I kept myself locked in my apartment, more like my bed, but I stayed indoors for a week, I did not answer my phone, reply to text msg’s, accept video chats or even answer my door, I did not want to deal with the world, I preferred being alone
Occasionally Kim came to check on me but I never answered the door, I just called her and I said was fine, but she said I ‘was being ridiculous, should open the door and let her in’ but I didn’t not want to hear her rants, and life lesson right now, I needed to recover and figure out what to do next with my broken heart
Yang Hyun Suk left me some msg’s but I didn’t care for, he was part of the reasons for my misery, the boys also tried to get me, Dae, left me voicemails that made me feel worse, and GD would not stop requesting Chats with me, but really what could he do, and Seungri was no help at all, leaving me msg’s about TOP, I didn’t want to know he was hurting as much as me, or more, I didn’t want to know he was a bit angry at me, and wants to hold me though he’s millions of miles away
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“ERA! IF YOU DON’T OPEN THIS DOOR IM COMING IN!” I heard Kim scream in the hallway, she woke me up from my coma.
“GOOOO AWAY, i want to be alone, and you have no key so get out of here!” I screamed back
-click, click, open-
“AIGOO! She has a key!” I thought to myself as I scrabbled trying to hide
“COME HERE!” Kim yelled as she grabbed me and I tried hiding my face “Eunbyeol Lee! Show me your faces now, don’t fight with me! Ugh!” Kim said grabbing my cheeks
“UGH LEAVE ME ALONE! I DON’T NEED THIS” :'( i could feel a wave of sadness rush over me again.
“OMO! LOOK AT YOU, Era, you poor thing” Kim said shocked holding my face and looking into my soul
“What, did you think I would be in perfect condition after a week of heartbreak and chocolate?” I said trying to look away from her piercing eyes

She released me and took a step back to examine me from head to toe.
“Essh what are you wearing?”
“What? this is my favorite, comfort outfit from home, and my hair has a life of its own” I said trying to defend myself
“For goodness sakes your not even wearing pants, I don’t understand why he likes your style…” She mumbled under her breath

yeah that was it... the tears were forming around my eyes as i tried to blink them rapidly away.

“Sit, we need to fix you up” She said plopping me onto my bed
“Wait, did you come alone?” I said looking behind her
“Of course, this is a private matter, you can trust me” She smiled
“Im not to sure, I trusted others and the ruined my life” I said sourly
“That’s understandable, Jay betrayed me too” Kim said while grabbing products out of her bag
“What do you mean ‘me too’? He didn’t tell you there little plan with YG?” I questioned while she wiped down my face
“Why would he, Era, he knows you and I have a tight relationship, and apparently you don’t know it” Kim said hurt
“Ohh… no, Kim, I see u at times as my umma but you and Jay seem to be to strict as managers”
“HAHA, right, Jay and I try to be professional, but really its not fun, I love to build relationships, that why im in charge of your image, so I get time to spend with you, hold still you need more cream on you eyes, so puffy” Kim answered disapprovingly
“Ew this stuff smells, but really why are you here, beside fixing me up to get to work” I teseted
“You really think im going to fix you up and throw you out there?”
“Yeah, I mean you are my manager first and for most, you have a job to do”
“Ah Era, this is where the relationship comes into play, I care about you, and I wont force you out of here, you come out once your good and ready, no one needs to know about our little meet up, im here because I care about you, Miss Eleni Lou” she said as she kissed my cheek
Hearing that name sent chills down my spine, when I first came to Korea 3 years ago, I changed my name right away, and now hearing that shocked me, it reminded me of home or what i could call home... and i never want to think about that old place again
“Umm –cough- thanks, Kim, really” I manage to get  out
“Any time love, now lets order some food, and relax okay?”
“Sure, I guess”

It hit me, Kim really was a genuine person, she seem to be safe, hmm I don’t know, I guess she’s all I really got in this business right now, and im okay with it