Chapter 9

Do you know the feeling, when you see someone you love, with another? That happened to me a long time ago. I knew from the start that our relationship was fake, but I tried to make her feel happy. The feeling was love and a bit of fear – because I knew that she will eventually leave me, but she didn’t at first - she didn’t want me to be sad. But as the time passed she became distant and left with a note saying that she was really sorry and we are over.

But now sitting here and looking at you from a far is not the reality I wanted, you smile like an angel drinking from the ice tea you had ordered. It was destiny, maybe, as you walked thru that door with your friend. You were an angel – with the light just right above you.

If silent can’t heal, I know it can kill.

I love you.

Ohh, he must have had though days......Oh! What is this?

Mir looked as he saw the little word that was erased under the last sentence, and it was still visible for him to notice. He looked closely and he could only gasp and cover his mouth as he read the little word - eyes wide staring at it.

Mir

“Mir… - Earth to Mir…” Cheondung talked to his best friend.

“Uh-… uhm I’m sorry.”

“You were daydreaming again, weren’t you?” Cheondung looked him skeptically.

“I.... mmm.” A sigh escaped his lips, words couldn’t form anymore. Since the day he read his name in the diary he couldn’t sleep, nor eat – he was lifeless. He looked at his friend looking all happy and full of energy and here he was sitting here thinking for the right words to answer – though it isn’t easy.

“What, cat got your tongue?” The slightly older boy remarked as soon as the boy in front of him couldn’t answer his simple question.

Mir laughed, but it wasn’t a happy laugh it was a dark one and lifeless. Cheondung might be his best friend, but he doesn’t know everything about him, but he was thankful that he didn’t ask him or pressured him to tell him everything – and even though the older boy is cute, funny and outgoing person he could be really possessive over something.

“Cheondung, can I ask you something?” The younger spoke after all this silence.

“Yeah.” He answered immediately.

“If you hypothetically find someone’s diary or notebook, what would you do?”

“I would return it to the owner. But why?”

“But if the diary has no name on it?” Mir started “If you hypothetically - accidentally opened it and you read the first line or parag