Hello~~

How are you all~ are you still with me?

I'm sorry... so so so so.. sorry..

took me long enough to update this.

but finally i can update it now.

maybe this chapter a lil bit lame or boring.. but i'll try my best to goft better chatper next..

Happy reading~~ thanx for everyone who still wait.. *deep bow*

CHAPTER  4  ~  FLASHBACK

It’s near to my birthday and of course valentine day and the next month, our 1st anniversary day. Time surely so scary how it flow so fast without we realize it. It is for me. Even though it’s almost a year of our relationship, throw away the imagination of them being sweet and lovey dovey couple. The truth is, our day is full with bickering almost 24/7. Well minus only when I have to go abroad or Hyesung have oversea business and when we can’t meet.

But it doesn’t mean that we really don’t have any lovey dovey moment. We do have it. Just that its always end with bickering or start with bickering. But, hey, that’s makes us closer and closer and know each other better. Maybe that was my fault too. I do like to tease and annoy him. Whose fault he is being so irresistible and cute when he’s sulking and pouting.

Today, this few days actually, its been peace and boring. Because, my crabie panda going overseas for few days. But Hyesung promised to comeback before the date. It’s hell bored.

Can’t annoy Hyesung, can’t tease, can’t meet, or having quality time or just to cuddle with him after the long work hour. Just cuddle. Yeah just that. For almost a year in our relationship, Hyesung never let me do any further other than kiss, hug, make out, and cuddle.

Make love? NO! Hyesung never let me go that direction at all. Seeing his full body? Never. Well, if only see his upper body, I have. But just few times. He’s rarely show it to me. His lower body? Hell never.

If you wonder, did he ever saw my body? Yes! plenty of times. I’m quite proud with my body. Well in my drama, I have to show my upper body in some scene. So not only him who saw and enjoy the sight. And I’m sure, lot of girls drooling over my abs. hahahahahaha… so do him. Cause sometimes, I can see him blushing when he look at me while I’m topless.

My lower part? Few times I guess. That accidentally happen. Not like I purposely show it to him. That just happen when he suddenly invading the bathroom while I’m shower. Not my fault if he saw it. let me tell you, his flustered face, precious! Maybe he like what he see but Hyesungie just being too shy.

Maybe actually he wants it too? But he’s not ready yet for that activity. I don’t want to push him if he’s not ready yet. I respect him. I can wait. But until when? I’m a healthy men too! Healthy man with need too sometimes. Please have mercy with me..

“Haaahh~~~” I sigh quite loud.

“Yo, Eric. What are you doing?” Minwoo poking his head over my office door.

“Oh Minwoo ya~” Minwoo walking to my desk with his style. Damn this chitcaii, even just walking need a style.

“You look no good.” He sit on sofa in my office room.

“How can I look good if my source of energy go for days. It’s boring.” I do slump my body in sofa next to him.

“go? Where? Isn’t birthday in just few days?”

“He said he need to go meet his family. He promised he’ll back before my birthday.”

“So does it mean that you’ll spend valentine alone too?”

“I dunno. He’s not telling me the exact date he will back.”

“Speaking bout him. About your plan to recruit him as our singer, how’s the progress? Any good sign?”

“I’ve been trying persuade him. So many times. But he always refuse to debut as professional singer.”

“Did he said why?”

“He just said he don’t want it. Even when I say, that he got the talent and will success and whole world will love him, he still said no. it’s enough for him to sing at Andy’s café. Even when I said we can hide his identity, he still said no. I don’t know how to persuade him again. ”

“Being stubborn as always. Say Eric, why are you being so stubborn with this?”

“Well, I don’t know. I just, I don’t know. It just, I feel it shame that the world not knowing such a talent like him.”

“Maybe he just really don’t like it. maybe he really have strong reason why he don’t want it.” Maybe he is right. “Tell me, how far you know about him?”

“I know him very well.” Really? why I feel I’m not sure when I said those words.

“Really? If you said so, then you must be really know why he so damn being stubborn to refuse too.” Actually I don’t really understand. “Then, about his family? You said he go to meet his family? You know bout his family? Where are they?”

“I… “ I… don’t know. Oh my God, I don’t know about that. I always rambling about my family, my self, but I never really heard bout him.

“I take that as you not sure that you really know.” I cant replay what Minwoo said. “Then, how is your love life with him?”

“We are going great.”

“Really? Did you guys already do it?” Oh how I hate his face when he ask me that. “Come on, tell me.”

“I… We…” damn it. “We haven’t.”

“Seriously? You’ve been in relationship for A year but not yet?” I nod. “WOW! Just.. WOW! Can hold it that long. Me and Dongwan, we been doing it a lot. I bet Junjin and Andy already did it too. Woooaaahh… Daebak. Bwahahahahahahahaha”

“Shut up! No need to show off.”

“You must be really love him so much. I never saw you like this before with your exs.”

“I AM!” I proudly say it to Min Woo. “Even though he is my first man, but I’m sure that I love him so much.”

“I’m happy for you Eric.” Yes I’m that sure that I really love Hyesung. “I got to go. I have appointment with Dong Wan and our client for his next job.”

And with that he go. Just like how he come. With style. So, what the point of him come to my office?

After that conversation with Minwoo, I realize something. Even though we’ve been together for a year, make it two with time when I chase him, there is something that I still don’t know about Hyesung. His background and his family. Do he have another job besides singing in Andy’s café? Where is his family? Do he have brother or sister? He never told me, he never speak about that.

All I know about Hyesung, mostly I knew it from Junjin. His birthday, what he likes, what he hates. And other information that I need to know. Speaking about his birthday back on November, I gave him a car. The one that he desired. Even though at first he refused it and almost beat me because buying him so damn expensive gift, and he almost return it. But after hear my reason and that I mean it. He gladly accept it.

And of course by time together with him, I get to know bout his personalities. How neat he is, a clean freak. Always worried bout the simple thing. Worried about others than himself. Nagging a lot. Stubborn bastard. But he still cant defeat me for being stubborn. Hah!

Shy, cute, clumsy, denial, yet sometimes can be furious. I love to till it point he show his pouting lips.

There is one thing that really makes me shock when I know it for the first time. His foul mouth. I never know that from that thin and sweet lips can out those foul words. Foul words plus nagging.

But cant deny that I sometimes I feel there’s much that he hide from me. Things that he yet can say it carelessly.

AH! Before I forgot. One thing for sure that sometimes I hate the most from him. He always push me away when I hug him in public place or even when 6 of us gather. I’m not even kiss him. Just hug and want some lovey time.

Okay I want to show off a lil bit like Minwoo and DongWan or like what Junjin and Andy do. But he always shove me away. The best thing that he will let me do is only hold his hand. No more. Even he do that, I’m sure he love me like I love him. Even he not yet allowed me to touch him, I’m sure he love me. I’ll wait.

I took a box of present from my table drawer. My gift for him for our anniversary. I hope he would like it. because I like it.

HyeSung ah~ when exactly you will comeback? I miss you~ did you miss me? Please come home soon. It’s bored without you here. You even not let me call you.

I’m tired. Better go home and eat and sleep.

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Far away from Eric, Hyesung not that different from Eric. Not really that far. It just Seoul – Busan and Busan to Seoul. Its only 329 KM apart. But maybe for both of them, at the moment is far away.

I’m so tired today.  Finally I can finished it today. I can relieve.

What is he doing right now? It’s bored without him. Even though he is so annoying sometimes, scratch that. Its always, but without it this few days I feel so damn bored. I never realize that I can miss his annoying behavior.

I just hope that, if he really do like what he said, staying at my apartment, He didn’t ruin my home. I still can remember the first time I’m so angry with him. I curse a lot that day. He messed up my apartment plus he bring Gomdori with him and, this is what makes me so angry.

Gomdori’s pee in my white sofa. I’m so pissed. It’s not that I hate Gomdori, but I already warned Eric to petting Gomdori well. But look what he did?! And he just left it like that without even try to clean it up or do something to prevent the smell and the stain.

Not just that, Gomdori’s fur are everywhere. I already told him to clean it too. I know at that time, I haven’t told him about my allergic to dog’s fur. But days after it, he knows because he takes me to doctor when I got heavy flu. when he knows what the cause, he never really leave Gomdori at my place for long time.

There’s much things that I haven’t told him about myself. It’s not I don’t trust him. I just can’t said it loudly to him, while as Eric, always told me about his family, his past, his ex and others thing. I feel I’m being not fair to him. I never talk about my family, my past, and about myself or sometimes my concern.

I took out my phone, and I’m quite shock cause I found it dead. I forgot that in this whole week I haven’t touch it at all. I plug it to the charger and try to turn on again.

So many message and missed call and some voice mail from Eric. Somehow, I’m not surprised with it. I will surprised if I don’t find any or not this much. I cant stop my self from smile widely and grinned reading all his message. It’s silly, cheesy and it’s so him.

                 From : Yeobo-Ric

                Hyesungie~ where are you? What are you doing?

                Are you angry with me?

               When will you go home? You’re not forget bout it right? Right? Right?

               Syungie ah~ I miss you so much.. go home soon, okay~

               I love you~  <3 <3 <3

              PS : Send my regards to your family.

Since when he change it again? I don’t remember named his contact like that. This person really…

“Hyung! Ready to go home?” My bro