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       Chapter Two        The boy dressed in black       Everytime I'm gone I take your photos next to my skin to see them every time your absence devours my whole heart, and I have no recourse but to love you.  

 

Everybody always tell me I'm going to make the wrong decision, but mistakes are a way of reacting to life. What the world wants from me? Do the world want me to not commit risks?

 

Seungri is that type of a guy. Throughout his life he did things without thinking, he used to say that was part of his charm,he still thinks that. Why everybody worries about everything? Life was easy. Seungri was never worried about anything. His life until 18 years was easy, and could even say that he was... happy. For many people could be a sad memory being an orphan and lived in an orphanage. He wasn't. The orphanage teach him many things. He was happy with the other orphans, he never had a family so he considered them as one. Although there was always that feeling of sadness as he watched all his friends, one by one, leaving the orphanage. Seungri didn't know it but he was developing a feeling he had never felt before; loneliness. And Seungri could never do anything against that, and soon he found out that the loneliest moment in someone's life is when they are seeing their whole world is falling apart, and all they can do is stare.  He was lying. He wasn't happy since the beginning. Lonely. Again and without explanation, there was never any explanation. And he finally understood his situation, he was alone in this world. He had no one, no one would care for him when he gets sick, or nobody would celebrate him any achievement. He was completely alone, and he could feel his small heart breaking apart. He was only a teenager, all that he wanted was a little of love. And is when depression caughts you, you cry but not a single tear fall. It looks like you're dying, but you're still breathing. You don't feel anything, but the pain is still there. And you don't expect anything anymore, it's to be alone in company. It's worse than no answers, you have no questions. There's no sense, there's nothing, everything is missing. He learned to live with that, and he found out that the best way to not suffer was to become heartless. He built walls around his heart and promised himself he wasn't going to suffer again, he doesn't need anybody. And when he turned eighteen and was finally able to leave the orphanage, he made a decision.  He wouldn't trust in anyone, he won't depend on anyone, he was alone since the beginning and he was going to face his problems alone. Another quiality Seungri develops inside the orphanage was his big pride and stubbornness. No matter how much he needs help, he wouldn't ask for it.  It wasn't the best choice, he didn't have where to live or what to eat so he became homeless. He lived on the streets for almost one year, sleeping on the floor and covering with paperboard to warm himself in the winter. He didn't know what to do and nobody wanted to hire someone like him, a tramp. They surely thought he was a thief.  His life was a mess and desperation led him to steal, he had no choice but he stole only to buy food and buy some clothes. Seungri didn't like colours so he always wore black clothes, he was uncomfortable wearing another colour. And it was one night when he almost went to jail, his life changed. As usually, Seungri was hungry. He was sitting in the corner of a street, surrounded by cartons and it was raining. He was thinking as he watched the ground, he didn't want to do it but he needed to eat. Seungri huffed and looked around to whom steal until he saw a lady dressed elegantly talking on the phone. He could see she was carrying his purse in the other hand carelessly. The woman was in the other corner of the street buying a cup of coffee.  Seungri got up and put his hood to avoid being recognized. He cursed inwardly as he walked carefully to the lady, still feeling guilty. The hungry was killing him slowly. He stopped walking whe he was three meters away from the lady, Seungri looked around to see if someone was watching him and when he made sure no one was paying atenttion, he cautiously stood close to the line of customers. And with a quick movement, he took the purse and snatched it from the lady, fleeing as quick as he could. He could hear the screams of the lady and someone chasing him, but he was fast so Seungri didn't even worry about that. What he didn't count was a police car appeared from nowhere and started to chase him. "Damn it, I'm screwed!" Seungri thought as he continued running. He was losing strenght and suddenly felt he was going to faint, he had been running for five minutes straight. Luckily the police car didn't follow him anymore and Seungri could finally stop to breathe. He leaned against a wall as he tried to catch his breath, he thanked his speed to save him. But his luck vanished as he heard a voice of a policeman in the distance. They came for him. Seungri cursed again and started running again with what little strenght he had, he didn't know where else to go, he needed to hide or they would take him to jail. He turned the corner clumsily and ran as fast as he could, he tought to get into a house and hide. Seungri was so mentalised to flee that he didn't feel the moment when someone grabbed his arm and pulled him into a alley and put him against the wall. He was about to scream but a hand prevented him from doing so. The man in front of him was taller than him and obviously stronger than him. Seungri didn't understand what the hell was happening, who the man was and why he was suddenly pinned to a wall in a uncomfortable position. He thought the worst, that the man was a , a serial murderer, a smuggler of organs or all of above crossed his mind, but fortunately he heard from the dark alley the policeman go away and disappear. Although Seungri didn't know whether to be relieved, the man was covering his mouth. So he did the best he could think: he bit his hand. The man stepped back throwing a whimper, which he took advantage to try to escape. And he say try because he didn't succeed, the man managed to catch his hand and pulled him back to where they were, but now they weren't as close as before. "What the hell was that?" It was the first thing Seungri heard and he swallowed. The voice of that man was very deep and intimidating, and he  also looked quite intimidating. He was going to kill him... or him. "That's the way to thank me for saving your ?" His fear vanished instantly, instead he was pissed off. "What-" He started saying. "What? I didn't ask for help" He looked into his eyes.  "And also who are you are to make yourself the superhero and save me?" The big pride and ego of Seungri was talking, he should be grateful but his pride was stronger. The man smiled and Seungri blinked, confused by his behavior. "Well... I saw you running like a maniac down the street and I thought you needed help, it seemed that you were going to pass out any second" The man shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know. Sorry if I scared you by covering your mouth, I didn't want the policeman to hear you"  Seungri was lost, it was the first time he got help from someone so he didn't know what to say exactly. "You could say thank you" The man said as if he read his thoughts, something that scared Seungri. "Alright I didn't say anything. I should g-"   "Thank you" Seungri said softly, he was embarrased. He crossed his arms and puffed his cheeks, not looking at him. It didn't take even a second when he felt a big hug, making him blush heavily because of embarrassment. "You're so cute!" The man kept repeating it as he was hugging him. "What-what-" Seungri seemed to have lost the sense of speaking. "Let me go!" He said loudly and the man let him go. "I'm sorry, I'm an impulsive person" The man laughed a little. "I hope this won't seem strange to you but what do you say we go get something to eat?" He suggested and Seungri was frozen. "I'm not a serial killer or a , I swear!" He raised his hand in oath and Seungri was relieved, although he didn't know the man before him. "So what do you say?"  Yet he was unsure, maybe he wanted something else from him, or perhaps not. He realized with regret that the purse he stole before was not with him anymore, surely he had dropped it as he fled. He sighed deeply, there goes his new clothes. "Okay" Seungri answered, resigned. "Just because I have no choice"  The man smiled. "It's fine by me!" He said. "By the way, my name is Choi Seunghyun"  "It can't be" Seungri said. "My name is Seunghyun too! But everyone call me Seungri" He said, suddenly cheerful. Seunghyun smiled at his reaction. "What a coincidence" Seunghyun smirked. "Apparently we were destined to meet" He said and stared at Seungri, making him to look away. "Actually you pulled me, so you forced me to meet you" Seungri joked and laughed seeing Seunghyun reaction. "Okay okay, I didn't say anything" Seungri said, clearing his throat. "Shall we go?" Seungri asked as if he were asking permission, and he felt kind of stupid. "Sure, I know a good place. Let's go!" And so they left the alley and walked through the streets of New York. Seungri still felt unsure about Seunghyun.    *               *               *               *               *             *               *   Seungri and Seunghyun were eating hamburgers sitting at a table facing each other. The restaurant was fairly full and the food smelled and tasted really good. Seungri had never seen this restaurant before, but it didn't matter, he wouldn't have the money to pay for something there. Perhaps he could steal something and get away. Something inside him kept saying that Seunghyun had other intentions, he was a stranger who was inviting him to lunch expecting nothing in return. That was weird, it was too good to be true. But at least he's going to enjoy his burger before fleeing. He didn't notice that Seunghyun was staring at him for a while until he looked up and saw him looking at him with a smile. Then he felt uncomfortable, perhaps because of the intense gaze of Seunghyun or because he felt he had mayonnaise all over his face. He hadn't eaten for two days. "What?" Seungri asked, trying to be rude. He looked for something to cleaned himself and Seunghyun passed him a napkin. He took it quickly and wiped himself. "You haven't said anything since we got here" Seunghyun said and took a bite of his burger, while looking at Seungri. Seungri finished chewing and swallowed his bite. "What do you want me to say? You invited me something to