Want to believe that no matter how hard it is right now
One day it will be amazing
So I told myself everything I wanted to hear from the world but never received
Want to be the definition of life
But all the ideas go no where
This is just a chapter
What doesn't feel right wasn't meant to be
How can I make ME realized that I deserved more ?
Tried to hold on the pain but I slipped away
Tried to shake the pain away but it keeps on coming back 
No one knows how many times I have thoughts to end it all 
And I hope that this not some kind of a punishment
Dead on the inside
Thought I've found a way 
But all the ideas go no where
When everything else just become what it could be (heal) but will never be
I think of it everyday 
Want to be heard but why is it so hard ?
Wanting to reached out but not knowing where to  
When everyday feels like a fight 
I'm afraid if it's something (pain) that I can't let go 
All the deep burried emotions 
The more you keep it , the more that it hurts 
Sometimes in life you don't really get to pick , choose and decide
All you've got to do
Is Say , Perform ,and Achieved 
All the pain that put me down
Makes me feel that I couldn't come around