They are lucky, SM staff asked Suho and Sehun to visit f(x) at the music show today. The reason why they can go is simple, because Suho is the leader and Sehun is the magnae, so I can’t say anything. But I was talked to Sulli few minutes ago, Sehun called me from there and I asked him to give his phone to Sulli because I want to talk with her. I’m disappointed when I know she seems even I’m not there. But, we decided to meet tonight.

Actually, I feel uneasy lately, I feel my girlfriend is not only mine anymore. I mean now Sulli is not only in my arm, but in someone else too. At first I never feel like this. I never think if Sehun is the one that make me uneasy. At first I never know about this, but yesterday when I talked with D.O he told me something that made me shocked. He told me that if Sehun always pay attention whenever I’m with Sulli. He told me some of the members knew it too. Why Sehun make it obvious? Doesn’t he care about the other’s think?

It’s kind of flashback when I knew Sehun always pay attention to us. The first thing I remember is when he asked Sulli to come with us to Junhong’s house. I know him so well, he doesn’t like if there is someone else inside our small group with Junhong. But that day he asked Sulli in front of me. Even he talked like I wasn’t there. He asked Sulli without my permit. But I relief when Sulli rejected it.

The second is when they were in the woman restroom. Actually after Sehun asked permit he wants to go to the restroom, I asked permit too after him. I walked quietly behind him, but I stopped when he go inside to the woman restroom. At first I just want to go ahead to the man restroom ignoring Sehun who went inside the woman’s. But I stopped again when I heard he had a conversation with someone inside. I recognized that voice, it was Sulli. I clench my fist when I heard Sehun made fun with her. Sehun is not a prank type. Why he changed whenever he with Sulli? I tried hard not to go inside and listened their conversation carefully. Sulli was trapped but thanks to him, he helped Sulli. When I knew Sulli will go out of the restroom, I want to hide but I canceled when I heard Sehun was tried to hold Sulli there. I cannot stand any longer, I drew my breath and go inside talked with them, acted like I don’t know what was happened. I felt guilty when I ignored Sulli there. I did it because I want to ignore an eye contact with her, because if she sees my eyes, she will know that I’m not at a good condition. So I just took Sehun outside and help him to bandaged his elbow.

The third when they were looked at each other for 2 minutes even more. I squeezed the drink cans that in my hand. I want to punch Sehun and pull Sulli from there. It was embarrassed enough when I tried talked to them but they were too busy for looked at each other. I’m hurt, it’s hurt when you see the one you love ignored you because of someone else.

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I’ve sent a message to Sulli, tell her that I’m on my way there. I take my jacket and my car’s key. When I want to go out…