I can see you now with opened eyes
When you come around I realize
That I don't need you to survive

Reality had finally caught up with me. I was tired of living like this. I felt caged, used and worthless. I was like a puppet.

Drown or Leave. Those were my two options.

I needed to leave. If I still cherished whatever that was left of me, I had to leave him behind.

Yes, he loved me; I never doubted it until now. It broke me when I saw him with another girl. She was not just any girl; she was my best friend when we were in high school.

The feelings I felt way back in high school drowned me. It was like a tidal wave and I couldn’t help but let it sweep me away back into the depression I felt back then. Memories started flashing back right in front of me.

I was being naïve and yet the love I felt for him was keeping me alive.

I started driving, letting the pain inside me grow and take me away. It was already 9 in the evening. I was driving around. I didn’t want to go home yet. I wasn’t ready to face him. Tears were still b my eyes when bright lights suddenly flashed in front of me and my immediate reaction was to swerve and I did. I hit a tree. For a few seconds I felt relieved because the pain was slowly going away and I was feeling peace then the dark took me away.

I woke up to bright lights. I was disoriented. I couldn’t understand what was going on. The dark slowly crept up to me again and I went with it.

I woke up again. Everything was quiet. I was in a hospital. I slowly turned my head. Kris was standing by my bed and looking at me. For a moment I saw concern and love in his eyes but it was immediately replaced with anger when he saw me fully open my eyes

“what the hell were you thinking?” Kris raised his voice

I opened my mouth but I couldn’t speak. I didn’t want to argue or see him right now.

Kris turned and left the room

That made the pain worse. Emotionally worse. I can bear physical pain. I can tolerate that. But I couldn’t tolerate emotional pain especially if Kris was the one causing it.

In order to divert the emotional pain I was feeling. I slowly examined myself. I suffered from a broken left arm. I had a lot of scratches and bruises in the upper part of my body. My forehead was bandaged. I was lucky. I didn’t have any severe wounds just a broken heart.

A nurse rushes in while I was trying to sit up

“how are you feeling?” the nurse asks me as she helps me up

“I need water” I said. My voice weak and hoarse. Damn, how long was I out?

Kris enters the room as if he read my mind “you’ve been out for 2 days” he sits on the couch near the door

I didn’t look at him and focused on slowly drinking the water the nurse gave me

“can I have painkillers, please?” I ask the nurse

“of course. I’ll be right back” she smiles and leaves

I look at the wall clock. It was 8:35 in the morning “you can leave now. I can handle myself. You still have work. I don’t like keeping you away from work.” I say and try to lie down

He rushes to help me and I swat his hands away

“why are you being so difficult?” he snapped

“it’s none of your business.” I glare at him

“yes it is. You’re my business.” He puts his hands on his hips

“I can handle myself, now leave.” I lie down on my side

“I will not leave until the doctor clears you to go home” he stands by my bed

“suit yourself” i grumble and went back to sleep.