In class, I couldn’t concentrate at all, I was thinking about the moments I spent with Xero. It was hard to believe that within a few hours, we already attained sort of a fluffy friendship. I was thinking about my boyfriend. I imagined how I would feel if he did something like that with another girl. That was the moment where the beauty from happiness disappeared. I fell back to reality. I noticed how, Jongjun was shooting small notes at my table. I opened them and read ‘there are some rumors that you and Xero are in a relationship.’ I stared at my table, looked at him bewildered and denied it by shaking my head.

- Jihyo? Do you want to add something?’ the teacher demanded me.

- No.

- Then stop caring about other things.

Other pupils turned around and started to laugh. Later, for lunch break, I asked Jongjun, Minwoo and Yuwon what all the fuss is about.

- Well, some assume, that you and Xero are in a relationship.

- And why?

- I don’t know. I only heard about it this morning when I was passing by.

In the cafeteria, Jungha and Ryohoon joined us.

- Jihyo-sshi, I heard that between you and Xero is something.

- Yeah! Me too. I was informed this morning about it.

- But haven’t you told us, that you have a boyfriend?

- Yes, I did. And yes, I’m in a relationship, but not with Jiho!

- They say that he and you spend a lot of time together.

- Obviously, I need some friends while I’m spending one year here in Korea.

- I know, there is nothing wrong with that, but still, calm down, you shouldn’t betray your boyfriend.

- Geez! Nothing happened, I only get on well with Xero, he is funny and a positive human being. He is good to talk to. And could we change the subject please.

- Ok, anyways …

Finally, we got around to chat about other stuff. But after this conversation, I realized that I had to make a decision. And I found out that even people in Korea are not different compared to the ones at home. People will keep spreading around rumors, if they are true or not, they will make a fuss about it, laugh about other people and badmouth them behind their back. It may seem more civilized than at my actual school, but the main idea is the same.

After school, I headed home, surprisingly, Hansol stopped me.

- Hold on! (I didn’t turn around, since I wanted to be alone) Wait! Jihyo! Xero is looking for you!

- So what?

- I only mean, that he has to discuss with you about something.

- Tell him that I have no time.

- It’s urgent! (he grabbed my arm, an pulled me to his dongsaeng)

- What’s wrong with you guys! What’s the matter?

- He will explain it to you.

Xero was sitting near the stairs from the entrance of the campus, on a bench. He looked desperate.

- Jihyo, don’t be too harsh on him, he is fragile.

I placed myself next to Xero, and was waiting for an explanation.

- So what’s wrong Xero?

- I heard you have a boyfriend.

- Yes, so what?

- I like you.

[Fantastic, you have been for such a long time in a wonderful relationship, you travelled to Korea as an exchange student, you met your favorite kpop group, you are friends with your bias, and now he tells you that HE LIKES YOU! You don’t know what to reply. Already since Topp Dogg’s debut in October 2013, and after you finally picked your ultimate bias in your group, you have always been thinking about anything possible with him, you ordered their albums, you received a poster signed by your bias per coincidence!!! (the happiest day in your life) you covered their dances, you even wrote fan fictions about anything what you are dreaming about, and now you are sitting in your dream country, next to your dream boy and he just confessed that he likes you.]

If I were a single, no problem, I would date him right away, but since I’m already in a relationship, what should I do? That’s a topic I thought about often. However, I still had no clue how I should act.

I have three options:

1. Should I break up sooner or later with my boyfriend, to get together with Jiho, and risk the difficult relationship with a desired idol, or
2. Should I reject the confession from my ultimate dream boy, and stick together with my boyfriend who SEEMS to be my ideal partner so far, and risk a long term relationship for the next 11months, or
3. Should I be yolo, and profit from the occasion and date my bias, but hide it from my boyfriend, and return back home as if nothing has ever happened?

I couldn’t give an answer to Xero, since I was too overwhelmed by his confession. However, to break the awkward silence, I asked him:

- What do you mean by ‘I like you?’

- … Well I like you. (he looked up to me, his mouth was formed into a pout)

- (I could only stare at him speechless) Explanation?

- I…want to… date…you.

KABOOM. Pouff. Total destruction. Here we have the confirmation. The only thing I could do was going home and think about it.

- Xero Oppa, give me some time to digest this situation. I have to go home. I will tell you as soon as possible what we should do okay? (I hugged him and left)

Instead of going home, I wandered to Namsan Park in Jung-Gu. I had to arrange my mind. I was observing the scenery, it was so peaceful. I imagined how it would be like if I were with Jiho in a relationship.