Author's note:

Please if you have time, read the whole story first before going through with this last chapter.

This chapter can get very confusing and puzzling if you do not know the whole story very well. So please give time :)

Thank you and Enjoy reading

 

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The next day came and as promised Jiyeon came to see Kris first thing in the morning.

Jiyeon made her first step into the room but she suddenly rushed back making her drop all her stuff.

She ran calling out for a doctor as she was screaming her voice out "Kris, please help him doctor!!.. I don't know what's happening!!

Several hours passed then passed till she was called at the doctor's office...

 

'Ms. Jiyeon I hope you are already prepared to hear this but as of Kris condition he only have amaximum of 4 days to live.

If we can't have a heart surgery till his last day, I'm sorry but we have to let him pass. I'll be going first.

 

Jiyeon was left dumb on her seat, silently sobs as she weeps out her tears.

'This feeling, I felt this countless of times already, I'm being useless again, I don't know what to do.

 

If only,if only I'm strong as Bora

 

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Time passed till Kris wakes up from the tranquilizer that was injected to him, he wakes up with Jiyeon 

by his side sleeping while holding into his hand.  Kris can't help not to feel lighthearted because of Jiyeon.

Kris then moved, sitting carefully trying not to disturb or wake her from sleep. 'It's been a while since I got to know you..

the hands of time does really ticks fast to me. He started smiling while he keeps his keen gaze to Jiyeon, reminiscing the days

the moments that passed with Jiyeon. Calmy removing his hand from Jiyeon's hold, he searched through the drawer near his bed..-

 

'Ah here it is- 'This is the only thing that I can do for you Jiyeon. He wrote his his letter while having this running on his mind.

It was a bitter sweet atmosphere around Kris, smiling while he silently cries into tears. After writing, he secretly tucked his letter inside

Jiyeon's bag folding it into 4. Then he came back to his bed, slowly tucking back his hands back at Jiyeon's hand ending to waking her up.

He strongly pulled his hand back as he growled at Jiyeon with his old cold face of his..-

 

'What are you doing?! I told you to just leave me alone!

 

Jiyeon stood up quitely 'What do you want to eat Kris? I brought you fruits and some stews, just in case

you don't like the food they serve here.

 

Seeing Jiyeon's unexpected response Kris was left dumbfounded for second as he layed back again the he said

'You can leave Jiyeon, I'm fine by myself.

 

'I'll see you tomorrow Kris, eat well okay.

 

For the first time Jiyeon went out of the door like nothing, gone straight without even looking back or even to push

herself to Kris, 'Jiyeon don't hurt yourself like me..-Kris said to himself while he watches Jiyeon makes her way out.

 

---

 

The next day came. the 1st day of Kris's last 4 days. Jiyeon headed straight to the hospital leaving all her desolations behind.

Unlike last night, she wasn't able to think straight for she feels miserable because of why of all time she can't do nothign to help.

When she promised to Kris that she won't let him live in pain. As she enters the room, it was the same old cold looking guy staring in

front of her.

 

'Hi Kris! How are you doing?

 

'Jiyeon you probably know that I'm living for the next 3 days.

 

For a second Jiyeon stopped from hearing this, stucked up all confused on how in the world Kris knew about this.

Before even Jiyeon breaks a sweat she faced Kris smiling while pulling out a fake laugh 'Kris what a ridiculous thing to say-

 

'Why do you even have to act like this?! Kris growled with his Stare focused into Jiyeon

 

'I'm sorry Kris... I just didn't want to break this to you, Jiyeon said while she nodded down facing the floor.

 

Kris layed back to his his bed, turning away 'It's okay, I don't care even if I die today. -He barely whisppered.

 

Time passed with Jiyeon locked up with her reveries from the previous incidents and on Kris's past story.

No matter how deep she is endulge into her thoughts it's always the image of LJoe that breaks into her.

Its been almost 2 weeks since their last meeting, yet Jiyeon sti;; can't get ahead of herself from what she saw

from LJoe. Still she can't help thinking on how LJoe can do such behavior.  In the midst of her puzzled thinking

when suddenly something snapped into her 'Kris? you actually tried to kill your self.. getting into gang fights..

 

'Kris are you awake?

 

'What do you want?

 

'I don't know how to start this/- 'Spill it out Jiyeon

 

With her legs shaking on her seat while she takes a strong grip to herself

'Kris could there be a chance that... no no no.. -Jiyeons said with her voice full of hesitations.

 

''Jiyeon I got no time for this, you can leave now.

 

'NO KRIS! Tell me, that scar on your chest, where did you got it again?

 

Straight away Kris answered her with his voice shaking as if he is running out of breath

'I told you before, there was a time where I tried to kill myself.

 

'So you're saing that you didn't get it from a fight?

 

'Jiyeon how many times do I have to tell you?

 

'Then you don't know anything about I getting cornered by some gang before and the reason for the lunch

that I was giving you?

 

Kris's face speals of everything, of him being clueless about what Jiyeon is talking about

'Jiyeon what are you talking about? *cough. 'go, I'm resting.

 

After hearing this, Jiyeon turned dumbfounded, thinking it was Kris all along. What strucked Jiyeon moments 

ago was what Kris said, how Kris life became after Bora's death. What hit her and puzzled her most was the wound

that she saw months ago when Kris was resting at the rooftop of their school.  All along thinking that he got it from

the ganster that attacked her.  Slowly things are coming up to her, On how Kris is involve with the gang fight the night

she was cornered and his cut near his chest. 'If it's not Kris then who??

 

Second day came with Jiyeon restless from thinking who really saved her that night. It disturbs her the most

that the fact that she can't recall a certain event, where that event is somehow related to who really saved her

that night.

 

That afternoon Jyeon came to see Kris, opening the door seeing him being with the doctor. As soon as t he doctor turned 

around, Jiyeon got surprised seeing Kris as pale as a ghost with his voice shaking from his lost of breath.

Having to see Kris in this state, Jiyeon didn't know how to react, looking all weary and pathethic infront of Kris.

Having this feeling, she was full of hesitations on how she should approach Kris, she's just not scared but she is breaking inside

seeing Kris having to suffer while all she can do is watch him in his pain.

 

'Kri-kris, do you need something? would you like to eat or what?- she said slowly with her voice shaking in hesitations.

 

'Kris immediately turned away then he said 'Just leave me alone for now, I want to be alone.

 

Jiyeon got no other coice but to do as what Kris pleases. If she stay, her feelings mught just consume her

and to make her heart and senses to explode. She left the room silently for she can't speak because of silently

weeping on her tears.

 

The next day came and it is already the third day of Kris's remaining 4 days.

As the final day comes closer, Jiyeon grows weary with it. Night by night praying, thinking on how

can she help with Kris's condition. She thought of dping what Bora did before but she isn't that strong to do it

and she just can't push herself to do it after what happened to her after she survived her incident with Jaejoong.

This is the third day but Jiyein just can't face Kris nomore wearing her mask of smile, she just can't after seeing him

all pale yesterday. And knowing that tomorrow will be his last chance specially that they are heedless about what

hour of the day he might go.

But in the end Jiyeon didn't have any choice but to come and stay with Kris for she knows on herself that

this is what she promised to him, to stay with him till the end and at least she's trying to carry this cause she knows

that she can't accomplish her second, to not let Kris hurt anymore, this stabs her heart more.

 

'Kris I'm he---Jiyeon left dumb from seeing Kris current conditon, Kris as good as dead lying on his bed

looking senseless,lifeless. With his state Jiyeon just can't hide on her shell anymore, she just can't pretend

as if nothing is happening anymore. She slowly entered the room as she slowly closed it and stand and rest her back 

on it, where her tears flowing while looking at Kris who is staring out of nowhere.

 

'Kris.... Kris I'm sorry, sorry, sorry....- Jiyeon said while she whimping on her tears.

 

'Jiyeon what are you muttering now? despite of the situation, Kris won't even look at Jiyeon. He remains on

staring out of nowhere with his cold pale face.

 

'Kris sorry, sorry, I can't do it anymore, I just can't..-she said while she slowly falls to crouching with her 

hands covering her face with her tears streaming down to her face.

'Sorry that I can't do nothing tohelp you, I promised you that I won't let you hurt but now... It just hurt me seeing you like this..

 

'Jiyeon are you really that dumb?? No I guess you really are stupid.

 

Jiyeon shaken from she heard from Kris' Kri-Kris why??

 

'You're hurting seeing me likethis you say? well YOU WERE THE ONE WHO INSISTED ON STAYING HERE AND WATCHING ME!.

I told you many times before to just leave me alone, but you just won't. You wanted to love me, but I didn't wanted to love

you.. I said that many times before.. that stupid one sided love of yours, it does nothing but to hurt me more.

I didn't know you were this dumb.

 

For a moment silence covered the whole room, even with Jiyeon who is crying her pain got shaken and fell in silence.

 

'I guess I really am stupid for only looking to you.

If you feels it's a burden that all my senses are focused only on you, I will leave now.

If I made you suffer because I couldn't control my feelings, sorry but I'll go.

I didn't know that I was hurting you this much with my stupid obsession.

Then she looked up giving a strong glare to Kris with her tears streaming down

'Just know this before I go that I'm stupid for loving you like this and waiting for you.. to love me too.

But if you hate me that much I will leave right away but know this Kris.. You will always stay here in

my heart, for this moment it shattered into pieces but I will find a way to mend it back and keep 

you here in my heart.

She picked herself up and right before she opens the door she loked to Kris again

'Kris do you really hate me that much that you can't even look at me now?- she stated solemly

 

'Just leave, I don't have the time to look at your pitiful face. Just go and don't comeback.

 

Without a single sound, Jiyeon went out only with her tears streaming down to her face.

 

 

Right after Jiyeon gone tears started to fall down to Kris's face

'I'm sorry Jiyeon... but I have to do this..

 

It was 6am in the morning when Kris had his vital signs check up. Not only he's having a hard time brething and had

his body turn into a good all pale. Now he isn't able to move a inch of his body it was a mear miracle that his head is not

affected by the paralization. They were pleading Kris to move him on a Intensive care unit room, but he refuses.

'I'll be fine doctor.

The doctors were against Kris's wish because his body might just give up and won't even reach his 4th day.

But in the end the doctors can't please Kris and let him as he wanted.

Kris chose not to get moved for he knows that if Jiyeon sees him in a Intensive care unit room, she'l; just hurt more

and will break her heart more and it will be harder for her to say goodbye to Kris. That's why he planned of

entirely pushing her away for her not to see his condition anymore.

'Even though I really wanted to see you for the last time, but I can't. 

At least I got to hear your voice for the last time.

 

---

 

After leaving, Jiyeon went somewhere in the hospital where she wanted to be alone and where she can 

cry out all her pain and blurred lines away. Crying, crying all her tears away 'Am I really that stupid? 'What have I done?

'How pathetic I am?- These were running at Jiyeon thoughts. 

 

'If this was how it's going to be, I shouldn't have loved you Kris...

'I guess I loved you so foolishly that you remain deeper than a scar here in my heart that I can't erase

 

'Jiyeon are you hurting?

 

In the midst of her crying when a familiar voice came and called for her as she looked to it, she continued

crying 'LJoe what are you doing here?

 

'You told me to come to you once I read your letter.... Jiyeon stop crying, I'm here now.

Even with what happened with their last meeting, LJoe still approaches Jiyeon lightheartedly and with 

his usual smile. But not with Jiyeon, as LJoe slowly approaches her she stared with her blunt gaze 'Don't come closer, or I'll scream for help.

'Jiyeon why are you being like this?

 

'I don't know, LJoe i'm scared, but no matter how hard I tell myself not to get scared of you, nothing to get scared of.. BUT I CAN'T!

 

'There's no way that I would have hurt you, please Jiyeon believe me right now.

LJoe stated calmly as he kept his galnce to Jiyeon as if he was bout to Kneel down and cry just Jiyeon to believe in him.

'I don't know how to explain this, you'll probably think it's all an excuse but I'm not the same me as before..

 

'LJoe I don't know what to think anymore, just leave me alone...

She stood up after pulling this out as she plans of leaving and end their conversation.

She passed through LJoe without looking at him or thinking that he's even their standing.

 

'Jiyeon I love you...

 

Jiyeon looked back as her eyes are already drenched from the tears she cried

'LJoe please don't do this to me.. don't make things more complicated to me and for you..

Then LJoe made a step closer to Jiyeon, staring at her with his kidled eyes.

He grabbed her hand but with Jiyeon resisting he tauten his hold as he keeps his gaze to Jiyeon...

 

'He kept his gaze as he stated slowly 'hold my hand... do you hear my heart? it beats out for you.

 

For a moment Jiyeon felt her heart beat in an unusual manner at the same time she felt the smae

warm feeling back then when she was catching her consciousness. For some seconds she

fell tight-lipped and dumbfounded with her tears started to cast through slowly.

 

'LJoe no... please I can't.. she gently shrugged her hand making LJoe to loosen his grip.

 

'LJoe... I don't love you, I love Kris please just go,,,

 

'Jiyeon you're telling me this with your sad face, why are you looking me with such eyes...

 

'LJoe... this was the only word that Jiyeon can say, the rest.. she just can't pull them out to say. For this will

make vulnerable to LJoe. she turned away making her steps fast when LJoe....-

 

'Jiyeon he grunt-'Is this what your wanted or is this what you're telling yourself? is this what your mind wanted...

Jiyeon who is taken aback from what LJoe said felt her world stopped in that moment. 'How?

'My heart really wanted... then she suddenly growled with her looking all confused, the she ran without looking back

leaving LJoe strucked and crying his love out.

 

'How could I not recognize him? It was him all along.. LJoe....

Jiyeon was taken aback with the words of LJoe for she recognizes these words,

it was the same words asked to her when she was out of her consciousness back at the night

of their incident. What took her the most was the man that she can't recognize was actually LJoe

all along. 'LJoe I can't...

She kept running home with her mind puzzled because of LJoe and Kris.

 

With the night placid into darkness and the moon beaming through the window to Jiyeon who is

reluctantly seated beside her bed, waiting and watching the clock to click past 12 midnight 'I know he'll come..

With the hour passing by her inquisitivness continues to grow and grow making her bleary in thoughts.

By the time that the clock clocked to 12 the strong growl overwhlemed the placidity of the night. Jiyeon stood up infront

of the window as she pulled of the cortain, with her sight only focused on the shadow that the moon is bleamin

from behin.

 

'LJoe I know you'd come.

 

'I guess you already know....

 

Jiyeon coldly respond as she sat behind her window 'LJoe let's not make this long.. and I want you to answer all my questions..

'Tell me LJoe, It's you who really save me from the gang?

 

'yes.. LJoe barely whisppered

 

'Why didn't you tell me? LJoe what were you thinking?! Jiyeon gushly screamed having her tears almost to stream

with LJoe saying yes to her.

 

'I got scared... Jiyeon I got scared that you might run away from me once you knew this side of me... but jiyeon all

I need is you.. I'll-/ with LJoe's shaking and hesitant voice, Jiyeon cut him off with her voice trembling because of

her tears silently gushing to her face.

'LJOE STOP IT! you got scared?? for the second time you got scared again.. the first time, you just left me

saying nothing but you don't want to cause you're scared.... LJoe up to when are you planning to RUN AWAY?

 

'I'm not running away anymore... I'm done running- LJoe straightforwardly said causing Jiyeon to get astonished from

hearing his voice voice full of sincerity..

'Back then I wasn't ready when you confessed your love for me... yeah I got scared Jiyeon... I was afraid that you might 

go wrong because of me, I was afraid that if you stay beside me till the end you'll get heartbroken and you might fall.

Jiyeon is left tight-lipped in her seat, while she sobs and covers with her han trying not to let LJoe hear her

crying with his words.

'But now Jiyeon I won't let you get hurt anymore, I wasn't strong enough so I could not let you go. Jiyeon--/

'LJOE STOP! don't say my name anymore, please don't tell me that you love me.. I don't wanna do it anymore LJoe,

I can't do it any longer. I love Kris now, forget a girl like me and live well.

 

'Jiyeon I love you..

 

'LJOE AREN'T YOU GETTING TIRED FROM ALL THIS? Jiyeon nastily scream. 'I told you to just go and find somone else!

behind her words are her tears streaming wildly with her heart aching in her pains.

 

 

'No matter how hard it is I won't get tired, no matter how much it hurts me seeing you with Kris and not with me, my life

still goes on and on. Jiyeon without hesitations I want to look at you alone. The only thing I always needed was you.

Even if I get lost in the endless darkness that I have here in me, for you I wil always find a way back to myself. No matter

what troubles come, I'll wipe my tears again and again for you I won't ever stop loving and looking you..

 

LJoe sincerely said while a tear is slowly flowing from his eyes with his voice slowly fading away.

 

'LJOE!- Jiyeon hurriedly snapped the curtains off as she can't bare it anymore not to see LJoe and to push him further away,

but she was too late by the time she snapped the curtains out LJoe was gone and whats left was his scent lingering in the air

and the bed of rose petals.

 

'LJoe... why?.. don't leave me, it's written here in my eyes, my tears are telling you but why can't you just see it? Like you im

scared.. Im scared to tell you this and to tell you that I still love you.

 

 

Meanwhile after LJoe left his words to Jiyeon he headed out at the the hospital planning out to give a unexpected visit

to someone..

 

After a long weary night, the next day broke out. With the sun shinning brightly on Jiyeon who is in her deep sleep because

of the series of events that happened to her last night. then suddenly waking in shock 'Today is the last day!- she almost jumped

out of her bed seeing the time, it is almost past afternoon but then she came to realize the words that Kris threw out to her.

Instead she sat on the isle of her bed, grabbing her bag and having a hand of her phone. Surprisingly what broker to her sight was

7miss calls and 2 voice mails. '7miss calls from LJoe? then checking her voicemails one from a unknown recipient and the other

one from LJoe. She started to listen with LJoe

 

'Jiyeon I was trying to reach you, I just wanted to talk to you and hear you again for the last time... Jiyeon tell me what is love

that it ties me up to you like this? Am I being so pathetic for horribly falling for you? Back then when you looked at me, just for 1minute,

1second, I only know you but tht was before, because now it seems that  of the two of us, I'm the only one who can't live without you.

I still miss you habitually Jiyeon, our picture here is smiling looking at me, If I put you in my eyes and smile, would we be able to do it

again like this day? *laughs forget it. -LJoe speaking with his voice almost to fade out becuase of his crying it was all clear... Jiyeon can hear

it clearly how he sobs and whelps while he was recording his call. Slowly while she listens to LJoe, tears started to form into her eyes.

 

'I didn't know the beginning or end but I guess today is the end... All day I'll stand here and wait for you, all you need to do is come.

but remember this, I will always be by your side.. protect you and watch you grow till the end of time..... then strong horns and screams

started to fill the voice mail and suddenly the mail ended.

 

'LJOE! LJOE! Jiyeon became totally clueless about the call but despite of being puzzled about it. she can't help but to feel sorrowful

after hearing LJoe. Having a strange feeling as if she lost a part of her life and this feeling stabs into her and her eyes started to rain down

tears naturally without her control. Because of her growing wear atmosphere, she dialed LJoe but unfortunately it says "cannot be reached"

'LJoe where are you? Please tell me you're safe and sound. She then continued with the next call even she's on a current condition

 

'Ms. Jiyeon this is Doctor Xing, sorry but Kris is forced to be moved into the emergency room and we might loose him anymoment. the call ended.

Sudden shock strucked her after hearing these messages, loosing her hold into her phone same with her senses. Slowly sinking

into her the possibilities that already might have happened to Kris and LJoe. Confused on who she should be thinking first and on

who she should go to first. Not knowing what she should do, she broke out and started crying hard, she started to throw out every things

that she can have a hand on. And there she found a paper she never knew layed near her bag after throwing it out of the wall. She hurriedly

came to it as she slowly unfolds the paper-

 

'Remember when e first gazed into each other? One day we saw each other for the firsty time, suddenly I'm out of breath,

once again I felt my heart beat out of life again, and my painful memories have all disappered. The lunch you prepared for me?

If only I can have a bite out of it, but I can't. That moment I had to run, I might fall for you and get you in trouble. But that night came,

Jiyeon if only I can hold your hand tighther and Kiss you longer I would have take all the consequencesbut I feared for seeing Bora in you

and pushed you away. But still you came back for me, gazing to me warmly, but I always avoid it. And turn my face away. Pushing you

away without any expression, as if it's nothing, I practiced doing that everyday but when it comes to you it's still awkward. 

No matter how much it hurts me, everyday I buck trying to get used to spending a day as if I don't feel a thing. But in the end everything 

came to an end. I'm loving you, this cold and prideful person I am is slowly changing, suddenly my heart becomes more open and secretly

loving you. You've already done much for me and this is the the only thing I can do for you.... sorry

 

                                                                                                  -Kris

 

Without any thought Jiyeon dashed through out the door winhout any doubt on her mind on loving Kris. Straight away she headed out searching for Doctor Xing with her tears gushingly streaming in her face. She almost dragged Doctor Xing down when she saw him.

She tried calming herself down first but she just can't, her feeling overwhelmmed her already.

'Ms. Jiyeon.... Kris survived! a heart came available with the last minute running!

'DOCTOR WHERE IS HE?!

 

Without further adue right after she heard the room number she sprint her way without giving a thought to her legs which are already

shaking out of tiredness. Once the room number got into her sight without any moment she forcefully opened the door.. that moment

everything on her sight went blur, she almost felt like passing out but one thing was clear to her, Kris who is seated in his bed looking directly

to her smiling brightly into her. She slowly made her shaky steps to Kris with half of her senses dead. She stood infront of Kris looking

all weary 'Kris you're alive- she barely said because of loosing her breath. Kris slowly reached for her hands, holding them gently but tight.

He stared looking directly to Jiyeon warmly with his eyes burning passionately 'I'm alive Jiyeon, LJoe gave me another chance... he died for me.

With half of her senses off, still deep in her she felt the tremendous growing pain to her. Her body couldn't take any of it anymore. She

was about to pass out and fall directly but Kris pulled her into his arms holding and embracing her tightly like  he never did before

as he rushly beeps for a nurse.

 

Last night LJoe went at the hospital giving a unusual visit to Kris. But what he came to see was already comatosed and almost to late

for him to survive. Instead he went to sign a heart petition asking that what ever happens to him, his heart will be taken and will

directly go to Kris who is fataly comatosed. For a minute he stayed with Kris speaking to him with his tears running.

Right afterLJoe spoke his last words to Jiyeon, he crushed him self directly into a running car causing him to bleed for his life and have

his petition to work.

 

After 3 days of Jiyeon being asleep, slowly she finally regains her senses back seeing Kris sitting by her side. 'Kris.. where's LJoe?

Kris remains silent only swaying his head 'Kris why are you not talking? I want to see LJoe! she screamed but still Kris

stood silent. 'LJoe.... LJoe... LJoe.... LJoe... she continuously recites his name falling into her tantrum and forcefully crying and weeping

in her bed. Kris came to her locking her in his arms holding her tightly. - 'Jiyeon stop it.. LJoe don't want you to cry anymore that's why

he did this. He came to me giving me another chance, a chance for me to love you back and to care for you with his heart in me.

You may see your life now in sorrow but now it's my turn to light up your life. I love you Jiyeon. His gentle and soft words broke Jiyeon's

tantrum and tears. She hugged Kris back having their heart to beat out to each other.

 

 

Their life together was as happy as a fairytale ending can be, loving each other like on one can torn them apart.

Several months passed still the days of their love is growing. Going out and dating and Kris's love almost

erased the pain of loosing LJoe in Jiyeon's heart till one day. They were walking with the crowd having their date

when Jiyeon suddenly bumped into someone having that person to almost get stumble. She looked back to say sorry

but as she looked back---

 

'Jiyeon it's me......

 

-end