?” Mark biting his lips and frown.

“Hmm… and a little guilty for my fault.” Jackson told Mark the truth even maybe half-truth.

“I don’t know what this feeling is but my heart feel hurt when you carry him.” Mark grabbed his left chest and sighed.

“It called jealous Mark, how can you date so people but never felt that.” Jackson laying down on his bed and turn off his bed light.

“You know I never have serious relationship and I date them just to enjoy my young life.” Mark lay down too.

“So, did Jinyoung different? I thought you want to play with him too.” Jackson took a deep breath and closed his eyes.

“I don’t know Jinyoung seem like a never ending story, he hard to please and hard to read.” Mark remember how Jinyoung acted in every action he makes. If in his previous relationship, he will be the one who get a kiss but now, he was the one who initiate the kiss.

“He was charming in his own way.” Jackson comment and Mark just nodded before both of them land to dreamland.

                Jinyoung read his book while Jaebum took shower, when Jaebum finished shower he come to sit at Jinyoung bed and took the younger book from his hand. Jinyoung look at Jaebum who just smile and Jinyoung took the towel wipe Jaebum face.

“What you want to ask hyung?” Jinyoung put a pillow behind his back and sat facing Jinyoung.

“How’s your knee?” Jaebum pointed at the younger knee.

“argh… not much hurt anymore. I think it will be okay tomorrow.” Jinyoung shows it to Jaebum while the older caress his hair.

“It Jackson right, who did this to you? That’s why he just carry you without words.” Jaebum guessed and he saw the younger just look down before slowly nodded.

“I know you happy he carried you, but can you forget this useless feeling. You know he has Bambam and he love Bambam so much. I hate to see you being hurt every time you look at him. I know Mark was playboy but he might been able to change your heart.” Jaebum just hold Jinyoung shoulder who start sobbing.

“I know and I want to let him go too, but every times I made a decision to forget, he always there teasing me.” Jinyoung look at Jaebum.

“I know it hard, but from now take a chance to ignore him. He will not talk to you for a while I guess.” Jaebum knew Jackson would distance himself from Jinyoung too just like before when Jackson accidently push Jinyoung inside pool and he almost drowned. It took two weeks for Jackson to annoy Jinyoung back, it just after Jinyoung said he not hold grudge on him.

“Thanks hyung.” Jinyoung hugged Jaebum and Jaebum patted the younger back. He love Jinyoung and he do not want Jinyoung to get hurt.

                Early morning of first weekend of official Mark and Jinyoung couple and now, the whole school know about them and they will look at window every time Mark help Jinyoung to walk for the past few days. Jinyoung knows many heart breaks because of Mark date him but the way Mark care for him just made him forget how not to be happy.

“Jinyoungie…” Jinyoung open his door and he saw Mark with sport attire.

“Mark hyung, why you here so early? Jaebum hyung not even woke up yet.” Jinyoung gave way for Mark to enter his room.

“I want to jog with you, this my first weekend activities with my bae.” Mark sat on Jinyoung bed while the younger still digest Mark intention in front of him.

“Hyung, my knee just heal and now you want me to jog? You know I hate sport.” Jinyoung whining before sat and tried to sleep back.

“No…no…no… can you at least listen to your lover once. Sport is good for health and come on get your up.” Mark dragged Jinyoung to his cupboard and opened it. Mark was awe with how clean and neat Jinyoung closet.

“Hyung, this is my privacy.” Jinyoung tried to cover his blushing face when he saw Mark smile look at his closet.

“Wow, fashion conscious.” Mark open Jinyoung drawer and he look at Jinyoung who have many pattern.

“Hyung… okay..okay stop it. I will change now. Wait me at assembly field give me 10 minute.” Jinyoung pushed Mark out from his room and Mark just laughed at how cute Jinyoung embarrassed.

“Aish, that hyung.” Jinyoung patted his hot and blushed cheek.

“You never being embarrassed like that when I open your closet. It make me jealous.” Jaebum comments from his bed.

“Hyung, you woke up! You should say it. Argh… this so embarrassing. ” Jinyoung shout before left to bathroom with his sport apparel.

                Mark singing while waiting for Jinyoung, he love to see how Jinyoung embarrassed at whatever he try to discover about the younger life. Jinyoung not like his previous girlfriend and boyfriend, he not even once said he love Mark and they mostly just like a best friend. Mark also do not know if he fall in love with Jinyoung, but the younger just like a magnet that he miss him. He want to be with Jinyoung always and that what he know. Jackson on the other hand, stop involved between them or the fact he start to draw distance from Jinyoung.

“Hyung, I’m ready!” Jinyoung whisper at Mark ears when he saw Mark seem like he have morning thought.

“You look good with sport clothes.” Mark stand and he look at Jinyoung up and down.

“Stop staring and let jog.” Jinyoung wanted to walk but Mark grabbed his waist.

“I don’t know what kind of relationship we are in now but I just like to spend time with you.” Mark look at Jinyoung and it make the younger heartbeat fast.

“Sweet talker.” Jinyoung pushed Mark hand and hurried jog.

“Hey, wait.” Mark chuckle and tease Jinyoung who embarrassed.

                Without aware of a pair of eyes look at them from the balcony, the two so called hot love bird jogged outside their school. That person heart felt hurt and he miss to see that smile on Jinyoung face. Jinyoung was his first love but he do not know how to confess, so the only way he did was making him pissed off and angry. He remember that day, the day he saw Jinyoung walked with Jaebum during their orientation day. Jinyoung was smiling at him but that the only time he saw that smile. The rest of the time spend with Jinyoung will always end up the younger hit him or they yelling each other.

“Hyung, let go!” Bambam back hugged his boyfriend and Jackson turn to face him.

“Let go.” Jackson hold Bambam hand, he hope he can forget his unrequited love.

“Hyung, where Mark hyung?” Bambam look if he miss the older.

“He went with Jinyoung.” Jackson just barely said it.

“Oh… Jinyoung-hyung, daebak he was the lazy one.” Bambam not believe the couple able to share each other hobbies.

“Yes, Mark did change that lazy bear.” Jackson and Bambam start to jog follow the same path as Jinyoung and Mark just now.

                Half way to the rest stop, Jackson and Bambam stop when they saw Mark look like talking to someone behind the tree. Bambam laugh when he saw Jinyoung was pouting beside the tree and Mark was laughing and the younger hair.

“Jinyoung-hyung…!!!” Bambam shouted and run toward the two.

“Oh.. Bammie, you jog alone?” Jinyoung asked since he did not saw Jackson who blocked from the tree.

“Of course not, Jackson was here too!” Bambam dragged Jackson and it first time Jinyoung and Jackson meet each other eyes after the incident.

“Hi…” Jackson greet awkwardly.

“Oh.. hi…” Jinyoung answer awkwardly too. They run together to the peaked and sat on the grass viewing their school from the uphill.

“You like it.” Mark asked Jinyoung who mesmerised by the morning sunrise.

“Hmmm… thanks for bring me here.” Jinyoung smile and Mark peck the younger lips.

“That count as four.” Jinyoung said and he rest his head on Mark. Maybe gave Mark a chance not a bad idea and the older can always made him smile and see a different thing.

 “Bambam I will go to bathroom for a while.” Jackson left the three and brought his pain heart after saw Jinyoung lovely face.

Not long after Jackson left, Jinyoung felt an urge to go to washroom so he left Mark and Bambam.

“Jackson…” Jinyoung met Jackson on his way to bathroom and he just walked inside do his business. When he want to leave, he saw Jackson still stand waiting for him.

“Jinyoung, are you happy with Mark?” Jackson hold Jinyoung arm bring him to face him.

“It not your business, it my own problem.” Jinyoung push Jackson hand but Jackson quickly dragged the younger outside, opposite where Bambam and Mark sat.

“You really something Park Jinyoung!” Jackson let go of Jinyoung hand after he confident Mark and Bambam unable to find them.

“Do I ever asked either you happy with Bambam, no right? So, what is the point to answer that stupid question, Jackson?” Jinyoung want to leave he hate being alone with Jackson since he will love him again.

“Why you never talked to me like that? Why we always fight Jinyoung?” Jackson think that the most stupid confession and Jinyoung stop walking.

“Because I love you… I love you so much Jackson and it hurt me to see you with Bambam. It hurt me to see you caring and make out with him. Now, I want to let that feeling left behind and look at someone who care for me.” Jinyoung turn and face Jackson who look surprised but he never expect Jackson will step forward and kiss him.

“Yahhh….” Jinyoung push Jackson away. Jinyoung wiped his lips, that the same kiss he received before, the kiss that make them enemy.

“I’m sorry.” Jackson just looked at Jinyoung who run away and cried.

                Jackson back to Mark and Bambam who took a napped on the grass, he look at his bestfriend and his boyfriend. He betrayed both of them just because he want to be the one who win Jinyoung heart. He love Bambam but he still have a little feeling toward Jinyoung and he felt hurt when Jinyoung date Mark not him. Jackson woke them up and lied to Mark that Jinyoung leave saying he got dance practice.

“He should wake me up.” Mark disappointed.

“Let go, we have basketball practice today.” Jackson hugged Mark shoulder.

They reached their hostel but Mark stopped from enter his room, when he saw Jinyoung sat on bench near the lake in front of their hostel.

“I need to go somewhere, see you at basketball court.” Mark run and he left Jackson who just watched where Mark look and he saw Jinyoung, he sighed.

                Jinyoung cried, he had enough and he did not want to be stupid person anymore. He hit his left chest, it hurt really hurt just like his first kiss. During his first year, Jinyoung left alone with Jackson in their orientation night. The senior put them in pairing to walk in the dark to test their passion. That night, Jackson led the way and they was holding hand. Jinyoung just felt the warm of Jackson hand and he love it. Suddenly, Jinyoung trip and Jackson fall above him and they kiss each other. Jackson not pull away but he hold Jinyoung hand and kiss him passionately and they kiss for a few minute until Jackson pull away and Jinyoung open his eyes.

“Wow, that your first kiss right?” Jackson laughed and Jinyoung remember how he introduce himself in class.

“You .” Jinyoung push Jackson and he cried.

“Hey, I just give you some honour.” Jackson shout but Jinyoung just lost in the dark.

Mark saw Jinyoung cried, he already know the reason. Jinyoung might fight with Jackson just now and he end up left.

“Babe, are you okay?” Mark stand in front of Jinyoung.

“Can you hug me?” Jinyoung come into Mark arm when Mark open his arm.

“I hate him.” Jinyoung said and that enough to make Mark know Jinyoung love Jackson.

“It okay, you can cry since I will never let you cry because of him anymore.” Mark determine, he not just want to know Jinyoung. He already deep in love with the younger and he will fight for it.

“Thanks Mark, hyung.” Jinyoung pull away and he look at Mark. That man in front of him so handsome and anyone will easily fall in love with him. Jinyoung hugged Mark again and he chuckled think about Mark was in his arm.

“Thanks for teach me about love, Jinyoung.” Mark caress the younger hair and he feel Jinyoung tighten the hugged.

“I will try to love you, hyung.” Jinyoung pull away and for the first time he was the one who kiss Mark.

                That afternoon, all of them busy with dance and basketball practice. Night come and they met during dinner, Mark being clingy and dragged Jinyoung to another table far from the five. Jackson on the other hand just able to look at Jinyoung from far. Jackson just play with his food and he pissed off with Mark during their basketball practice. Mark always make 3-point shot and challenge Jackson to chase his team pointed. The word that Mark said when he win the practice game still lingered in his mind.

“Don’t hurt people who love you because it not easy to be love again. Don’t be greedy, choose someone you really love.” Mark patted Jackson shoulder before left with sarcastic smile.

“Hyung, what in your mind? You not even eat your favourite meat.” Bambam asked and that made Jaebum look up and he saw Jackson eyes stare at Jinyoung and Mark.

                Mark being super clingy to Jinyoung, Jinyoung just laughed at Mark who asked to feed him. Mark so happy when Jinyoung kiss him this morning, it give him hope and he love Jinyoung open his heart to him. Mark stare at Jinyoung, he has perfect feature, his full lips and wrinkle eyes smile just beat all his previous boyfriend and girlfriend.

“Hyung, can you just eat yourself and stop that scary stare.” Jinyoung blushed.

“Nope, I miss you so much this afternoon and I’m so happy to be able to see you now.” Mark open his mouth while Jinyoung fed him.

“Really? The popular Mark Tuan miss me?” Jinyoung pinched Mark cheek and Mark shout painfully.

“That hurt babe. Of course I miss you, how dare you give me a very quick peck this morning without make any long one after that.” Mark pouted and Jinyoung giggled.

“What is the long one?” Jinyoung asked like he don’t know the meaning.

“Aish…annoying boyfie…” Mark voice heard by the whole café and he stand up. Many eyes on him as usual the popular one, he leave Jinyoung.

“Yah…” Jinyoung shouted look at Mark who stop and now walked toward him.

“Woooooooo….” The whole student wait for Mark Tuan action to Jinyoung.

“This is long one…” Mark hand one at the back of Jinyoung head and another one around his waist, he gave Jinyoung a passionate kiss that made the whole café surprise including their friends.

“Wow… that hot.” Jaebum turn his face unable to face his beloved brother kiss in public.

“Love you.” Youngjae pecked Jaebum lips.

“Love you.” Bambam kiss Jackson and Jackson shocked.

“Erm… love you..” Yugyeom get a kiss from someone who sat beside him.

The whole cafeteria fill with love confession. Jinyoung now hugging Mark tightly, he feel so happy and bless. Mark hold his hand along the way to his room, Jinyoung heart yet to fully forget Jackson but he know he start to accept Mark. Mark was more affectionate and unpredictable. He can do something out of Jinyoung thought.

“How was today date?” Mark asked when they reach in front of Jinyoung room.

“Hard to date someone popular, every eyes on you.” Jinyoung smile while Mark hugged his waist.

“Babe, I want to always love you like this. Forgive me if I make it hard to you since it my first time to fall in love.” Jinyoung nodded and understood Mark sincere heart.

“Goodnight, get a nice bath and rest. Tomorrow I don’t have practice, so I will cheer you at court.” Jinyoung look into Mark eyes.

“Jackson was there, will you be okay?” Mark worried if Jinyoung will get hurt.

“I’m use to get hurt but this time it different, it you Mark Tuan not Jackson.” Jinyoung kiss Mark cheek and run to enter his room.

“Yah, it cheat!” Mark knocked Jinyoung door since the younger locked it.

“Goodnight, hyung. See you tomorrow!” Jinyoung shouted from his room.

“Goodnight, babe. I love you!” Mark hope Jinyoung can reply but as expected the younger yet to love him.

Jinyoung giggled when he heard the sound of Mark left. ‘Thanks’ Jinyoung muttered.

Park Jinyoung Diary 3:

                It very hectic day, I cried and laughed. Mark hyung know about my love toward Jackson and he said he understand me. I confess to Jackson today and I do not know what he thought for kiss me. It not funny at all and I was hurt for 2^nd times. I was shocked with every action from Mark hyung, he unpredictable, he surely an alien. Kkkk. His popularity was scary, kiss me can become a kissing event at cafeteria. Why I’m excited to meet him tomorrow? Argh… this heart…stop beat this fast..

Mark Tuan, you have to take care of my heart! (cheesy Park Jinyoung)