It was mid-February now, 5 months since Kibum and Arisa had been a couple. And since then, I had been going to the music room at least 3 days a week, after class. If I had to cry, I would run to the music room, cry for a few minutes and work on my songs. My diary worked as my song book, too.

I opened the door to found no one there.

Dropping my bag, I made my way to the piano and started playing my self-composed song.

From the beautiful fairy tales from my childhood

The love that I learned for the first time was all about the fluttering feelings

I thought that kind of love would come to me too

I stopped for a while and looked out of the window. I saw Kibum and Arisa both sitting in the school yard, under a big three. I noticed that he was very quiet and he was only nodding to whatever Arisa says. They seem to have a serious talk. I have never seen his face that serious before. He nodded again and held her hands then kissed them both.

I felt a pang of pain but I quickly tried to ignore it.

"There are so many things I wish I could tell you too...." I sighed heavily and mused with regret visibly shown in my eyes. "If only things were different.... if only you weren't my bestfriend..."

I went back to the piano seat and continued playing the song.

Need you, I really didn’t know back then

Need you, I thought we’d last forever

I didn’t know how precious you were and only complained every day

Now I finally know that the pain is greater than that love

Our story has ended like that, becoming a sad memory, my love

My mind was pulled out by the sound of music making its way through the walls.

Suddenly, I heard footsteps and I poke my head nervously around the corner I'm sittting at towards the noise. I stiffened. "Who's there? Oh, Kibum--"

It was him. His body was relaxed against the wall.

"It's me." He cut me off. "... it's been a while since I last heard you sing... I missed it..."

"Yeah..."

"Continue... sing for me, Eunji..."

I nodded and my fingers started to caress the smooth polished keys of the piano again. 

This isn’t the love I used to know

I thought it was like what I dreamed of, in the fairytales

I guess I was too young to know love back then

He began to hum along with it and his voice entwined with the instrument. As so, for the next seconds, I sang along with the music, feeling it flow through my veins. I closed my eyes and lost myself in music. 

I jerked back into reality when I felt his hand clasp down on my shoulder. At once I stopped and opened my eyes, meeting his gaze. I stared at him and noticed the tears in his eyes.

"Hey... Kibum... what's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"Are you kidding me? Nothing? I'll beat you up, seriously."

He answered nothing.

"Why? Did you... and Arisa... had a fight?"

"Your music... it's too emotional..."

"Hey..."

"Nothing's wrong..."

"Come on, I know you. I know that face... I'm your b-bestfriend, remember?"

He sighed. "She broke up with me just now...." He sullenly stared out of the window. 

I was speechless. I was stunned at what I heard. How could Arisa break up with him that easily?

"Why? What's the reason?"

"She said she's going back to Japan... for good."

"So? What's the problem?"

He was on the verge of tears. "She said can't handle a long distance relationship."

"Kibum..." My voice cracked as I whisper. "Do you want me to talk to her? Maybe... I can convince her to change her mind..and---"

"No... it's her decision. Let's just respect that."

His lips began to shake and his tears began to stream down uncontrollably. I silently looked away from him as I could feel wetness forming in my eyes too. 

I knelt down as I rested my hand on his back and rubbed it softly, trying to soothe him. "Sshh... I hate to see you like this."

"I'm... a...alright..."

"Don't worry... you will be happy again.... I'll help you."

All I heard was his quiet sobs.

"It's okay... Cry. Bawl your eyes out.."

"It... hurts."

"Sure, it will hurt. It will tear you to pieces. You'd miss her... like you'd miss a part of yourself. It will seem like every sad song will be about her..."

"How'd you... know?"

I tilted my head to keep tears from falling. "I had my heart broken too."

"You should have told me. I would have punched that guy..."

"Believe me.. it's just the start. But things will get better. Trust me... and I'll always be beside you. My shoulders aren't strong but you can cry on me. I'm here..."

"But you're not her..."

It was almost a whisper but I heard it. Clearly. But you're not her. You're not her. I'm not her.

My heart felt like it was pierced by thousands of needles. I tried stop the stinging pangs of tears.

The silence that stretched between us was long and tense. I dropped my eyes from his face from his face and stared down at the floor. I shifted my weight onto my left leg and, without looking at him, I said, "I'm sorry... I forgot. I'm not her. I'll never be as close to her... I understand."

"Eunji..." He whispered and clasped my hands tightly. "It's not---"

"Thanks... for... reminding me."

"It's not what you think. I... I'm sorry."

"No.. no... don't be sorry." I said, unable to speak with any volume. Tears started to sprung from my eyes and I couldn't hold them back anymore. "I have always loved you, you know? More than just a friend. To be honest... it hurts to know that saying this could ruin our friendship. But what can I do? It hurts even more to hold it in. It isn't easy for me... especially that you've never shown that you feel the same. Seeing you loving someone else... it was the worst feeling... it was so painful. Now... I understand where do I really stand... thank you for reminding me."

He went to reach out for me but I quickly spun away from  him.

I ran out of the music room as fast as my legs could carry me, not caring whether I would bump into---

"Ow!" A honey-haired boy groaned when I bumped into his chest.

"Sorry! I'm sorry!" I mumbled and picked up my bag trying not to make any eye contact with him.

"Eunji?"

I looked over at him for the first time. I had to look up at him to even see his face, he was taller than me. I noticed how shocked his brown eyes were. "Baekhyun..."

"Hey... have you been crying?" He asked while looking at the tear stains on my cheeks.

"N..no, just allergies." 

His eyebrows raised a little. "You sure?"

I nodded and avoided his eyes."

"Okay then, if you say so... See you around."

"O..okay." I quickly said. "Sorry again...."

"No biggie. Accidents happen."

Before I could walk away, he grabbed the end of my jacket's sleeves by the tip of his fingers. 

"Oh, by the way.... Eunji. No person deserves your tears. Who deserves them won't make you cry, do you understand?"

And with that, he just walked away.

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A/N: I decided to add a few more chapters. I realized I can't just end it like that. :)