Chapter 8

"because of my dream.... i was scared..."
she said without looking at his eyes...

"kum?" (dream?)
he asked

"what if i can't achieve that dream,
i was scared..."

"so it was because of your dream?"
he asked her

"soljiki maralka?" (should i be honest?)
"i was coward and selfish....
i was scared of what will i be in the future if i chose to stay..."

"i think of us many times before, too but i trusted luck
and it seems our fate is not going according to we want it to be...
that's what i thought..."
she explained...

"nan...(i) only thought one thing since that accident..."
joongki said

"even i lose and stop soccer...
only having you is enough for me..."

"even the only passion and the one thing i focused on to since i was 3 (years old)....
my dream...
it doesn't matter if i lose them as long as i have you by my side..."
he said wih his tears falling on his cheeks...

"keundae...(but)" he said

"chingu adwaekkeuna?"
(so we can't be friends?)
she interrupted him...

he wiped his tears and said
"i don't befriends with girls..."

"heol...then what's hyojoo to you?"

"ne chingu yochin..." (my friend's girlfriend)

"who's that friend?"
she asked

"kim jaejoong... mollasseo?" (you didn't know?)
he doubted

"jeongmal?" (really?)

joongki rode on her talk when he realized she avoided
talking about their past...

"onje buteo?" (since when?)

"nado molla..." (i'm not sure, too)

"even if you're not friends with hyojoo,
then what's geunyeong to you?"

"why do you have her phone number?"
she added

"keunyang...(just) a schoolmate in college..."
he said...

"keundae chaewon ah..."

"eo?"

"keugo iyegi hamyeon... jinjja kunnachi? uri..."
(if we talked about it... it's the end of us, right?)
he asked her

"jal andwaemyeon kureol su ga itchi..."
(if it didn't work out...then it could be that way)
she answered

"we don't know what will happen...
if it really didn't work out...
it will be awkward for us to meet again..."
she added...
"keugon shilta..." (and i don't like it)

"shilchi? it's been 9 years..."
he said...

"how about if we start again?"
she asked him

"yah...how can we start when we are not clear about the past yet?" he asked

"kurigo? what will we start again?"
he added while laughing...

joongki considered her words as a joke...
because it was already been years
and he couldn't believe her...

"(i want us to start a new again...
and just forget the past...)"
she thought but instead

"it's because i don't like your hot tempered personality!!!"
she changed the topic again to avoid his question

"yah! you're the one who gets angry easily!"
joongki said

"joongki ah..."

"wae?" (why)

"let's get serious....
no...kuttae...manhi appasseo?"
(were you hurt a lot?)

"eo...appasseo...twege...aju manhi...."
(a lot)
he said with a forced smile

"i can only say 'mianhae' right?"
she asked

"jugeul ponaesso...." (i thought i was going to die)

"na ante...chukku bakke omneundae...
wisa seonsaengnim ante
'no ije chukku hamyeon andwae, mothae....'
takk keu seungan... nae shimjangi momjosseo..."
(soccer is the only thing for me...
and when the doctor said i can't play it again...
my heart stopped from that moment....)

"jungnun saram gattae..."
(i was like a dead person)

"inside..."

"and above all, you were gone..."

"so every time i'm gonna think about it...
it's either i think i'm gonna throw up...or i'll lose my appetite.."

"that's why acting made me live again..."
he added

"if i only focus on it...
i feel like i'm living like a different person...
it wipes away all of my sad memories...
acting is my freedom...since that time...
so once i tried it...i wanted to be good at it...
until it slowly became my dream..."

"jinjja mianhae...jinshim iya..."
"nomu nomu mianhae
mianhaesseo tto mianhaekko..."
she said

"they say it's not real but...
i think i'm one of those people who turned to hate the word
'sorry'...."

"keundae... when i'm trying to think about you and our memories...
kyolgeuk (in the end) i realize there are still more of our happy times than our sad times...
bittersweet isn't it?"

"so is there any girls that caught joongki's heart?"
chaewon asked him carelessly

"(no jinjja... don't you think of my feelings?
if you really moved on...)" he thought

"well i think i can say it though"
he said thinking he has no choice

"eh?" she asked in confusion

"but i had crush on someone...she's a sunbae...."
he said

every single word that comes out from his mouth and as
he continues the more she realize it still hurts her feelings
to hear that he liked someone other tha