Kris/fem!Baekhyun || words: 805|| drabble || summary: you’re mine, but it feels like you’re not

“Look, I’ll be back. Now, I don’t want to see you cry anymore, alright? Come on, I want to see that smile – There we go! Ah, so beautiful.”

“You are so…hmmph…I love you. I love you so, so much.”

“I love you too, baby. I love you too.”

Kris went home feeling tired, expecting for his wife to come and greet him like the usual. But today – he sighs – today is different. Because the moment he entered their room, he saw Baekhyun all curled up on the bed, knees pressed against her chest as she tries to be as small as possible. She was sleeping, probably from all the constant crying.

Slowly, he took off his coat and hanged it on the rack behind the door before approaching her, the bed dipping down as he settles himself beside her. He sighs.

“Baek.” Kris whispers. “Baekhyun, come on. I brought dinner.”

Baekhyun stirs a bit, blinking wearily and his heart aches at the sight of obvious tear tracks on her cheeks. Kris furrows his brows and gently grabs her by the arm. But that action came to abrupt stop he heard Baekhyun answer, “I’m not hungry.”

Kris sighed. “You said that yesterday, too.” He then moves over to open the lamp. Baekhyun winces at the sudden brightness. “As much as I want to give you your alone time, I’m afraid I’ll have to step in and intervene when you’re starving yourself. Now get up and eat… or should I bring it up for you?” He chuckles. “It’s been a long time since we ate dinner in bed.”

“Jongdae and I used to eat dinner in bed.” Baekhyun mumbles.

The chuckle died down as quickly as it came.

“Baekhyun.”

“Someone came earlier this morning.” She continues. “They came to return Jongdae’s things. I don’t know what to do with them so I just put those in the storage room. You wouldn’t mind, would you?”

Kris looks away. “Of course, not.”

He does.

Kris and Jongdae were best friends. In fact, they were like brothers. He was there in every achievement Jongdae made and the latter was there in every rocky road when Kris was still on his way on being a doctor. So upon learning that Jongdae died on the field, it felt like gravity just pulled him down hard by the foot.

But the one who got it hard was Baekhyun.

“Look, take care of her for me, alright? When I’m go-“

“No, you’re not. You’re not gonna -”

“But we don’t know, hyung. What if – he sighs – Just… please take care of her for me.”

Two years… Four years… Then it turned into eight and Jongdae didn’t come home. Baekhyun found love in the arms of another man that comforted him, who is Kris, and despite her hesitation, she agreed to marry him. Because people around her told her that Jongdae already moved on. Said that someone found him in Britain with a kid and a woman beside her.

So Baekhyun moved on. And so did Kris.

“Is it okay for me to love you?” Kris reaches out a hand for her to take, which Baekhyun did, giving it a tight squeeze. Baekhyun giggles and squeezed back, before answering with a kiss on the lips.

They were happy and not once did they doubt their decision to be together. The way Baekhyun would lovingly run her fingers through his dark hair and the way his fingertips would touch her rosy lips before kissing them. Both family approved (Mr. and Mrs. Byun disapproves of Jongdae anyway) and talks about having children is in the process. Until,

They had asked for what happened then – asked for Jongdae’s whereabouts when suddenly, the chocolate haired man’s brows furrowed in confusion. And then, it softened.

“Four years ago, on our way back… there was an ambush on our base.” Minseok said after he finally comes to his senses. “There were bullets raining on us and Jongdae…” His eyes suddenly went wide, as if he’s recalling – seeing himself once again in that moment. Then he reached out and gripped the side of his head tight, tears streaming down his face. “J-Jongdae… J-J-Jongin…Oh, god. Y-Yixing! Yixing, run!”

The nurse told them to leave for a moment after that. Private Kim Minseok died after three days.

And maybe because of the guilt that got Baekhyun to act this way. Guilty that while Jongdae is out there, fighting for his life to get back home – to come home to her – She was here, happy in the arms of Kris, his best friend. Maybe because of doubt. Because of her selfishness.

Baekhyun started crying again, her face scrunched up as tears fall. “You said you would come back.” She cries. “Why didn’t you come back, Jongdae-ah?”

Kris reaches out for Baekhyun’s hand and squeezed it.

But she only pulled it away.

a/n: me is back! who missed me?! give me a pairing and I'll do it! :)