There were so many reasons why Namjoon always kept at least thirty centimeters distance away from Yoongi. And all of his crew members didn’t know about these, and even Hoseok who was always there with them, spending hours of times in their studio trying to make music for their next mixtape.

Their crew has been around for almost five years now in Hongdae. Delivering some crazy hardcore hip hop music and freestyle dance movements. If there were a lot of great underground performance in Seoul then they could be called one of the best.

Their mixtape always had a great response from their fellow underground artist and the ticket for their show always sold out. “You have the best crew around here, man.” or “How could you guys kept your original line up for five years?” were what people usually say about them. Namjoon would just grin at that and said nothing.

Because, in his most humble opinion, indeed he had the best crew in the whole world. They really understood each other quite well to the point he could tell who was in the bad mood by just looking at their face.

But there was always something different about Yoongi. From the first time Namjoon met the older boy, he could never guessed what was in his mind. Yoongi was the most cold-hearted boy in their crew, or so he was told by the people they had worked with.

Namjoon did not agree though, because Yoongi was a very cute and warm-hearted boy once you know him better. Unlike Seokjin and Hosoek who were very open with their affection toward the crew, Min Yoongi has always been subtle about it. But Namjoon would always notice it. He didn’t know why, he just did.

But Namjoon thought no one would realised he always kept his distance from Yoongi until Hosoek pointed it out on a lazy afternoon when both of them got their turn to clean up their studio. Namjoon only stared at the red-haired boy dumbly with his mouth slightly open it made the later laughing so hard Namjoon could see his tears forming in his eyes.

"What do you mean?" Namjoon asked dumbly when Hoseok finally managed to stop his laughter. The silver-haired man continued cleaning the cd-shelf when he noticed Hoseok gave him that ‘are-you-kidding-me’ look.

"Don’t you think that it’s too obvious, Namjoon-ah?" Hoseok put the broom he was holding on his lap, after he was sitting on the chair near the door. "It’s been years, Namjoon. I thought you had already moved on from that ‘silly- incident’." added Hoseok.

Namjoon stopped cleaning and leaned his back on the shelf then he let out a heavy sigh from his mouth.

"I’ve moved on, Hoseok. I swear I have! It was not even my fault that his camera broke at that time. He just happened to be right behind me fixing his lense when I was sugar-high and unconsciously, I repeat, unconsciously knocked his camera out.", answered Namjoon.

"Then why are you being like this? It’s like you guys can’t even be in the same room without being awkward.", Hoseok pushed. His hands folded on his chest and his eyes staring dagger at his taller friend.

"He said his life could be shortened if I was near him, because apparently he called me a destructive monster and I don’t wanna make his life shortened."

"Really, Namjoon? that’s your best reason you can come out with? Because let’s be real, everybody in the crew always says that, even myself." Hoseok stared at his bestfriend skeptically. "So, if that’s the case, you should probably keep your distance to us too."

Auch, that’s kidda hurt, Namjoon thought. “What are you trying to say, Hoseok?”

"What about your secret glance whenever Yoongi hyung walks before you? What about your secret smile whenever Yoongi hyung being cute with Taehyung and Jimin? And how about that night when you made him a sandwich and asked Jimin and Jungkook to bring it to him? And your lyrics in that secret folder of yours? I do think it’s more than just that stupid reasoning." Hoseok looked at him right in the eyes it made Namjoon felt like throw up. His cheeks burned from embarrassment because Hoseok caught him red-handed.

"I like him, okay! I can’t bring myself to be that close with him because it freaks me out! There I said it and if you dare to tell him about this, you’re a dead meat." Namjoon blew up. His voice was an octave higher than his original tone. but scarier. His face were all red and he’s already plotting a murder in his mind.

"And besides, he seems in love with Jimin, though. So no chance for me." whispered Namjoon, more to himself rather than to Hoseok. But the red-haired man heard it nonetheless.

Hoseok laughing so hard he even fell from his chair while holding his stomach. Because seriously, Namjoon face when he said it, was epic. Oh, he really would share this conversation with Seokjin once he came back from a grocery shopping.

"What are you laughing at?" Namjoon felt offended because his bestfriend kept on laughing at his misery. So much for a bestfriend, Namjoon thought.

"For a person who’s smart, you’re really dumb. Even Taehyung is smarter than you in this case." He did not believe that his friend could be this oblivious.

"Okay, stop right there, man. What is it that Taehyung know that I don’t know?"

"Figure out yourself, man. Just a lil advise thou, stop your ‘distance things’ from Yoongi hyung, then maybe you can figure it out sooner." said Hoseok while patting Namjoon’s back before he left to the bathroom. Leaving Namjoon more confused than ever.

Namjoon frustrated because Hoseok did not know the main reason he kept his thirty centimeters distance from Yoongi for he was scared to broke Yoongi with his overwhelming love for him. It’s scary but Namjoon enjoyed this feeling.

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