Chapter two   “memories”

They are now buzy running off the stage to their dressing room. Just in two minutes, they need prepare to another perform on Chinese’s Spring Festival. Their manager now, screaming at them for hurry up change the clothes from their perform ago.

"Tao, you will wear wushu’s outfit in this perform. They want you perform a wushu first, before start a Two Moons and History."

“Eh, manager ge. But, I didn’t doing any rehearsal wushu. I might-“

“Just doing your usual wushu. A simple one.”

“Okay then, ge.” Tao just biting his lips feeling nervous.

He never doing wushu, before doing some rehearsal first. And they just have two minutes to get all prepare. If he asked some time too, they will not give too much time for him consider how they are rushing doing a prepare right now.

“You can do it, Tao.” Tao who are deep in his thought got startled on sudden voice from Chen.

Tao give a thin smile to Chen. Chen ge always like that. He really never stop support me.

“Hey, Tao?”

“Yeah. I will do the best, ge.”

After finished their performance, they all walking off from the stage with a wide smile. This is their last schedule for today. After this concert, their manager made a promise to get them out for a dinner.

“Jeez, this will be trouble some. Too much fans at outside.” Luhan snorting in annoyance.

With a tiring schedule today, he will be so grateful. If fans at outside lined up well and greeting them with full of love, than bothering them when they walk out from this building. Tao who heard a whining from Luhan, walk out at the windows.

He eyes widened when saw a crowded fans at outside. He start shaking, when a memories start haunting him.

"Tao, stay behind me okay. Don’t let go my hands. Never, understood?" ask Chanyeol at last before they walking out from the building to through crowded fans.

He nodding fastly as an answer. A crowding start pushing them, it’s make more harder when Chanyeol and Tao now separated with Luhan and Baekhyun. He start feeling uneasy, he afraid if that ‘gege’ suddenly come and pull him.

He grips Chanyeol’s hands tightly. Don’t want ever let go. But the situation is not siding him, fans start being aggressive and pushing each other. They all just want give their present to them or take some picture to upload at fansite.

He widen his eyes when he feel, his hands slipping out from Chanyeol’s hands.

“Tao! Hey, Zitao!” Kris screaming make Tao startled slightly, wake up from his inner thought. Tao made a puzzled expression to Lay.

“We got to go now.”

“But, fans..”

“Manager ge said we must go through them. Let’s go.” Said Kris before pull Tao’s hands with him.

So, he can protect the maknae from falling and at same time he will never got lost again in crowding fans. Tao who are being pulled by his Duizhang, just left shocked at his face. No, I don’t want through that again!

Now they are standing at front door building. Manager start push out the glasses door, a fans now start screaming and pushing each other. Their manager now screaming loudly, telling them to hurry up walking out then go straight into a van. Tao who are left shocked at first, now realised he been pulled by Kris to lobby’s building at front door.

He start pulling his hands from Kris’s hold and backing off slightly. Kris sudden realised the maknae are pulling out himself from his hold, start frowning in confused.

“Tao? What’s wrong?” Kris saw Tao start trembling, his eyes also clearly shown like he scared of something.

“I do-don’t want too..” Tao stuttered answer.

“Tao, it’s okay.. I will protect you, come on.” Kris approach the maknae slowly, try to hold Tao’s hands again.

“NO!”

Again, Tao pulling his hands from Kris.

He start backing off slowly, and run off again inside the main building. Kris made his action fastly chasing the maknae.

The maknae look traumatized with something, Kris can see clearly saw Tao's experssion. What gotten into him lately? As a leader, right now he feels dissapointed at himself because, he cannot take care well their members.

Kris phone ringing, made the leader take out fastly and answered it. Their manager’s calling.

“Yah! Where are you going?!” their manager sound angered.

“Ge. It’s Tao. He is running inside. I try to search him. Damn, I lost him!” Kris panting hard, for a breath.

He now standing alone at coridor. Where Tao’s gone?

“Okay, ge. I will try search at 2nd ad 3rd floor and our changing room. You try search at 1st floor and lobby. Agreed.” Kris hung up and rush to the lift. He needs to find Tao fastly as he can.

“I will go inside the building again. You all stay inside van, okay. A guard will be guarding this van, so no need to worry at fans.” Said their manager in rush. Lay start sensed something wrong with his manager.

“Where’s Kris and Tao?” Their manager freeze at the second.

“Something happen at Tao, right ge?” Luhan questioned now, he had uneasy feels too.

“Tao suddenly ran away inside to building. Kris now try searching him. And I will help him.” Before their manager said something again. Lay cutting him off.

“I want help too.”

“Me too.” Their manager sigh loudly.

“Fine, Luhan and Xiumin stay inside van. If something happen, I will call you. Okay?”

It’s suffocating. Dark. The memories start haunted him again.

Tao curled himself, hugging tightly his knees. A tears start flowing out. He sobbing loudly, a choked sound escaped from him.

He felt fans pushing him from back, he stumble try to walking through the crowded. He saw one of Exo’s bodyguard tried to approaching him. He been pulled by that bodyguard, he start felt relieved. He just follow the bodyguard take him to the van.

When he see a van, somehow he had this bad feelings. He try to pull out from the bodyguard’s hold. However, the bodyguard is stronger than him. At a moments, he freezing. He saw a glare from bodyguard, a glare sent a chilling feels to him.

“Let go of me! You are not our bodyguard!” He try to struggle for let out from the bodyguard grasp. The bodyguard tighten his grip more.

"Didi, Ge’s here. I will take you somewhere are safe for you, Didi er." A panic strike into him right now. He start whimpering to let go from Gege’s holds.

"No. Let me go! Let me go!"

"Syuhh. They will heard your scream. Come into van now."

"NO! Ge, help me! Kris ge! Luhan-" Gege cursed loudly then take out a handkerchief at his mouth.

Then, black start surrounded him.

“Ge…” 

“Ge, I’m scared…”

“Please ge… Help me…” Tao hugged his knee tightly, his breath start shortened.

He now locked himself in one of store room at 2nd floor, neared with their dressing room. When he saw, a crowded fans at front building, again the memories come flashing strike played in his mind. Even though, he tried to stop from remember that memories. He cannot, his fearness suddenly will surrounding him and eating his slowly.

He tried, he tried to call his gege. Kris ge, Luhan ge, Xiumin ge, Lay ge and Chen ge. But they never answered it. They never heard it.

Why ge? I need you all.

Are what he told me a month ago, is right?

Are they really never cared about me? Are they never love me?

Are they really my geges?

Tao start coughing loudly, his breath shortened again. He start having a hyperventilating.

An flashback image start appearing in his head. An image gege with him, an image gege feed him, an image he lay down on gege’s lap, an image gege his head, an image gege playing his hair, an image gege smiling at him, an image..

“Stop! Please..”

“I don’t want this! I don’t want this!” Tao gasp loudly catch a breath.

So suffocating. It feels so suffocating. With dark surrounding in small store room, it really cannot helped him.

“Ge… help me.”

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