So here we are again
Knowing this will never end
So I must let go
 

I never really knew what was my role or place in his life. I knew he wasn’t mine but I was his. Well he is mine, but I never felt that he really was. Kris always told me “what’s yours is mine and what’s mine is mine.” He was so possessive towards me. I thought that was love and affection. I was treated as more of an asset and property than a person. But I was so blinded by love that I consented to living like that. I even acted like a saint. I acted like I didn’t know that he was seeing someone else. I have always known that actually. He was known for being a playboy and going back to his exes. I was one of his exes.  I was so in love with him that he knew that whenever he comes back to me, I would accept him.

“where have you been?” Kris says the moment I walk into the threshold

“I was with Heechul.”

“the whole night? And you didn’t even tell me?” his temper rising

“I don’t have to tell you everything.” I snapped

“you’re mine” his voice was deadly

“I know that.” I say and head for the stairs

“I’m still talking to you” he stood up to follow me

“I don’t want to hear it, Kris. So please.” I walk up the stairs

He suddenly grabs my arm “whenever you go out. You will tell me who you’re with and where you’re going and what time you’ll be home.”

This has always been the cycle whenever we fought. Kris would remind me that I was his. He would exercise his power on me. And I, being madly in love with him, would follow every time. I slowly felt suffocated and hurt. He was controlling me, watching my every move, making sure that no man would come near to me while he went around dating other women.