After  a year...

It's his first death anniversary that day... for over a year she's still in mourned. Living like a zombie, it's just this morning when she finally came to her senses that it has been a year.. since he was gone...but she was still in pain. 

She lazily got up from bed and took her diary with her.. later she will visit him on his grave. 

She took a pen and started writing him a letter. 

To the person I consider my soulmate,

When you first came into my life...

I had no idea on how I was easy to talk to..

I never imagine that our daily conversation would turn out 

into such a strong relationship.

You become my bestfriend..

My Love...

My everything...

I never imagine myself having same interest and values with you..

..not until I discover that we had a lot in common.

Or that I could enjoy such simple pleasures specially when they are shared with you.

I never seen myself geuinely happy with someone.. 

not until you came..

Your compassion help me to ease through roughest times..

.. you make things easy for me through and through.

I never thought I'd fall too soon as though I know you forever... 

or to trust someone easily with my secrets and deepest feelings...

... my looses became easier to accept than it's supposed to.

Giving me so much encouragement when I was bound to give up.

I never imagined I would experience the real meaning of love..

.. that I would want to see myself grow old with someone. 

Not until you came...

I always thought that our love is enough for us 

to last...

We are perfect aren't we?

Unfaded...

un-broken..

never ending..

pure..

It was Autumn in New York when you just happened to approach me..

Till then...

you have drawn me close to the wisdom of your thoughts...

you have shared me the abundance of your heart..

and the most extraordinary love..

I can still remember that day..

for you brought so much joy and contentment into my life.

You make my heart skip a bit everytime you're near me..

.. you said fate leads me to you. I think no.. it's the other way around.

Fate leads you to me.. but I guess they we'rent now since were through...

When you tell me  you love me... but you have to go...

and we don't deserve each other.

It was like a bomb.. I asked you why and you said you are dying..

I refuse to believe even get mad at you.. and told you  "you're just lying! kidding me non-stop as you used to.."

But when I saw your tears fell down on your cheeks.. it speaks for itself.

You're in pain..

I know because I was in pain, too