Easy isn't the word for it

neither is difficult

there are no words that can explain

what had happend in our past

hurt and pain is only an understatement

tears and cries are only decoration

just where?

I always ask that

Just where did it go wrong?

Those moments of happiness

butterflies and sunshine

that all broke into shreds

broken and sharp

because of the hurt we both got

Screaming and yelling

fighting and quarreling

there weren't moments anymore of peace

or ease

or love

it's funny

how things have changed 

from good to bad

from happy to sad

It's funny because I could only laugh

when you left me broken behind

I was nothing

only a thing that was once in your life

a thing that broke and was thrown away

because it didn't work anymore

because it wasn't necessary anymore

Where did it go wrong?

A question asked multiple times

with my dry lips

with my wicked mind

Just where did it go wrong for us to end everything

Everything that was suddenly nothing

because of one mistake

one obstacle

everything ended like a bad movie

Empty isn't even enough to say how I feel

Like acid eating me alive isn't enough of a comparing

Day in and day out

my mind occupied by your memories

forcing themselves in my thoughts

my dreams

and my nightmares

Trash

I was worse than trash

And all because of what you did to me

There's no life in me

A walking corpse

A shell with nothing

Living like a ghost

A monster

A wicked beast

If I could just go to that one past of ours

would things be different?

Would I be able to change what had happend?

To us and to me?

Would there be no more black, blue, purple or red?

Would there be fluttering emotions of being with each other?

Would anything change at all if given the chance?

That question never stops to enter my mind

Like a lion eating it's prey

I'm being eaten alive

Paralyzed

For always