KRIS POV.

I heard. 

I didn't mean to but with her door open and it was instinctive.  My fingers were in fists but I released them immediately when I realised what I was doing. I shouldn't even care if they're dating. I was starting to get attached to her. It was dangerous.  I flexed my wrist and headed back to my room, convincing myself I shouldn't care about her. 

My mantra wasn't working because I couldn't rid the tight feeling in my chest. My hand naturally went to my neck, grabbing for the pendant that hung around my neck. I rubbed it soothingly, staring up at the ceiling as if looking for some divine sort of help. 

I heard someone knock on my door but I didn't look up since they had already let themselves in. 

"I thought you were sleeping." My voice sounded so emotionless, even more so than usual. 

Suzy sat in front of me, her legs crossed as she looked at me. I finally dragged my eyes down to her, giving nothing away,

"You know you guys are alike to some extent." She smiled, "You're both so dead set on dealing with your emotions on your own." I didn't reply but she was unfazed and spoke for the both of us. "I heard as well." She admitted. That was unsurprising considering how close their rooms were.

My grip around my pendent tightened, as if it were my one solace, the light in my darkness. Suzy sighed before leaning over my knees to pull me into a hug. I didn't return it but I didn't struggle either. She pet me on my back and I suddenly found it difficult to resist the urge to flinch- the action was too motherly.

I stood up, shaking her off in the process. "Well we better get ready. Tao will whine if we're late." I chuckled.

LIAN POV.

After agreeing that I wasn't in the mindset to learn, Chanyeol volunteered to meet me at lunch times to go over the things I didn't understand in class. It still amazed me how kind hearted he was but at the same time it made me feel bad- like I was abusing his feelings for me but he assured me it was nothing of the sort. I asked him if he wanted to join us clubbing but he felt he would be intruding and politely declined.

I saw him to the door and searched the house for Suzy so we could get ready together,

I don't particularly know what spurred me to look into Kris and Lay's room but something did and I almost wished I hadn't. From my view I could see Kris and Suzy in a tight embrace. 

So they were like that.

Why hadn't Suzy told me?

I stared at them for a moment before continuing down the hallway. It wasn't right for me to pry so I made note not to ask her about it. I was sure she'd tell me when the time was right.

"Oh, Lian! Do you know what time we're leaving?" 

I looked up at Luhan who headed towards me, "When everyone's ready?" I guessed, earning a chuckle. We headed to the living room to find the others, deciding to meet back at 7 before scattering to go get ready. Suzy barged unannounced into my room, as usual. I was in my underwear so I was glad she shut the door behind her.

She decided on our outfits whilst I did both of our makeup. 

Somehow my mind wandered back to the scene of Kris and her hugging. I couldn't quite figure out why the scene bothered me so much. A viable explanation was to imagine it like how I would feel had it been my parents. Maybe the fact that she was like my sister made it uncomfortable for me to see her being affectionate with boys.

"Ow!" 

I blinked quickly, murmuring an apology as I realised I had poked Suzy in the eye with the mascara wand. I was spacing out too much.

As we entered the room, the boys responded appreciatively with howls and whistles. Suzy seemed to be enjoying the attention and even spun around playfully but I quickly shuffled past them towards the door, my cheeks responding per usual. We were wearing matching little black dresses but we flauntered our styles differently. Suzy wore a bright statement necklace whereas I opted for the statement shoes.

We took the subway, knowing that if we drove we'd probably wouldn't be able to drive back. Needless to say, we stuck out like sore thumbs in the train and I couldn't help but smile at all the looks we were getting. Once we were at the club, Suzy decided to make the exclaimation that she had forgotten her ID. I gaped at her. We came all this way and she forgot her ID? Before Tao could strangle her, I walked towards the bouncer and motioned to Suzy. For once, I was glad we were rather attractive because the bouncers here were damn biased. 

The club was loud and rowdy.

We managed to snag a booth but I wasn't in the mood for sitting down. Frankly I just needed to drown out today's events- fighting with Yifan, causing Chanyeol pain and seeing Suzy and Kris together. I didn't need it. I downed a shot of hard liquor and tugged Suzy towards the dance floor.We immediately wedged our way to the middle, slowly picking up the beat.

I heard some of the guys join us but the lights were flashing too much for me to pinpoint who was who. I saw Lay and Luhan somewhere around us. I swayed my hips, jumping to the beat. When my head turned I made eye contact with Kris. He was still at the booth and he had his eyes hard on me. I swallowed hard but the vision was soon blocked by someone. The boy grabbed my hands, holding them up in the air, encouraging me to dance with him. Vexatiously, I started bobbing with him but a gasp escaped me when he started grinding against me. Not cool.

I turned around in search for a familiar face but the boy held me in place. He wasn't being forceful but I was starting to get extremely uncomfortable and he wouldn't give me the chance to leave. I felt my breath quicken in panic. He was too close.

Suddenly I felt an arm pull me backwards toward another section of the dance floor. I closed my eyes momentarily, sending a silent prayer that I would make it out whilst keeping my V-card. 

"You should be more careful." 

It was an easily distinguishable voice. A sigh of relief left me as I stared up at Kris but before I could thank him, he extended a hand out to me. I thought he was going to lead me back to the booth but he surprised me when he started bobbing to the beat. He had his arm on my waist, keeping me close so people wouldn't fling me aside- downsides of being so short and petite. 

We danced for a while, until Suzy appeared beside me. 

"There you are! I almost formed a search party!" She scolded as I pulled away from Kris. I hope she didn't see us dancing. I knew Suzy was an understanding person but I didn't want any bad blood between us- especially over a boy.

I risked a peek at Kris but his face gave nothing away as we slid into the booth with the others.

We all looked sweaty and just about ready to call it a night.

"Time?" I asked, increasing my volume so I could be heard over the speakers.

"Just past midnight." Someone yelled back. I wasn't sure who.

I nodded before nudging my chin towards the door, a wordless question of whether we should head back. The others chorused their agreements and we made it out of the club.

The cold air was painful.

It stung my nose and fingers, making me shudder. That was what I hated most about being out late- it was so damn cold. I looked over to the others and Chen had just shrugged off his jacket to drape over Suzy. I stared at them for a moment and immediately felt a jacket over my own trembling figure. I traced the hands back to Luhan who merely grinned, "Don't want our princess to catch a cold."

I smiled appreciatively before following the group along the sidewalk. I wanted to take off my heels but I knew that if I did then my stocking covered feet would have to combat the ice-cold cement.

"Feet hurt?" Luhan asked, cocking his head to the side curiously. I shook my head vehemently but Luhan didn't see it because he was already turning to Kris, "Hey can you carry her? Her feet hurt."

Of all the males he could have asked.

Tao had heard too because he suddenly walked towards us, "I don't mind carrying you."

I was about to wave him away when Kris abruptly squat down in front of me, "It's fine."

I anxiously looked over at Luhan who grinned encouragingly, "The reason I asked Kris is because it's like travelling first class." He snickered. Not wanting him to bend for long, I quickly hopped onto his back. He heaved me up with ease and I was suddenly glad for my scrawny structure. I almost gasped at how high I suddenly was. I could see why Luhan had joked about it being first class.

My hands were lightly placed on his shoulders. I didn't want to lean against him in case it was uncomfortable but he suddenly jostled me so I was forced to lay against his back. 

"Relax." He whispered so only I could hear him.

Subconsciously, I released the air I'd been holding captive. Kris always managed to make me feel extremely intimidated and extremely comfortable at the same time. It was a rather contradictory emotion. I found my arms moving around his neck to give myself a more comfortable position. I wanted to lay my head on his shoulder but I was afraid Suzy wouldn't like it.

With her odd psychic ability, Suzy popped up beside us, coaxing my head lightly onto Kris's shoulder. I felt him stiffen but he didn't say anything.

"Sleep." She encouraged, smiling softly before petting my head and walking ahead to catch up with Chen and Xiumin. 

I woke up as everyone prepared to get off the train. Kris had set me down on one of the seats and even though I moved to walk on my own, he shook his head and picked me up once more, disregarding the odd looks we got. I couldn't find the strength to tell him I could walk because honestly, I wasn't so sure I could. We hadn't been out so late in a while and I'd forgotten why I hated it again. I was cold, sleepy and drained.

I flipped my head against Kris's back so now my left cheek was squished against his shirt. I could see that Suzy was asleep too and Luhan was carrying her. I smiled unknowingly at her peaceful figure. 

Kris set me down on the bed and for some reason I felt the need to pretend I was asleep. Perhaps it was just the embarrassment of my situation. Oddly, he didn't leave immediately. I could feel him lingering beside my bed. It took everything for my eyes to resist the strong urge to see what he was doing. 

"I'm sorry Lili."

It was barely audible but I was positive that I had heard him apologise in Mandarin. I couldn't help but wonder why. What had he done? Shouldn't I be the one apologising after making him carry me all the way home?

Still I kept up my act and eventually I found sleep.

I woke up again around lunch time and I was beyond grateful that the others had let me sleep- but I suspected they were all still sleeping too. Instinctively, I grabbed my laptop, hoping to see a new message from Yifan. My shoulders sagged instantly.

LILI [22/10 12:22PM]: Hey

I bit my lip, wondering how to form the apology.  I wasn't even sure why I was apologising and yet I knew I had to. My mouth twisted into a frown but I pursued my lips, swallowing my pride.

LILI [22/10 12:23PM]: Look I'm sorry for last night.
LILI [22/10 12:23PM]: I...um...
LILI [22/10 12:26PM]: Are you still mad?

Surprisingly, he replied. Like he had been waiting for my message.

DRAGON_YIFAN [22/10 12:27PM]: I'm not.
DRAGON_YIFAN [22/10 12:27PM]: I'm sorry too. How was your night?

 I grinned. Just like that it was back to normal. I guess that was a perk of having an online boyfriend- when you're mad you can just shut the screen and reopen it when your in a better mood.

Too bad you couldn't do that with reality.