I wish I had a destination in mind

But my tired eyes starring ahead without any aim

With every tick off the clock , my heart die a little more

It's hard to understand

But I'm the kind of person that will punish myself for not doing well

These days , I haven't been sleeping at all

Trying to wash down this pain with some alcohol

What becomes of me?

What else am I going to do?

In search for the lost

Getting all cooped up

Forgetting how to even feel

Somebody please tell me that I'm not the only one (no no not alone)

I hate it when the hope was full of nothing but and an ending

Tears of a child

The feeling of absolute despair stabbed me directly in the chest

Maybe all I ever need is a hand to hold

A pair of ear to listen

And a heart who understand 

Sadly, only in silence I find no rejection 

Keeping myself away from everybody 

Sometimes I'm young and reckless

I was anything but me

It's a feeling that I can't fight

I want the things that I can't have 

I chase for a dream that no one believes in

It's like a cycle that doesn't end

Was too young to give up (we have many more days to live)

Too proud to admit defeat

So I came back , a different person

My thoughts are even more beautiful now

I can feel it

I can tell

The thrill in my heart

It's a new high 

Young soul with many dreams

Like the universe

I'll spread my wings

Legend has it

It's not something that you can learn 

Scars like medal 

That's wisdom learn by heart 

Before you knew it

That's what people like me do

Finally worth right at the end

I'm that everyone will see

There's something in every nothing

An award that is fufilling to the heart is one love by many around the world